nurthur11

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HAHAHA .I want serenity now! Okay, it makes sense what you mean.

For me in this case, expressing emotion is untangling yourself from the part of you that got stuck in the activity. This happens by itself. When you feel doubt in my perspective is that you are doubting yourself. In order to undoubt yourself you have to expose yourself to the activity that is making you doubt yourself. Little by little. Don't think about the moving up to scale or down to scale that is something for you and it happens by itself. Imagine yourself as a dog who is traumatized and put into a situation that triggers that trauma. You dont have to hold this imagination when you are exposing yourself to what ever is making you doubt yourself or blame others. If you have had severe doubt in yourself and blamed others it will not go away very easily. Keep the flow/optimism when you are exposing yourself and eventually you will see yourself and others in a more positive light.

This may sound as belittling but I am saying to you and to myself. My take is that your emotional reality and feeling of yourself or though self and the experience of this self is is in motion(flow) is not "picture by picture", for example, when you do an activity(to use ruper spira word) the situation is like this: its you and then the activity, of course you will eventually merge the totality of yourself with the activity but the flow in yourself will keep going(or the moments of the flow will be reflected in the activity). If it isnt flowing than you have mistaken yourself for the activity and you will error, stuck in some emotion or desire or w/e. As you try to unstuck from that position you will get even worse. When you pay attention to the breath you are creating thoughts perception feeling(even emotions) about the breath(you create an activity so to say) you can merge with this activity but yourself will still flow. Awareness/attention will flow even if you notice this flow you are creating an activity of noticing this flow(for example if you try to be conscious of attention/awareness of awareness and so on). You need to have your moments regardless of what other wants. And as moments pass you notice you are beyond those moments and at some point - you notice that it is not something to be concern. If you are stuck in a emotion you will "create two things", you will create an activity of your emotion - there will still be a part of you in which the emotion are flowing(now that you "merged" with the actvity maybe unconcious to you)- probably and eventually you will "die" or "bug" yourself. This is very important to understand so please try to understand it in the hope you find some freedom. You cant get better at being yourself - neither finding who you really are or believing that are you doubt, fear(by this sentence this should be obvious). Don' try to fix these like a scientist - "they" are part of you. Still you have to figure out by your self. If it doesn't make sense it doesn't make sense.

beautiful! ❤️

Who is noticing ?

Yup, I agree.

What do they require then?

Not always you can feel the emotion that you are having but sometimes you know the difference once that emotion has passed. Check this vid: You can't feel the freaking planet. But yes I am part of the freaking planet.

I don't think this is emotional guidance.

Nevertheless, ty for your reply! I hope you are doing good.

Hi Orb, Can you summarize in 1,2 sentence for people who don't have 1 hr to look at this video?

Don't try so hard and eventually you will feel good. Eat when you feel like and similarly sleep when it comes.

To me it seems to be like a personality type of thing. Like there is gamers, nerds etc. People who are good at spiritual things(they have a solid practice, they have knowledge about the field, know a lot of spiritual people, had unique experience's, are good at connecting to other people, know some foreign language). Once a person is good at something they tend to brag about it. I dont think is bad. It might be annoying sometimes when they discard the similarities that they share with others. People who are spiritual are still people in the end. You might also be thinking the spiritual ego like a person who is fanatic. I don't think it is healthy to get stuck in fanaticism. It is scary. Its like a discord that you end up needing but it doesn't allow you to "connect to other things". One more problem that I see with spirituality ego - I have some of this in me. It becomes the solution for everything. My example: sometimes without me knowing I end up getting invited to event or a workshop. When I don't, I overly think and think what went wrong and try to focus to get better at connecting with people. If something works than I hook's it up with the spiritual ego values. Just to better clarify myself: social anxiety doesn't reduce "social skills". People try to figure out what is the best next best move and so on but that's just too much sometimes. Another similar example would be for meditation. When I was a kid my mother use to make me clean the carpet's and sometimes I really enjoyed it. Mainly, because there was a process to it and it was done outside of the house and my feet would stay in water the entire day so I liked the sensation. I liked doing the process, rinse, make it with soap, clean then rinse again. If my family was spiritual they could say to me you are meditating. Same if you have an order on how you clean the dishes. If I had a family who believed in the god of carpets then if I am not doing good at something they would say go clean a carpet and the god will help you. My point is that so many of the spiritual things are human things and it is not necessary to become a fanatic or limit ones self to spiritual belief or non beliefs. Or, you can have a spiritual ego no problem just dont be annoying and everyone is should be okay.

