Hey homo!

[Jonas Long]

7 minutes ago, Reena said:

And are you happy that people don't have that?

Why would I be? 

[Jonas Long]

@Reena geez, how many things do you openly hate? You hate feminism. You hate men.  You hate nerdy guys.  What else?  What is it that I "hate" again? 

[Jonas Long]

12 minutes ago, Reena said:

And are you happy that people don't have that?

You've accused me of hating men, when I've said multiple times I do not, but you have a thread here called "resolving man hate". 

[Reena]

16 minutes ago, Jonas Long said:

@Reena geez, how many things do you openly hate? You hate feminism. You hate men.  You hate nerdy guys.  What else?  What is it that I "hate" again? 

 

14 minutes ago, Jonas Long said:

You've accused me of hating men, when I've said multiple times I do not, but you have a thread here called "resolving man hate". 

 

Go on. Go on. I'm not taking offense like you. Please keep going. Let it out till your heart's content. Call me a hypocrite if you want to. 

 

You accused me of not being able to get laid. And that hurts a lot especially given all my sexual repression. But C'mon keep attacking my weaknesses. 

 

Edited November 18, 2023 by Reena

[Jonas Long]

15 minutes ago, Reena said:

 

 

Go on. Go on. I'm not taking offense like you. Please keep going. Let it out till your heart's content. Call me a hypocrite if you want to. 

 

You accused me of not being able to get laid. And that hurts a lot especially given all my sexual repression. But C'mon keep attacking my weaknesses. 

 

I have no interest in targeting you.  You took offense to things I didn't even say to you.   you took stuff I said to nobody in particular personally.  

Edited November 18, 2023 by Jonas Long

[Reena]

4 minutes ago, Jonas Long said:

I have no interest in targeting you.  You took offense to things I didn't even say to you.   you took stuff I said to nobody in particular personally.  

Don't hide the fact  that it was about me. You know it deep down. Looking straight into your eyes right now. Looking at you dead  in the eye. You know it. 

Edited November 18, 2023 by Reena

[Jonas Long]

3 minutes ago, Reena said:

Don't hide the fact  that it was about me. You know it deep down. Looking straight into your eyes right now. Dead in your eyes. You know it. 

I promise you it was not.  You have this ass-backwards.  

[Reena]

1 minute ago, Jonas Long said:

I promise you it was not.  You have this ass-backwards.  

Okay okay, I will let it go. I'll try to calm myself. I don't hold grudges for too long. I'm not like that. 

[Proserpina]

You flaunt your fantasies openly with other men.  Weakness? Lol. You were flaunting your sexual fantasies in front of my then partner.  I honestly think the fantasies were him in disguise.  

 

Looking straight into your eyes right now. Dead in your eyes. You know it. 

 

Get off of him.   You're not the pure hearted innocent here. 

 

[Reena]

21 minutes ago, Proserpina said:

I honestly think the fantasies were him in disguise.  

 

 

 

I'm generally open about my feelings as you can already see. I have been writing about my fantasies for almost a year and more now. I'm just this way. This is my nature. Most men I imagine don't exist in real life. Wherever I go I write my fantasies because I'm die hard romantic at heart. It's my passion. These fantasies had nothing to do with your partner. I don't care if other men are reading my fantasies. Let them. It doesn't bother me if they like it or not. I like to be a free bird. I never openly or secretly for that matter flirted with your partner. I respect and trust him all the way. All communication between me and him was purely transactional and professional. Nothing romantic at all. Not one word. I have never felt anything like that toward him from the get go. The evidence is right there. If I had such feelings, wouldn't I have been open about it like I always have. I used to openly declare my feelings if I fell in love with someone. It's against my personal policy to be romantic with someone who is already taken or married or in a relationship. There was absolutely no casual flirting either. My sexual fantasies are my own. They are my story. They are my passion. They belong to me just like a book belongs to an author. I used to write such stuff in my journal anyway. Sometimes I discuss these things with people to collect more ideas on it. I never even entertained the thought of flirting with your partner. The fantasies were and are all the dream men I imagine. These are fictional men. Some of them are my exes. 

