Orb Posted May 5, 2023 Author Share Posted May 5, 2023 Paradoxically, it is the search that creates the sense of lack or that something is missing. They create each other. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 5, 2023 Author Share Posted May 5, 2023 Same habits appearing, same thought patterns appearing. The sticky thoughts are sexual fantasies when I'm home alone or in bed. Went for a walk this morning and drank some green tea and kratom. It's so nice for everything to just be what it is without the resistance. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 5, 2023 Author Share Posted May 5, 2023 It was amazing to see all the birds flying, the trees, the sun, and that no one is operating it at all. It's like Life without a Soul, but it's vibrant and colorful! Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 5, 2023 Author Share Posted May 5, 2023 There's a desire to experience the awesomeness of calisthenics. Considered whether Id start with weights or bodyweight, bodyweight is cooler 😎 Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 5, 2023 Author Share Posted May 5, 2023 Been meditating 30 mins for 3 days in a row. It feels good to breathe and let shit go. Feels badass to sit like a monk too. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 6, 2023 Author Share Posted May 6, 2023 Vibration is shifting fast, feeling more empowered. There's no need to be ready, it's all about jumping into it! Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 6, 2023 Author Share Posted May 6, 2023 There isn't enlightenment or enlightened person. There's thoughts believed or not believed. There's a heightened sensitivity, no thought about the space between the face and apparent objects in the visual field. The eye and the "seen" are one. There isn't a face. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 6, 2023 Author Share Posted May 6, 2023 When the source seeks itself it cant be found. When the source is found its quickly lost. Seeking and finding are just thought activity. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 7, 2023 Author Share Posted May 7, 2023 The visualization worked. Already found a 2016 car in great condition and it has a sweet exterior design! It's exactly what I want. A nice car that's affordable and looks cool. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 7, 2023 Author Share Posted May 7, 2023 The empowerment is here already. When feeling is listened to and life becomes an art of aligning thought with feeling, they will think it's "me". Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 7, 2023 Author Share Posted May 7, 2023 Sensation is clarity. Sensation Is. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 7, 2023 Author Share Posted May 7, 2023 There isn't any space for a self to reside in. The idea of a self is nonsensical, it doesn't even make sense, there's no evidence for it, only the constant perpetuation of affirming that there must be a self. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 8, 2023 Author Share Posted May 8, 2023 The "physical" car is coming soon! Got the go ahead from an experienced friend to buy this car I found at a dealership! It's coming tomorrow, but vibrationally it is already here. All it took was one day of feeling into the having of it, then it effortlessly started to unfold. The same will occur for my business. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 8, 2023 Author Share Posted May 8, 2023 Going for a walk in the morning and drinking black tea with a low dose of kratom (tapering by 1 gram each week, currently at 3 grams twice a day) feels great. Definitely something that "gets me out of bed", the day starts off with the beautiful orange rays of light slowly entering the dark blue sky, the sounds of birds chirping. Seeing all the burrowing owls and blue Jay's chirping. During the walks inspiration builds up even more, day by day the though of calisthenics becomes more aligned, more inspiring. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 8, 2023 Author Share Posted May 8, 2023 A deeper taste of sensation has revealed something. Sensation is always letting itself go. Moment by moment surrender, letting go, relief, etc. Why resist when the True Nature IS an eternal letting go? Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 8, 2023 Author Share Posted May 8, 2023 The "middle way" is not attained, it's not a matter of behavior modification. It is alignment. On the morning walk today it was seen no one is walking, there was a very short burst of fear and then it faded away. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 9, 2023 Author Share Posted May 9, 2023 Got a car today! Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 9, 2023 Author Share Posted May 9, 2023 Inspirations building up! Now tomorrow calisthenics will be added to the morning routine. There's an inspiration building up also to be around other people, to work with them, to forgive them. The craving for sex/porn has diminished a lot. Still some sex thoughts but no where as much as before. Being outside, moving more, journaling, being around brothers and sisters, it's so much fun compared to watching porn at home 🙂 Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 11, 2023 Author Share Posted May 11, 2023 Took a break from walking today to let the legs rest. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 12, 2023 Author Share Posted May 12, 2023 The TRE has been working!!!! The body is calming sown signifanctly, it's clearing out all the garbage. Chris told me I can keep using substances while doing TRE so still taking kratom/kava, but it's noticeable how much stuff is shifting. I made small talk with a cute girl today for the first time in a while, and there wasn't any anxiety, felt more playful. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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