ConsciousDreamer666

...can I touch my ring finger and with pure consciousness and intent, put a thought inside your mind @Phil ? There is no universe, reality or even God, just this impossible pure magic infinite unborn present moment, where all beings exist. I should be able to connect with others with my own will, because will is consciousness, is energy, is the present moment itself. is that possible? I´m going to try to put on the energy of this topic a certain number on the mind of anyone who reads it. Let´s see if this present moment is really infinite and connected. Tell me the first number that popped in your mind in the comments. 🙂

I recognise your legit awakening, but there´s more. There is a possibility to end the dream completely. I like one of your phrases. 'Creator Creating Creation'. Well, the fact is the Creator has gotten way too entangled in the creation. You can definetely enjoy the creation but there will be one day that it won´t, Im building the system to mahasamadhi in this very life. Want to go back to the inmortal Bliss that I am. My Throne, Me withouth creation. Because any kind of form and creation means some kind of bondage for me, since I am the unlimited. I won't just settle for Love , I want to truly the ultimate. @Phil As much as you say that Truth is everywhere (and is true) it is a fact as long as you carry a human body you can not be in the peaks of your consciousness, since You limited yourself for the sake of experiencing creation.

As much as I appreciate your work around here, my intuition tells me you haven´t gotten all the way and since im trying to go all the way (beyond what you think is 'the end') you sometimes get triggered and try to 'bring me down' as like im not getting it. I still consider you a great guy, is just, from my experience, this is the intuition and vibe im getting, but I might be wrong, after all I haven't met you and I can only get this from messages so is a form of communication that can let to misassumptions, but I think you should respect the perceptions of other people Basically everything that does not match your narrative you will think 'we dont get it ', so is difficult to meet you somewhere at the road. For you is even x or y, there´s nothing in between. So it's tough. And if that 'x' would be the ultimate then ok, but I dont get that vibe from you. I get the vibe you are in staircase to heaven, you are in the high steps, but not fully in the top, you are lacking some more steps... and im trying to truly get to the top but you see it as bad...I feel that is not fair game. Why don't you join me boy? For example this... It kinda feels a bit like not cool.

Shiva is that which is Not! I am Shiva. The real Self is within 'Experience' but is not bound to whatever phenomena of Experience. Is in the world, but is not of the world. It is not bound by anything. Untouchable by anything, not mortal nor inmortal, completely beyond any duality. That which can not ever be aimed, described, felt, seen, thought, grasped, that´s what the real nature of Me is.

Yes 🙏 Love is also a creation but is a high conscious creation. Is wiser to create Love than to create hell for sure!

here, but here is nowhere.

Nice, man, really happy for you. But the self is not human, the self is creating the human body and mind but the human self is a momentary construction within consciousness. We might create a character for work, other for family, ...etc but that is a momentary creation, that´s not the Self. not sure if I understand! Right now my intuition is...focus on the Self, inspect this mysterious self where I don´t know where it begins and where it ends...and most important prioritise the Self before other 'selves', which is why I have been doing in the past, ive always forgot the Self and went outside to look for love-good feeling, etc...in other 'selves'. But that is ridiculous because I haven´t experienced ever other selves, just the Self + ideas of other selves. But never truly another self.

@Phil @Blessed2 This is not cool. This month I have end up almost broke because ive engaged a bit too much in the fetish. Well not anymore findom but buying humiliation clips. I literally have 20euro left to buy groceries for the next 6 days until I get the paycheck. Never in the past got so bad but recently I have just gone in a 'let go' mode but now I see maybe let go mode is not very smart. Don´t know why it's so incredibly addictive feeling hate/ inferior about myself, why I experience such love-pleasure in feeling pain. Sometimes I just wish sex would just be about love and fun. But my karmic energetic structures only know violence, humiliation, degradation, inferiority/superiority, pain, etc....all of that crap. No wonder I started spiritual quest a long time ago. I´ve been struggling with this energy karmic structures since a long time ago. If I could just find a little space from it. People do not understand how incredibly bad it feels. Understanding sex like this, I have become used to it through the years, but is horribly painful holding this view. If I could ask for a wish would be removing all of this worldview altogether.

what do you mean? care to explain?

is easy to say it but are you full of love all the time? I still find myself looking for love outside. Lately there is an inner freedom that is open most of the time, but sometime inertias and compulsions pop up.

I already do spiritual process everyday, so i Guess is a Matter of time @Phil thank you for the help

@Phil i Will never surrender to the Love, is too much, too Intense.

Peter ralston said he spent several days contemplating non stop until he realized reality is nothing What is the feeling of being me, well, lets see, nothing? Nothing exists.

But i dont mean knowing It with language or as a concept. (Like, "oh, is God!" Or "Oh is me!", or "oh is a dream!") I mean Directly grasping what ISSSSS consciousness. How do you even know reality exists?? That something is even happening right now?

Well, lets see. The feeling itself It seems to be the question itself. The substance of this experience. Im trying to grasp what really is Life. What really is consciousness. Not thinking It, or arriving to a conclusion. (Like "This is It"). But rather, Directly know what is this. What is a sound, what is awareness, what is Life. What iiiiiis It. Can I know what Life is?