 

What I felt hurt about is that you never cared to clear things with me and went on to accuse me of shit I never did. I felt back stabbed. I felt you were my friend. So when you attacked me, it was the worst thing. It was breach of my trust in you. Also the fact that you never wanted to communicate beforehand. That hurt. I realized that there is no point in trusting women. Because if they want to attack they will find any petty reason to do so. 

My angst against you is totally legit. You accused me of pretty nasty shit that is against my conscience. I have never been with taken men. I was and I am completely innocent. The fact that I even had to justify and defend myself publicly when I knew deep down I had done nothing wrong. But as they say, you can't change if someone deliberately wants to think bad about you. 

 

If you want to make up shit and hurt me, you can, but remember that I also have a brain and a pair of eyes to see. If I see someone unfairly projecting their suspicions on me, I'm not going to be a sitting duck and just eat all that nonsense. No. You lost me forever. I am not going to be forgiving towards someone who has publicly humiliated me in this manner. 

 

I'm gonna laugh at you when you look at me dead in the eye. Because you are full of shit. I laugh because it looks like a bad joke. I didn't do anything. I have a clear conscience so what do I fear? Even God can look at me dead in the eye and I will say that I'm innocent. 

 

By the way, you blamed an completely innocent woman of nasty shit. So please have a seat and try to live with the consequences of what you did. As usual you'll blame me instead of thinking that maybe somewhere you might be wrong in accusing me. But that thought will be too much for you to consider. 

So yeah, sit with it. 

I have nothing to worry.

 

 

Edited November 18, 2023 by Reena

[Proserpina]

6 minutes ago, Reena said:

I'm generally open about my feelings as you can already see. I have been writing about my fantasies for almost a year and more now. I'm just this way. This is my nature. Most men I imagine don't exist in real life. Wherever I go I write my fantasies because I'm die hard romantic at heart. It's my passion. These fantasies had nothing to do with your partner. I don't care if other men are reading my fantasies. Let them. It doesn't bother me if they like it or not. I like to be a free bird. I never openly or secretly for that matter flirted with your partner. I respect and trust him all the way. All communication between me and him was purely transactional and professional. Nothing romantic at all. Not one word. I have never felt anything like that toward him from the get go. The evidence is right there. If I had such feelings, wouldn't I have been open about it like I always have. I used to openly declare my feelings if I fell in love with someone. It's against my personal policy to be romantic with someone who is already taken or married or in a relationship. There was absolutely no casual flirting either. My sexual fantasies are my own. They are my story. They are my passion. They belong to me just like a book belongs to an author. I used to write such stuff in my journal anyway. Sometimes I discuss these things with people to collect more ideas on it. I never even entertained the thought of flirting with your partner. The fantasies were and are all the dream men I imagine. These are fictional men. Some of them are my exes. 

 

What I felt hurt about is that you never cared to clear things with me and went on to accuse me of shit I never did. I felt back stabbed. I felt you were my friend. So when you attacked me, it was the worst thing. It was breach of my trust in you. Also the fact that you never wanted to communicate beforehand. That hurt. I realized that there is no point in trusting women. Because if they want to attack they will find any petty reason to do so. 

My angst against you is totally legit. You accused me of pretty nasty shit that is against my conscience. I have never been with taken men. I was and I am completely innocent. The fact that I even had to justify and defend myself publicly when I knew deep down I had done nothing wrong. But as they, you can't change if someone deliberately wants to think bad about you. 

 

If you want to make up shit and hurt me, you can, but remember that I also have a brain and a pair of eyes to see. If I see someone unfairly projecting their suspicions on me, I'm not going to be a sitting duck and just eat all that nonsense. No. You lost me forever. I am not going to be forgiving towards someone who has publicly humiliated me in this manner. 

 

I'm gonna laugh at you when you look at me dead in the eye. Because you are full of shit. I laugh because it looks like a bad joke. I didn't do anything. I have a clear conscience so what do I fear? Even God can look at me dead in the eye and I will say that I'm innocent. 

