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Thank you for sharing this. ❤️ I'll keep going until i realize the love, and the aliveness/ones. yes, for me, it's too, obsessive thinking. For example, when i read the news i wonder "is it really happening?" It's pain the ass, but i guess there's no other way, then go through this, and eventually it will be okay. I trust in God. if it comes to Leo, i wrote a post about my thoughts about him. I agree 100%.

Yeah, if you love hell, is it still hell?:) it's hard thing overwhelming feelings like anxiety and panic attacks. But there's no other way than to surrender to it. The more you struggle, the more powerful it becomes.

True ❤️ Thank you ❤️❤️

Right. " i have million thoughts" it's actually one thought 🙂 Consciousness is before any beliefs.As you said very well on the video, an infant wouldn't have such problems. It's pure consciousness, pure infinity, before any beliefs were introduced. 🙂 isn’t feeling prior to the thoughts? here, i'm not sure i need to be more aware when it happens. I believe it's thoughts -> feelings, not the other way around. The next part - 100% yes, awarness/the presence is always, always there! True. There's much more attachment/ feelings engaged to beliefs like solipsism, than to any other. I need to start questioning, why is that? i guess there's no good reason, other than it's more "fresh". 😉 There's no one to fall into these thoughts, they simply just arises. It just seems like there's someone who gets glued to it, but it's just more thoughts. Yes. I am that which is aware of that. I'll check that!! Thank you so much, Phil ❤️❤️❤️ I really, really appreciate it! P.s I know you have video on youtube, but maybe small article about how to handle solipsism would also be helpful for others ❤️

The point of this threat is NOT to demonize Leo, although it may sound this way. The point of this threat is NOT to justify myself, or blame anyone else. As many of you know, i have big issue with the latest insights, but i DO NOT blame actualize.org! In fact, i consider it, as a great lesson to be learned. The point of this topic is to have honest and open discussion. I've noticed some "red flags" of Leo teachings. If i'm wrong with anything, just write your opinion. 1) Leo claims that he surpasses anyone with his level of awaking. I've never seen any other spiritual guru do that. If anything, they always say, they are not better anyhow. 2) Lately, Leo, started to call tools of spiritual growth, such as meditation and yoga, as "useless", he only puts psychedelics on pedestal. Isn't it too radical? 3) Leo started to use the term "solipsism" lately. I've seen a post from 2019, and he calls "solipsism" a bad map, and now he uses it all the time. No other spiritual guru do that, as it may be misleading. I think this might be also my case. 4) Leo bans his mods, who have different way of teaching. I don't think someone that "radical open-minded"(as he claims himself to be)would do that. 5) Leo's answers on the forum aren't so loving and compassionate, i would say, they are rather harsh, to say at least. If anything, this work should make you more humble, shouldn't it? 6) Leo shits on "no-duality", "no-self", "neo-advaita" teachings, even though i believe it's core foundation for enlightenment. 7)There are a lot of people who seeks help after psychological breakdown, who are even suicidal ( yeah, it was my case too, even though i was mentally stable person)I know it may be just correlation, because mentally unstable people often seeks help in spirituality, but it's still some point to consider. Now when i look back, i think i might have put too much trust in him, or anyone else. From now on, i shall trust only my feelings and if it resonates with me. I think it's a lesson to be learned. What do you think?

it's been 2.5 weeks, i hope i'll get on ground in some time... it's better sometimes, and the other time it's getting out of hand...

i try, but those questioning thoughts still arise, every damn time, i do something. Like "is it real?" "is it there?" "maybe i'm cheating myself?" it's tooough. Thank you very much for your heart ❤️

Do you still struggle? What does make you better?

I have many thoughts' attachment, and i still fall into them. I know they make me suffer, but it's overwhelming ;( i'm questioning everything

Exactly! Absolutely The WORST part of solipsism is that it kills love. Because if they don't have experience, what's the point of loving? It hurt like hell, like catching fire. I can get it when someone says it's all one, it's non-dual, you are me, i'm you. And in that case the love for you is the love for myself, it's ones. It's beautiful. But when some portraits it as others are "empty meat bags" it's fucking madness. And i've seen such sentences on previous forum. To be honest, it got into my head too.

yes, that's true. Somehow, Leo teachings don't feel very loving or compassionate. But it makes great sense, it's based on logic. So i felt into this. I hope there's a way out. 🙂

❤️❤️❤️ Thank you. I read your post once again. This time it really got me: "There is really no such thing as avoidance of truth. Do you really know what is truth? If not, how could you know if you avoid it or not? There is avoidance of emotional guidance, though. You know thoughts and beliefs about solipsism feel shit, but you still keep thinking / believing those thoughts. This is what is meant by aversion." You are so right. Back then, it didn't have such impact on me, right now i get it. Really get it. I don't know what's the truth. Truth cannot be grasp by words or believes. You are so right, brother. " There is no need whatsoever to give any more thoughts about solipsism. There is no need whatsoever for listening to Leo. Neither there is a need for taking psychedelics". I listened to this advice, and i didn't take it that day, but i took it about week later, when i wasn't so afraid. It was bad trip anyway. 😉 About the feelings: Yes. Somehow i felt it was something off with solipsism and Leo teaching's, All the teachings didn't feel very compassionate or loving, but it was based on logic, so i felt into this anyway. The worst part in solipsism is that you can't' really think over this, because there's no way to disprove anything. But maybe, i need to trust my feelings? Maybe it's time to get out of my head, and thoughts, and go straight to the heart?: ) Thank you so much ❤️ If it comes to Leo, he sometimes says about "your ego-mind" etc, so does he belive other have experienece or not? i don't get this way of communication. love!

Thank you. Really, really, thank you. You are right. I'm still a little afraid of meditation, do you think it may help? Today i felt something different. For the first time i gave up, and surrendered this suffering, to God. And I felt, like my boundaries started to dissolve. I didn't know where this "I' starts or where it ends, it was formless. I felt like everything is the same substance, the bed i'm lying at, walls, air i'm breathing, everything. It's like we are all made of „sand” or water which takes different forms, it's same „being”. All one, or "non-dual". It felt cozy, and it was warm. I don't know if i should call this love, but it may be something like that. Maybe the key is to surrender all of it to God? 🙂 If you learn to love hell, would it be still hell? 🙂 How long did it take for you to recover from bad trips?

Thank you so much brother ❤️

Hi. I'm here from Leo's forum. I've been talking to Tim on this, he introduced me to this place. Thank you, Tim, for everything you've done for me. ❤️ I'm in hell. I've never felt so much pain in my entire life. 2 weeks ago i had LSD trip, God realization. It was my 14-15 trip, and a couple of years of meditation. On the trip i felt like GOD is everything, and everything is imaginary, and i imagine all this. I felt so alone, that i wrote every book there is, every music, etc, and i'm here stuck for infinity. I felt like I imagine other people. I wonder if that Solipsism thing from Leo forum, was something i felt into. TThis idea got really got into my head just before tripping. I was afraid of it... so it happend. Since then, i question everyone and everything, if there are even there. When i talk to someone, i wonder if it's my mind, or the person is there. If i talk on the phone, i wonder if it's only the voice, or is there a person behind. I understand that there's only consciousness, but i can't even look into the face of my loved ones, because i'm afraid that she's not there. i wanted to devote my life for love, but i ask myself, what's the point, if i'm so alone? What's the point of helping others? My life become HELL. Pure Hell.I can't sleep, eat, have fun, i cry a lot. I don't know what to do. Any advice would be appreciated. If there's someone who would talk with me on skype, i'm also in it. thank you.