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Thank you all for your advices ❤️ and especially @Phil

Hi. I feel like i don't quite get it, how this dream board and decision-making process should actually look like. When i meditate, i can clearly see, that whatever i want, is constantly changing. Everything is a thought. And... it's like non-stop thoughts contradicts each other. For example thought : " i should move to country XYZ. I don't feel good here!" <few thoughts later> thought: i should stay here, i like my home" and it's like that with every decision. Every desire. Every dream. I should go/stay.... I should break up with my girfriend/i should stay because i love her. I should start some new business/ i should escape this matrix, and have very simple career... and so on. It's impossible to make dreamboard based on constantly changing thoughts. I am not clear at all, what would i want. And why. Deep down, i know, that nothing short of non-self realization, is going bring me fulfillment. This "I" is root of all problems. This "I" doesn't know, it's constantly in oppositon to itself, constantly strugless with life and everything. So there's also thoughts, that maybe i should go and meditate full time, and i should become a monk... But than it's like "neee, i should travel i want travel!" it' s crazy, i feel like i'm stuck with this. Also, knowlage, that i'm not a doer, makes it worse - because i just wait, and do nothing... and i feel bad about this. Any advices?

Yes you can trust me - i am doing a work. Currently meditating for about 2-3h daily, doing emotion work, psychotherapy, improve classes. I might add also journaling. If it comes to void - i would like to ask you. I have experienced it, actually 3 times. Once on psychedelics, and 2 times during my sleep. One night, i recognized that i'm dreaming, and the whole dream started to collapse. I wasn't really fighting it, and i ended up in void - there was nothing, all black, only sense of "i am" was there. It wasn't fun at all, but after a while, i started to feel my legs, arms, head... and i ended up in "real" world, waking up. The one on psychedelics was much more traumatic. All the reality collapsed into the void, i was left alone. But when i said words to my GF " are you there?" all apparent creation came back. ( it's funny, similar to Bible "at the beginning there was the word"). So what is it, really? i don't really understand that description of backwards creation. Could you further explain? Also, there are some people saying, that consciousness is not a final step, it still subtle identification with something ( universal consciousness), when that's gone... well, there's just no-self, but also no god or divine at all. Adyashanti talked about this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gFqNaCCLVao&ab_channel=Adyashanti This is also in Buddhism described as "anatta". Does it make sense to you? I guess my issue is that i lack trust in reality sometimes. I am afraid, that it's all hell/ and core of reality is really bad, there's no "happy" ending in all of this, only big terror and disappointment. That's why i practice hard, and read a lot about spirituality, i just want to 'find out" what's really the truth.

There are times like today, where i really can't see any point in all of this. Why so much suffering over nothing? It is all NOTHING. Pure emptiness. There's no me, you, world, time, space, nothing at all. At yet, we are here, clueless, left to get sick, suffer and die. And it doesn't even matter, at all, all of it didn't really happend. So why so much suffering? I can't really find anything i want to do in so called "relative life" . I know it is all gonna bring unsatisfaction anyway, and it will be gone in no-time. No trace left. So just just sit and meditate, but still it doesn't make any sense. There's nothing to gain, nothing to lose, so why so much suffering? so much trying and struggle? over nothing! why sickness, disabilites, death of relatives it doesn't make any sense unless "void" is sadistic in nature, how's it even possible it's "uncoditional love?" maybe it's all hell and we tall overselves stories that it's diffrent.

Look close into emotions. Is there sensation AND someone or something aware of it ? Is there an „ i am” aware off something ? Feel everything that is present right now, and be aware of interpretation your mind is putting on the top of it. It can be thoughts like „i cant handle this” , „this is too much”, „its hopless” „im in hell” . „This is terrible” „im broken” . Itd. those are just thoughts. No need to push them, let them be. Just feel and „die” into sensation that is present right now. or you could ask „what am i resisting right now?” Notice „resistance” and let it be. Dont fight it, just tap into that. if its really intense, just lie down on The floor and say to yourself „ok i let it be. Even if i die”. it is literally about surrender to what is. And what is … is. And its unconditional. I promise you, you have my word, that theres nothing wrong with emotions you have. It is all unconditional love, and it wants to express exactly as it is. No need to fight it or change it. is there any problem RIGHT now?or just thoughts about a problem ?