 

By the way, you blamed an completely innocent woman of nasty shit. So please have a seat and try to live with the consequences of what you did. As usual you'll blame me instead of thinking that maybe somewhere you might be wrong in accusing me. But that thought will be too much for you to consider. 

So yeah, sit with it. 

I have nothing to worry.

 

 

You have the audacity to tell me I'm not a real woman.  He tells me I'm a transvestite.  Because I did something that I apologized for.   But it wasn't enough for you, you had to publicly humiliate me telling people that my schizophrenia was out of control.   I was in pain.  And you were flaunting your sexuality in front of him.   Using him for your sexual fantasies.   No empathy, both ganging up on me.  There is no justice.  God will judge you both for what you have done.  

[Reena]

18 minutes ago, Proserpina said:

You have the audacity to tell me I'm not a real woman.  He tells me I'm a transvestite.  Because I did something that I apologized for.   But it wasn't enough for you, you had to publicly humiliate me telling people that my schizophrenia was out of control.   I was in pain.  And you were flaunting your sexuality in front of him.   Using him for your sexual fantasies.   No empathy, both ganging up on me.  There is no justice.  God will judge you both for what you have done.  

This is crazy. It's my journal. I can flaunt my sexuality in front of the whole goddamn world. It's called sexual freedom. I can do whatever I want. You're nobody to tell another woman what she should wear, what she should write, how she should talk. Why the hell should i listen to your dictation? Do you go around telling other women to cover themselves up in front of your partner because your partner has eyes to see? Do you tell women to stop doing porn because your partner might watch them? Who the hell are you to restrict my sexuality then? What is flaunting sexuality even! What nonsense. A woman can flaunt whatever she wants, however she wants. Go tell men to cover their eyes. I shouldn't have to change who I am because you don't like it. And if your relationship is not working for whatever goddamn reason, why drag me into your relationship drama? I have nothing to do with your breakup. If you're so goddamn insecure then go tell your partner to never talk to other women, or never talk to women who flaunt their cleavage lol. It's another thing if I flirted with him. But I didn't. Regarding my sexuality, you have no right to control it. Neither mine nor any other woman's. If your relationship is so threatened by some other woman who isn't even flirting with your man, then it's your insecurity and your relationship problem to deal with. Don't project your nonsense fears on me. It would be legit to feel insecure if I were flirting with him. But I wasn't. So you have no case. Go back home. The sexual fantasies were about other men. I already made it clear a million times. Stop bugging me about things you can't handle right. By the way I didn't gang up on you. Retaliating your nonsense is not ganging up. You ain't weak. You know when to attack and I have realized what you're doing. I'm fine by myself. Find a guy who you can completely control lol, you lost your shit because you couldn't have your way. 

And don't dictate a woman how she should talk to other men. None of your business. 

Didnt you just say that you apologized for it? So this means that you knew that you were wrong in your assumptions. Right? You got caught there. You knew that I was innocent. That's why you apologized because you realized that you could have been wrong assuming bullshit about it. If you weren't wrong why would you apologize? Now it's up to me to forgive you or not and I chose not to because I stopped trusting you. You can't blame someone for how they feel about you. You gave me enough reason to not trust you. 

 

You aren't angry about your wrong assumptions. You're upset that I didn't forgive you. Well... For your kind information, I reserve the right to forgive you or not. And I choose not to. I don't have to. There's no moral obligation to forgive you. 

 

Edited November 18, 2023 by Reena

[Joseph Maynor]

1 hour ago, Orb said:

The discordant nature of reactivity is that it tries to arouse reactivity in others. 

It's ridiculous things that draws people in like crack.  Attention stealing moves/maneuvers basically.  It's good to become mindful of this.  Marketing is based on this.  Your attention has to be hooked or hijacked even.  And one way that can be done is through outrageous or even ridiculous moves or stunts.  You can't look away.  It's like seeing a car accident.  You can look away but you have to be mindful of what's happening here and also do some blocking and take control over what you pay attention to.  You have to set some boundaries yourself because it is hard to look away at shit that is just wacky.  It's drama basically.