Beautiful!👏 "Keeping myself" ahead of the discord. Allowing my thoughts or myself to settle is what works best for me - so far.

Yesterday, we had a kickstart event for a new project which I am working with, then with my gf and afterwards with my friends during playing a game together. My way of how experience my functioning in the three cases differed very much and as I get tired everything is filtered through the emotion. Is like " the range of what mindfulness is covering" decreased over the three cases. When it decreases then I work with what I have. Does this make sense? I am very quickly put out myself or direct experience - if I get emotional. If I feel afraid, negative. Then I try to control myself but is very hard because I still need the situation to be as it is but more simple. It becomes a mess. Especially- when I lose control of what I want and how much I want it(eating) I end up wanting everything or trying to control people and this make people not like me.

Just 2-3 min before sleeping last night. I was exhausted, exhausted.

hahahaahahahaha you guys are adorable ❤️

In your opinion where is my great point in the last post?

I was saying that when i express my emotion with others then i get that emotion even bigger(it makes sense what you are saying) - although, i don’t want that emotion it makes me feel good or accepted(rage or jealousy). I can let this emotion progress without being validated by other’s i can make myself feel good and accepted. Building it within myself. This in turn makes my relationships weird but it makes me feel good. In i might still feel lonely or disconnected e.g while i also feel good. I understand this is like fooling myself but then it is not easy to find the true emotion and feeling. Having this type of awareness i believe it makes me more aware if i am trying to manipulate someone and when it is happening to me. E.g I am afraid then then i go numb then i get angry and want revenge. Sometimes i can conjure up getting angry and that put me in a weird state. Of course, I would want to not get angry and not be afraid all the time. Yes, i admit that i might want to revenge people who make me feel angry but never at the same portion - maybe less just so that they can see i can make the same thing. I don’t think it is manipulation its just attending the other person. Before i use to give my attention 100% to the other person but i don’t remember what was that experience like. I know that people have mention it to me and other people mentioned this to me. I was just glued to the other person and myself without noticing. Yeah, it also misunderstood what emotion is in experience. Your description makes much more sense. Stil many times fully understand what i am feeling and what is important for me, after i say it out loud. Which puts me in worse situations. So the idea would be to carry on good emotions while also facing reality. I understand that it might be harder than i thought to express what i am really feeling.

For example, through the emotional intelligence table video that Mandy put out - I discovered Abraham Hicks and what she does is that she let her self run against a field of awareness or focus and in this way. I realized that this can be done with emotions but also with thoughts about other people. Even mania, negative thoughts, or conjuring up a feeling that you are getting attention from others. Which reminds me that I have a question for Mandy if she sees this post. @MandyWhen I relate to people that I am afraid for example and I express my emotion I make myself feel good but I don't deal with the other person at all. Most probably I would make them behave even more negative towards me. It feels like I am having a discussion with myself. How can I fix this?

The unconditional being makes the reality but it is unconditional and a such it is not the reality. In this case then the unconditional being would be the background of the conditional being. I can relate like this: when I push the wall with my hands, I feel how your body sinks so to speak into unconditional being. Now I can imagine the wall against to what the body is sinking. Is this what you mean with reality?

The title. Any solution? If I am aware of awareness I can manage it but it doesn't unstuck it.

For instance, if a collaborator is disappointing/griefing you or you are disappointing yourself. You can deal with tools like meditation, relaxation, breathing, being smart about it and so on and so forth. But it is also important to face the reality as soon as possible. If you wont find the relief and best road( guidance of awareness... )- don't worry, you will find that effect when you go to sleep or dream. If you always are conjuring up ways how to bypass the reality of your emotion, your life you will lose yourself and others will notice.

Despite not trusting it will make me better or what i would want maybe more is to make me stronger I gave it a try. In the start it is hard to stop dwelling in myself, ideas, delusions, wanting to be stronger and recognize how i am feeling. But I managed to do it couple of time. In few moments i felt more empowered, more “aware” about myself and better. Still i tend to fall very quickly in hopeless and wanting to be strong and prep for the world and so on. Which now i see as a complete delusion. Thank you!