Today it hit me. Your mind is always on the imaginery path to only have positive experiences. Always in the future. Always with big „no” to here and now. The heart, however, wants to experience everything exactly as it is. Also the pain. The grief. The hurt. The sadness. The anger. Finding silence beauty in all of it. Everything in the universe wants to be exactly as it is. Everything wants to be accepted exactly as it is. Stop resisting your emotions. Feel everything. This is unconditional love. I know @Phil talks about it over and over, but when it finally lands it really feels diffrent. So i wanted to share.

Yes. Its true. it is only now. I cant tell if something really happend or not. its like everything is apparently happening . but it also can go nihilistic very quick - why do anything than ?

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@Orb wow, great explanation.

Don't forget he is way over Jesus and Buddha. Unless you want to be killed by Leo. 😅

Here, a great map. http://www.awakeningtoreality.com/2007/03/thusnesss-six-stages-of-experience.html?m=1 Buddhism says „The i am sense” is just very begining. Its step 1 out of 7… 🙂

Its Phil taking role of decent „not realized” body-mind complex. I thought it was obvious 🙃

Thanks. I'm going to be there tomorrow than, 🙂

For those who recently were still on the actualize.org : is is true, that "new level of Leo's awaking" includes morphing into alien? and his recent claims are that he found "alien love" which is beyond human roam? xD or is it just a joke? i have no idea what's really going on there, and have zero desire to check it myself, just heard some rumors, and i'm curious 😄

For those who recently were still on the actualize.org : is is true, that "new level of Leo's awaking" includes morphing into alien? and his recent claims are that he found "alien love" which is beyond human roam? xD or is it just a joke? i have no idea what's really going on there, and have zero desire to check it myself, just heard some rumors, and i'm curious 😄

I am lost if it comes to what hour, even it's "noon" it supposed to be already on. We have also diffrent hour on "events" . Im lost 😄

Are we gonna get zoom link on e-mail ? Or Here ?

Can we get a link ?

Ive noticed same thing, since ive started to meditate a lot. Its confusing at times, i dont really remember what i did yestarday. Perception of time is diffrent too. I guess its because there are less thoughts about past, so mind doesnt „learn” it, and its harder to remember. sometimes i also wonder if everything is ok with me also, but those are just more thoughts…

check this out, its about your exact question.

At 53:24 its full video how it looks. Before that its an interview with guy who invented it. mindblow. From their website: Observatory collapses the space between what you are looking at and where you are seeing from. When all distance collapses, you are no longer looking into the world—all of the world is looking out of you! what do yoy guys think ? its what do you mean by spheres @Phil ? damn, if only i could go to LA for that 🙂

Can we heal ourselves just by focusing on affirmation? To what extend? Can we heal cold ? how wbout cancer? do you have any experiences with this ? What works ? i am only familiar with David Hawkins method, its exactly what Phil says, just emptying belifes that feel shity, and do postive affirmation instead. It goes like that: „i am healthy. Theres no outer circumstances. I am the infinite being, no limits are actual, my only limitation is what i keep in my mind.” its like David knew Phil’s work well, right?😂 (are you familiar with David Hawkins btw ?) but it doesnt seem to heal me from my cold right now. Any advices ?

Phil, this post is gold. Really. Amazing clarity, it really really gets me. Add this to your website!❤️ one question though. If im not a doer, nor thinker, than who’s creator of my reality ? It all just seem to happen all by itself. Isnt my „job” just „watching” it unfolds ?

yes 27 and 28 please !