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Fear of death is actually allure of death Could it be, that sometimes you feel unworthiness, shame, quilt, despair, and in general hard and shit about your beliefs and perspectives on life (discordant conditions), that you somehow come to think death has some sort of answers, that it somehow serves some function, that it is somehow needed? Why are you thinking about death and fear of death, instead of blue sky, puppies, humour, music, friendship and lighthearted enjoyment? Why do you think death / fear of death needs solving and requires your time and energy?

Just something I've heard on the path: Fear of death is actually allure of death. Might sound crazy, but it really rings true for me. This might be helpful:

Or thought of at all 😁😂

Here's a fun exercise I came up with. It's really simple and mind-opening: 1. Take a pen and a piece of paper 2. Take a moment to feel/wonder what "paradise" or "heaven" would feel like to you, what does perfect happiness and peace include? 3. Write down in single words everything that true happiness, peace, paradise and heaven is for you. Don't be shy, scarce or too humble. Literally just write down your Paradise. 4. See if it's possible to have/be all of what you wrote, right here, in this life, as you are. If some of those things seem impossible herenow, "in this life", as you, see what beliefs/thoughts make it seem so. See if it's possible that paradise isn't somewhere else (in afterlife, enlightenment, psychedelic or a spiritual goal), but in letting go those limiting/discordant beliefs. 😊😊

How I see it, it boils down to few points... You are already pure There is no guilt There is no need There is no insufficiency There is no lack There are no separate selves

@Indisguise 🙏❤️ Yeah! This "hedonism" we're talking about isn't really hedonism, it's not a philosophy. It can't be thought. I've noticed that this free-flow, accepting desire and doing what feels good is really just alignment, it only ever leads to here-now, mindfulness and simple joy. Ryokan Taigu comes to mind. I love his poems and energy. Yeah. And IMO also a great counter-balance to spiritual "goals" and "achievements".

I'm reading a book about Daoism, and there is some interesting stuff here. I'll copy some of it for you: The hedonistic orientation of Daoism and Zhuangzi favors lightheartedness, leisure, non-constrained life, indulgence and following one's own happiness and satisfaction. It's based on this idea: that which is good for me, is good for the entire universe. If the individual is a part of Dao, then all their feelings and desires are too part of it. Thus, all personal desires of human beings are manifestations of greater cosmic goodness, and are to be satisfied. The hedonistic orientation is closely tied with a philosopher Yang Zhu. According to him and the hedonists, everything is naturally and inseparably part of Dao. They refuse to profess the difference between inner purity and the potential imbalances that desires and excessive sensory experience might bring. Rather, they accept all aspects of life as positive. The result is certain ruthlessness when it comes to personal sacrifice - Yang Zhu wouldn't even give one of his fingernails to save an entire world. On the other hand, the result is also a very relaxed and lighthearted lifestyle. Hedonistic ideas have persisted in Daoism in a form that of an unconventional poet and hermit, who is constantly drunk and doesn't care about social norms or codes of conduct. These ideas are also present in certain figures, like the Eight Immortals, who are known for their lighthearted attitude, peculiar ways of enjoying their free-time and joyful laughter about everything, with everyone. What do you guys think? This resonates with me a lot. I feel like I just found something that truly feels like me, what I want to be all about. ❤️ Something here really rings true for me.

Write about it in the "Emptying" - sub? 🤔 So many things to do. I'm going on a long trip during july. Also, it seems that I got into a school in new town, and I have to move right after the trip. I need to make my apartment clean & ready for the move, get a new apartment in the new town, plan the interrail trip, organize all of it. So so much stuff to do. And it all seems to fall to the next few weeks. I don't know where to begin. Too much stuff. I worry I can't do it. I worry this stress and overwhelment will trigger anxiety or panic. My apartment is full of old clothes, carbage, furniture, and it needs a real clean-up. There is time to do it, but it seems such a mountain of work that I just feel it's too much. Also, the new town is kind of notorious for high rents and a bad housing situation in general. Also, it seems I'm moving together with my girlfriend so it's a complex thing to figure out how the welfare stuff works, it's a bureucratic pickle. How do I find time to relax and get centered with all this new stuff?? The trip, the school, the new town and a girlfriend are all very sudden and new things to me. I need time to ground and center. To clarify. It seems life is really calling for some zen. 😁 Maybe it's finally the time to put a daily meditation practice to test.