[Reena]

22 minutes ago, Proserpina said:

God will judge you both for what you have done.  

God won't judge me. Because I'm fully confident in my innocence. God will judge you for blaming innocence. So take care and don't go around blaming others  for your problems. Not fair. 

 

Edited November 18, 2023 by Reena

[Proserpina]

55 minutes ago, Reena said:

This is crazy. It's my journal. I can flaunt my sexuality in front of the whole goddamn world. It's called sexual freedom. I can do whatever I want. You're nobody to tell another woman what she should wear, what she should write, how she should talk. Why the hell should i listen to your dictation? Do you go around telling other women to cover themselves up in front of your partner because your partner has eyes to see? Do you tell women to stop doing porn because your partner might watch them? Who the hell are you to restrict my sexuality then? What is flaunting sexuality even! What nonsense. A woman can flaunt whatever she wants, however she wants. Go tell men to cover their eyes. I shouldn't have to change who I am because you don't like it. And if your relationship is not working for whatever goddamn reason, why drag me into your relationship drama? I have nothing to do with your breakup. If you're so goddamn insecure then go tell your partner to never talk to other women, or never talk to women who flaunt their cleavage lol. It's another thing if I flirted with him. But I didn't. Regarding my sexuality, you have no right to control it. Neither mine nor any other woman's. If your relationship is so threatened by some other woman who isn't even flirting with your man, then it's your insecurity and your relationship problem to deal with. Don't project your nonsense fears on me. It would be legit to feel insecure if I were flirting with him. But I wasn't. So you have no case. Go back home. The sexual fantasies were about other men. I already made it clear a million times. Stop bugging me about things you can't handle right. By the way I didn't gang up on you. Retaliating your nonsense is not ganging up. You ain't weak. You know when to attack and I have realized what you're doing. I'm fine by myself. Find a guy who you can completely control lol, you lost your shit because you couldn't have your way. 

And don't dictate a woman how she should talk to other men. None of your business. 

Didnt you just say that you apologized for it? So this means that you knew that you were wrong in your assumptions. Right? You got caught there. You knew that I was innocent. That's why you apologized because you realized that you could have been wrong assuming bullshit about it. If you weren't wrong why would you apologize? Now it's up to me to forgive you or not and I chose not to because I stopped trusting you. You can't blame someone for how they feel about you. You gave me enough reason to not trust you. 

 

You aren't angry about your wrong assumptions. You're upset that I didn't forgive you. Well... For your kind information, I reserve the right to forgive you or not. And I choose not to. I don't have to. There's no moral obligation to forgive you. 

 

You did flirt with him.  I apologized because I made a scene publicly.  I was still insecure about my diagnosis and apologized on hands and knees, telling everyone I hadn't taken my meds.  Like a total bitch.  Then during that whole fiasco you started demonizing me,  I was a "Judas", culminating in you telling an entire forum my schizophrenia was out of control.  Extremely stigmatising.  I felt so ashamed of my condition for the longest time.  I knew what true stigma was at that time. 

 

I neither ask for your forgiveness nor do I want it. 

Edited November 18, 2023 by Proserpina

[Reena]

Just now, Proserpina said:

You did flirt with him.  I apologized because I made a scene publicly.  I was still insecure about my diagnosis and apologized on hands and knees, telling everyone I hadn't taken my meds.  Like total bitch.  Then during that whole fiasco you started demonizing me,  I was a "Judas", culminating in you telling an entire forum my schizophrenia was out of control.  Extremely stigmatising.  I felt so ashamed of my condition for the longest time.  I knew what true stigma was at that time. 

I didn't flirt with him. Ask your partner and you'll get the answer. You just want someone to scapegoat. God won't forgive what you are doing. Blaming an innocent stranger for your relationship problems. Stop making up shit to accuse me of things to justify why someone left you. You're just looking for blame, then look in the mirror and you'll find it. I'm not going to take false accusations. You saying it a million times doesn't make it true. 

