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I don't think he is doing it for the money. I think he like actually believes the stuff he says, at least most of it. He is not consciously manipulating. He's 'playing the same game' so to speak - he has just gathered others to play along. Sometimes the 'leader' is as (or more) bamboozled as the 'follower'.

@Dima 🙏🙏💚

Maybe it would be better for there to be it's own thread about the mod team and Actuality of Being, for those who either wish to express gratitude and support, or doubts and criticism?

What is feeling? Where does it come from? What is it made of? Where does it feel? What is it?!!? Is it just some brain stuff? No. Directly here now, feel. I don't know what it is. Even though I don't know, in feeling it seems quite direct and clear. Feeling is and comes from directly from source, from the very center and base of my being and everything. Along with feeling, there seems to come immense amounts of information, communication. Like looking at the face of God. ❤️ Did not write this for any of you, I wrote this for myself. I want to strenghten this connection, and recieve with even more clarity. ❤️

If the whole story/narrative of you or others, who are awake/enlightened or not, or are seeking, or have ego, is let go / not believed, what is left? Is what's left somehow less (or more) Truth or Being?

Ah, the age-old.

🤦 What do you expect? Calling yourself "teacher", your word "teaching", declaring you have understood profound truths and awakened, and others have not. Your self-claimed role as "teacher" literally requires belief in your authority. Claiming "oh you're biased" "this is why you won't awaken" "you're avoiding", and then, "if you don't like it, turn it off". 🤦 Manipulative, misleading nonsense. You're feeding peoples sense of lack, unworthiness, shame and fear in order to uphold your identity as a teacher above others. This is how you and Leo harm people.

Great share 🙏🙏🙏 thank you so much 🙏

Solipsism isn't truth. It feels off because it is off. We are boundless and together. What is the 'opposite' of solipsism? If solipsism is not construction of thought, how can there be an opposite of it? How could it ever be known if either contruction is true, when 'knowing' or 'knower' is also thought? What is not thoughts? What is thought and feeling 'made of'? What is the opposite of... This Being? If there would be an opposite to it... Would it not be the same Being? Can you ever feel anything else than truth? Can feeling ever be anything else than unconditional? Does Being and feeling have boundaries? NO! Solipsism: ◯ Being: !!!!! Imagine an infinite sea. Can this sea be 'alone'? Where is the boundary? Without boundary, is there 'loneliness'? Notice you cannot really think, comprehend or fathom an infinite sea. You can think or visualize a sea, but the infinity-part can only be... felt. This solipsism stuff is non-sense. Go out for a walk! Feel the big muscles in your legs. You're doing so fine.

@Phil The thought of meditating just feels too uncomfortable. I can't sit every day for more like 5 minutes. There must be something I can do. How can one dispel thought-attachment and empty the mind if meditation isn't an option for now? I really want to feel that peace and relief.

Where did this belief and rhetoric come from, that there are more or less advaced people, and more or less advanced teachings?

@God 🤔

@Orb 🙏💕 I've been taking maca + ashwagandha lately, maybe I'll take a few days off them and see if it helps.

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Perhaps my own laziness and short-term gratification seeking habits. Some people have really nice houses in beautiful nature, somewhere abroad like southern europe. They have a lot of friends and they are not anxious, they don't fear death or existing in general. They feel like home on earth and they don't need to constantly carry heavy burdens. This is a bit silly perhaps, but I'm kind of jealous to angels. If they exist that is. It just seems that they have it so easy. Just chilling in God's love, no fear, no burden. It's seems so perfect. Like an eternal holiday. I'd like to feel that way, but in this life.

Yes!! To find out if someone is a good 'leader' is to take a look at how the 'followers' feel. Do they really enjoy themselves where they're at? Or is there a negative atmosphere which is justified with a ton of arguments and beliefs?

Solipsism: ◯ Nonduality:

Check out the amount of resources on this website: https://thichnhathanhfoundation.org/

God is boundless. A boundless sea is not "alone". It stretches beyond.

What was brought up yesterday and today is certain insecurity. Kind of this unwilligness to fight and put effort for what I really want. It feels like 'evading physical life'. Do I even want to have physical life? - I do, but something is holding me back from fully stepping toward it. This might even have some physical effects, like prostate, stomach and heart rhythm issues. All of them kind of feel like fear/unwillingness to accept physical life and it's "limits", or the need for physical effort. And shame/quilt of giving up too easily or being lazy. @Phil I remember you once saying to me something like "lay claim to your own life." That struck me. Now I intend to lay claim on my own life, fight and fully invest in the good life I really want. Intention is enough, the tools and guidance will follow.

Yeah, you're right. This is a very prominent 'problem' for me, expecting great results without work and effort. It may have roots somewhere in my childhood. Perhaps at some point I really tried to succeed in school, do my homework and get good grades, but I failed so I figured never to try because then I'll just fail again... Or something like that. No problem 😁 greatly appreciated 🙏 @WhiteOwl @Phil I'm still having trouble completely understanding "expression". What kind of expression works best for emotional scale? If I feel anger for example, I don't know what to write or to say. Is punching a pillow expression? Or maybe recording myself talking about how I feel? If you guys do this practice, what kind of things you write or do? I could just say "I feel anger" but that doesn't really make me feel any relief or a step to the next emotion. How is this expression done succesfully that the next step can actually be taken?

@WhiteOwl Thanks for your response ❤️ The thing is, I don't know how to express those emotions on the scale. If I write on a notepad, I don't really feel any relief. I don't know how to actually express successfully. Is there any other ways to express than writing and speaking out loud? Also, you're saying that it's okay just to do it for 10 minutes, but on Actuality of Being website it says to do the whole scale. That seems impossible. It just makes me frustrated to try express the last ones, because it just doesn't feel authentic. I can't "get there" and it makes me feel like I'm failing the practice. It takes me hours to get to contentment - hopefulness, and then I just get hungry and irritated, and I get nowhere. Am I doing something wrong? @Phil What say you?

I'm so tired of myself. I feel so tired all the time. Like physically and mentally tired. Simply standing and walking around the house is heavy for me. My thoughts make me want to throw up. I'm constantly thinking. I'm constantly trying to figure something out. Even thinking about God's peace and presence is tiring, even though it can make me feel high. Even there, I'm still constantly pushing myself in the way. Thinking about myself, my role, a me who 'has a relationship' with god. A me who is spiritual, has spiritual growth and awakening. It's so tiring and feels disgusting to constantly carry and think about myself. Evaluating, judging, thinking whether I'm worthy or unworthy, if I'm cool, if others think I'm worthy and good, if others think I'm special. Makes me want to vomit. Fuck I want change. And I'm tired of waiting for a change to happen. I'm tired of trying to feel happy. I don't want to wait or to try anymore. I want to feel better now. I want to drop the heavy baggage right now. I might be going for an interrail trip next summer. I don't want to take this disgusting heavy luggage there with me. I want to feel light in my body and mind. I want the trip to be filled with lighthearted liveliness. Why is being happy so hard? Why is all this so hard? I know, I know... Meditate, journal, exercise, so the emotional scale. But I don't have the energy! Thinking of doing those things just feel repulsing. I don't have the willpower. I would like a good old cathartic cry.

When you use the word "ego", what do you point to with it?

This is funny on so many levels, I don't know where to begin.