Reena Posted October 21, 2023 Author Share Posted October 21, 2023 I'll rename Nick as Dan. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 21, 2023 Author Share Posted October 21, 2023 (edited) Dialogues between me and Dan. Reena : Dan : Reena : Dan : you won't be able to escape me Reena : Dan : no you're not going anywhere Reena : I want to be free Dan : you know I care about you Reena : confused Dan : nobody will love you the way I do Reena : confused Dan : look at your hair. You don't clean it. I took care of you. Reena : confused. Looks tensed and anxious Dan : don't stress yourself Reena : confused Dan : Reena calm down. Calm down please. Calm down. Reena : confused Dan : Reena : confused Dan : Victims of gaslighting begin to doubt themselves and blame themselves. Their typical responses can be like - "maybe I'm wrong." Edited October 21, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 21, 2023 Author Share Posted October 21, 2023 Template of Dialogues. Dan : Reena : confused Dan : Reena : confused Dan : Dan : Reena : confused Dan : Reena : confused Dan : Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 21, 2023 Author Share Posted October 21, 2023 (edited) Dan : I'll give you anything you want. And you know that. Reena : confused Dan : I provided for you. Reena : you controlled me Dan : that's your projection Dan : listen, you do as I say Reena Reena : I won't Dan : don't do that to me Reena : Dan : I'll do everything for you but you gotta be honest with me Reena : Dan : when you're not being honest, I'll punish you. Really bad. Reena : confused Dan : I have loved you for who you are Reena : confused Dan : you know I love you. Dan : you'll always remember me Reena : confused Dan : I've taken care of your every need Reena : confused Dan : Edited October 22, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 Another reason why romantic behavior is abnormal and fantasy based is because of infantilization. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 (edited) Causes of my abnormal romantic behaviour. Causes that I came to after a thorough self exploration. Stockholm Syndrome Codependency Limerence infantilization slave mentality abandonment issues leading to extreme neediness fragility. Weak mind lack of self protection and helplessness. Edited October 22, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 (edited) Another reason why romantic behavior is abnormal and fantasy based is because of infantilization. level of vulnerability tendency to have sympathy/empathy for the abuser wanting to please the abuser out of fear wanting to seek the approval of the abuser. self sacrificial tendencies. Tendency to prioritize other's needs over one's own needs. internalization Edited October 22, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 (edited) Maslow's hierarchy of needs. Needs not met tendency to apologize too much tendency to self blame. tendency to self abandon and self sabotage tendency to self destruct, self abuse, masochistic tendencies tendency to be attracted to predators out of the need to be controlled Edited October 22, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 (edited) tendency to self neglect and self harm depression borderline behavior inability to find peace in relationships. Edited October 22, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 (edited) Edited October 22, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 Reflection corner. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 This one can do the role of Dan. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 I need to have 3 roles one each for the White Swan Love, the Black Swan love and the Red Swan Love. These roles are going to be ultimate but difficult. I have not even decided the name of the last role. The red one. The white one is Vicky. The black one is Dan or Danny. The red one is Lokey. I need to fix a face for Lokey. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 I choose this one for Lokey. It's an AI generated image for an Indian man. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 My initial choice for Vicky was this - Although I kept staring at this image and still could not develop a connection. The image doesn't speak to me. It appears too robotic. So these are 2 more images I generated with AI that seem to look slightly like the picture in my mind of Vicky.. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted October 22, 2023 Share Posted October 22, 2023 The ‘Work’ by Byron Katie is super powerful. 🤍 Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 9 hours ago, Phil said: The ‘Work’ by Byron Katie is super powerful. 🤍 I'll need to look into it. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted October 22, 2023 Author Share Posted October 22, 2023 I also need to create compatibility charts. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jonas Long Posted October 22, 2023 Share Posted October 22, 2023 16 minutes ago, Reena said: I also need to create compatibility charts. Just remember, things that work "on paper" don't necessarily work in life. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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