I feel a bit worried. Sometimes it's not just worrying, but kind of fear or anxiety. I feel worried because I once had a bad mushroom trip, which was such a terrifying and hard experience that I'm probably still in the process of healing. I worry if at some point I will somehow trip again or some terrifying state of mind comes. I recieved reiki healing some time ago and it seems that this discord was brought up on surface. So here I am, expressing, talking about it. Looking for clarity. Doing the work. I'm kind of tired of the worrying. Life is so much more fun and relaxing without these thoughts and beliefs. I want to let it go. I would feel sooo much better without these thoughts and worries! Jeez, we are not intended to carry such worries and stress. It makes us tired and sick. Can't wait if/when I do in fact let go. I will be so eager to live my best life.

😂 Yeah, I forgot that's probably illegal almost everywhere.

Jonathan Livingston Seagull by Richard Bach (Following your dreams, doing you, path overview. Also for teens.) Call Me By Your Name (Self-esteem, being you, feeling, and really just a very beautiful movie) 😌

A thought comes to mind. So what? What's the problem? Why be wired to "real sex" rather than porn? Masturbation can be fun, just like having sex with another person. It's not that serious. Also, masturbation can be made even more fun with all kinds of tricks. Toys come to mind. Also, not just fapping whenever, but literally setting aside time for it, putting it on the calendar. Also, choosing clothes for masturbation only. Clothes you feel good in, pants you can smudge. Also not only jerking off, but touching other parts too. Nipples, lips, the butthole etc. Doing it in different places. In the bed, on the couch, in shower, outside... There's a whole world for lone sexy times. I'd say set yourself free.

Listened some teachings of Jesus today. Had a fun insight. Been wondering what if God is actually judging us, what if there is sin and hell. But then I noticed what I really want most, is just love and happiness. And everyone else wants it too. People, cats and dogs, worms and the trees and flowers. What I really want is that everyone is happy today, in this life. No matter if they have done some hurtful things, or stuff that might be considered sin. I still want happiness for them. And for myself too. How could that be bad or wrong? To love, to help others be happy right here and now, whoever they are and whatever they do? What kind of god would be like "Nope, that ain't it. Don't let people do abortions, steal or marry the same sex." If there was a god like that, it would be kind of a stupid god. A real god must have either the same or more compassion / love as I do. Otherwise I would be "looking down" to them. I would be more loving than god?!? That makes no sense. As I was thinking this, some people walked by. And probably for the first time, I actually loved each person that came. And it felt really good. Thank you all for sharing this world with me!!! I love you!! Let's care for each other!!

👍🙏 A thought comes to mind. Me: "I really want clarity, healing and a step to the next level." Source: "Sure! Have a whole bunch. Here's some shrooms." Me again: "I really want more clarity, healing and a step to the next level." Source: "Sure! Have a whole bunch. Here's a relationship."

Why do any of that really? Are we not already complete? How much more do we need to check for evidence, to change, to better ourselves, to be more intelligent and pure to live the good life? That is an endless ratrace. LOA, (I prefer the word "alignment") is more simply allowing yourself to feel whole. Feel who we really are. From the wider perspective, life is not a school, a workplace, a spiritual challenge, a moral test, or a hunger game. Life is magic, it's creation, it's paradise, it's playfulness. Creator-creating-creation. Ime, LOA is a great way to get on the track, to feel God.

Alright. Yeah I know what you mean, I used to believe that for like a long time. I really used to pride myself as intelligent, critical, philosophical and rational. Read a ton of philosophy, studied multiple courses. Never took anything with face value. Still got washed away with toxic ideology and beliefs. After some time and hard experiences I realized what was wrong. Unchecked beliefs, misunderstanding emotions, pride, poor self-esteem etc. Eventually it was realized quite in-depth what ideology, belief systems, and even rationality, logic etc. really are. Which I pointed to with the "Emotion is far superior to rational thought. Feeling includes rational thought, though goes far beyond it." But you didn't seem to be interested in that at all. If you're interested in why I say feeling is superior, try the emotional scale. If you do that, I dare to claim you will eventually also understand exactly what this LOA stuff is about.

I suspect that's not your intention at all. You seem to be more interested in arguing, being right, showing off how irrational, deluded, wishful thinking, dumb, religious and "avoiding the hars truths of life" some people are. You are not at all open to hear what is being said, it's obvious. Anyway, what comes to the "process of divining truth". I dunno anything about that. There is no a separate subjective inspecting objective reality. It's really more about being here and now. Noticing life supports, life goes on. Don't know if there is any better way to be here-now than by feeling alignment, how everything you ever desire is being done for you. You know it is, because you feel it. Feeling is far superior to rational thought. Feeling includes rational thought, though goes far beyond that.

Why?

Why? What are you looking for?