I don't need to steal your man lol. You can keep your man with you. And if you can't keep a man or if he doesn't want to stay with you, then it's your job to work out things between the two of you, don't drag others please.. And you don't  have the empathy to consider me innocent, why should I empathize with you and forgive you? I'll give you back what you gave me. Regarding empathy, I don't need to show empathy to someone who doesn't give a shit about my reputation and self worth. There are limits to what people can do for you. You don't get to attack others and also expect empathy out of them. My mental health was degrading because of your accusations. I was feeling awful for constantly having to defend myself in a time when I was banned and struggling with my mental issues. And then being accused of stuff I never did and was never responsible for. You hit me when I was rock bottom. No, you didn't want to know how I was feeling, then don't expect a woman to sympathize with you. You'll realize how much it hurts when someone else makes false accusations against you. Then let's see how you show empathy. So stop with that narrative.

 

How is it my responsibility to make sure that you don't feel insecure. Can't do the math. Zero logic girl. 

 

I feel so bad. I got accused for absolutely nothing at all.

Why should I take the fall for someone's relationship not working.

 

So you want forgiveness girl and at the same time you want to keep blaming. Wow the entitlement girl.

I remember back then all of this had caused me so much stress. I was fighting for my innocence against a  woman blaming me  nonsense shit.

She had always pretended to be my friend on the forum and then out of the blue backstabbed me. I don't forget backstabbers.. Let that be a lesson.Time to put my dark femininity on. I'm not going to let my reputation be maligned on the forum.

Teach such  women a good lesson.

 

By the way this is your partner has to say about you, in fact he doesn't agree with your narrative, he tells me that he discussed with you countless times - Narcissists don't learn.  They find a reason to think they're David and everyone else is the Goliath they must defeat.  In their mind, they think their fighting outward is good.  They think everyone is conspiring to hold them down.  They don't accept personal responsibility.  The enemy is always outside of themselves.  They don't look within and correct what they're doing.  And nobody can force them to do this.  So, they blame outward and that's just how they operate.

 

So there are two who don't agree with you, including your partner. Maybe it's your insecurity that was the fall of your relationship but you had to somehow scapegoat me for it. 

This is the last I'm replying to you because I'm tired of defending. You can go on attacking. I don't care. I gave my clarifications. In fact I have given it before as well. I won't in the future. 

You have a sense of entitlement where everything bad in your life is someone else's fault. You made me the scapegoat of your personal issues. So much for empathy lol. 

Girl bye. 

 

[Reborn]

5 hours ago, Jonas Long said:

No wonder you sad fucks don't have any friends and can't get laid so hang out on forums all the time.  I'm done trying to introduce my brand of levity to this hospice. 

 

6 hours ago, Jonas Long said:

Just calm the fuck down everyone ok.  It's a JOKE.  

Why are "spiritual" people so utterly humorless?

You probably have to go to festivals full of weed smoking hippie spooks in order to find the cool sorts of spiritual people. You won't find them amongst the bitter introverted wannabe intelectual online forums dwellers, that's for sure

[Reena]

34 minutes ago, Proserpina said:

Like a total bitch.

I can be a bitch to someone who is being a bitch to me. Sorry that's my morality. I reflect back what's given to me. An eye for an eye. It doesn't matter. All bets are off if my heart is hurt. Why should I care about others so much when they show me zero empathy? You didn't care in those moments how I was suffering. Then don't whine about it to me. 

 

[Joseph Maynor]

4 minutes ago, Reborn said:

You probably have to go to festivals full of weed smoking hippie spooks in order to find the cool sorts of spiritual people. You won't find them amongst the bitter introverted wannabe intelectual online forums dwellers, that's for sure

This community is much better behaved than most.  If this forum triggers you, you might take a look at you.  It's hard to ask more from others than what you put out yourself, generally speaking.  To ask for more is a presumption and unreasonable.  You get what you give.

Edited November 18, 2023 by Joseph Maynor

[Reena]

Just now, Joseph Maynor said:

This community is much better behaved than most.  If this forum triggers you, you might take a look at you.  

Exactly!