@Adeptus Psychonautica You are taking a very scientific/rational approach here. It's fine, nothing wrong with that, but the problem is that LOA is not a rational, physical, scientifically measurable or figure-outable thing. Though that doesn't mean it isn't true. No amount of logical deduction or rational arguments can touch it. It's like trying to make a brick wall disappear with logical arguments. This is not blind belief, wishful thinking or cult mentality. It includes, yet transcends rational thinking.

Some lyrics come to mind... "Strip off my stars of the night. Stay till the next week. The time won't eat this joy, it doesn't clash with the world. The look, tender as the last night strips a man of his weapons. Love me, I love you."

Could it be, that you are right now making the same kind of "mistake" in continuing to refer to the value of rational thinking, rational proof, objective reality etc. ? Perhaps you could be missing something extremely blessed stuff in your way of approach here. You are freely being offered information on the possibility that you could literally be and have anything you desire, that you are literally living and being paradise, the kingdom of heaven. It has also been said that you could go and see it for yourself, in direct experience, rather than in conceptualization, rational thought and arguments. No argument can touch it. Any rational narrative or argument can be "cut short" and returned to the stilness and empty silence of this moment.

It's kind more of a feeling thing. I've come to notice feeling holds immense 'amount' of truth and information. You just 'know' via feeling and intuition. Multiple things that I have written on the dreamboard has manifested. And it seems the journey is only beginning. What if... We can really choose and create the life we want? A total game changer. Magic. Paradise. Blessed. At times one might fall into despair, worry, doubt etc. There it might seem like it's all just bullshit, due to believing discordant thoughts, which is why you are feeling bad. But as one follows the emotional guidance, heals and expresses, lets go and relaxes, one is back on track.

This might be hard to believe, (I have trouble believing it myself), but the truth really seems to be that effort and dedication isn't required, not at all. It's all about now. It's literally just as simple as how you're feeling right now.

Something is bugging me. Worrying, I guess. Gonna go for a month-long interrail trip in july with my girlfriend. This is a huge thing for me, since the last couple of years has been quite hard. Many many days alone, drunk, high, depressed, anxious, insecure, bored, ruminating etc. And suddenly right after last summer, something weird happened. I heard about Esther and Abraham and decided to see what they have to say. Watched a couple youtube videos, resonated a lot. You can kinda sense the immensity when Esther does the thing. I really liked it. Decided to pirate (sorry) Ask And It Is Given from the internet and started reading. Right after the Abraham text started, within maybe first three pages, I felt the 'presence' of Abraham. It felt like a warm welcome, a "hello, we love you, let's be friends". Then, I felt a sudden energy flow opening up. It was so refreshing and joyful feeling that I decided to go for a walk. It was dark outside. Last days of summer, first days of fall. I walked along a riverside until I reached the sea. During the walk, I felt completely new ways of thinking, new perspectives, energetics, brightness and clarity of mind. And there, on the shore, the sea flowing and waving, I just kind of knew 'this is it. Today my life changed for better. This is what I've been waiting for'. I just knew that my life changed for better right there and then. Since then, I got a new job, made new friends, haven't been smoking weed or drinking, found out that crystals really do kinda maybe be magically helpful, found a girlfriend, and just a few weeks ago, decided to finally go for a backpacking trip. Been wanting to do this kind of traveling for a long time, and finally it's happening. Though there is some discordant thoughts. What if I can't do it? What if I get anxious when I'm so far from home, familiar language and thus, safety? What if the trip is boring and I feel shit there, and I'll just be disappointed & anxious because I can't enjoy things I want to enjoy? Also, I feel a bit unsure with my girlfriend. There has been some troubles in our relationship. A great learning and growing experience, though very hard at times. It's a real adventure to harmonize and build a relationship like this. A lot of emotions come up, a lot is uncovered. From the very beginning, this relationship has been extremely powerful in a sense of uncovering, letting go, discovery etc. This often makes me feel a bit ungrounded and unsure as to where this relationship is going. In fact, "what the fuck is going on?" and "what should I do, what is the right path here?" and has been pretty much the most regular questions that has come up for me. Also, lately I've also noticed that I feel in fact a bit "clouded" about this relationship. It's as if I can't really see with clarity who she really is, what this relationship is, where it's going and how I feel. Also, it feels like I can't really be present, "here-now" with her. I'm not sure why I feel like this. Though I got an intuition. Sometimes to see others, you also come seen. At times it kind of makes me want to run away, as it's quite scary and stressful. All this is making me feel a bit worried and unsure about the trip. I'd like to feel more grounded, secure and clear.