Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 (edited) @Phil im gonna do positive affirmations in the morning! I think thatll shift the momentum a lot. Also, I remembered I'm love. It's all right here. Love is empowering. I still wanna order food and watch porn but I can feel a shift in momentum unfolding already. Edited May 1, 2023 by Orb Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Orb Let every thought go. 🙂 This is astoundingly, stupefyingly, magically & jaw-droppingly AMAZING in that it continues on exactly the same without you. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 4 minutes ago, Phil said: @Orb Let every thought go. 🙂 This is astoundingly, stupefyingly, magically & jaw-droppingly AMAZING in that it continues on exactly the same without you. Oh wow... okay Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Phil theres no need to do anything to let go of thought. But nothing has ever been done in the first place 🤔. And there it went. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 I'm gonna call the suicide hotline Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 Thoughts are being let go, but there's no feeling of motivation to do anything. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 What's the point of living for the rest of my life if I don't feel like doing anything? Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Isagi Yoichi Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 32 minutes ago, Orb said: What's the point of living for the rest of my life if I don't feel like doing anything? Is there anything you can do you have in your mind? Quote Mention for coding & software engineering services message me on discord Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Omar Osama just sitting down looking out my window. I've skipped all my work meetings, haven't done anything all day except play videogames and eat food. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 If the suffering doesn't go away completely by the end of today, I think I'm done with this. I'm tired of spiritual experiences, I'm tired of insights, I'm tired of moments of clarity. Either the training wheels come off or I'm done. No more tip toeing. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Orb Call the hotline. There isn't an either/or that's thinking... duality. How's daily morning 15 min meditations? Quote Mention Youtube Channel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Mandy I called the hotline before all the stuff i mentioned earlier. i havent meditated in the morning, it doesn't seem to make any difference right now idk. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blessed2 Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Orb What bums you out? What sucks about life? What feels like shit? Write me a list of all that sucks. Also, have you tried Reiki? See if there is any practicioners near you. Or ask Phil / Mandy. Even one Reiki session can be / is potentially life changing. In ways that might not be as obviously in front of your eyes, but it does "work". Quote Mention There must be an effortless way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 8 minutes ago, Blessed2 said: @Orb What bums you out? What sucks about life? What feels like shit? Write me a list of all that sucks. -Not brushing my teeth -Not showering for a few days in a row -feeling lazy all day -watching YouTube all day -feeling ashamed to be expressive around people -intense porn addiction that's getting worse -Living in a Christian house -Being pressured to be a Christian -Resisting my job -Skipping all my work meetings, being behind on work, not reaching out to people -Feeling awkward and shaking while talking to women I find attractive -Getting bullied back in school -Feeling lonely and misunderstood -Feeling like there's no redemption for me 12 minutes ago, Blessed2 said: @Orb Also, have you tried Reiki? Yes, I've had a reiki session. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 Everything's going so slowly in my life. I got my real estate license almost a year ago and I haven't put it to use lol. It's either death or liberation at this point. I don't wanna feel hope or pick myself up anymore, I've felt that enough times. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Orb Please immediately contact a suicide prevention hotline via google. Do not wait or think it over, call now and allow help. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Phil I called them earlier. Had a chat with a nice lady. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Orb As that comment is from 8 minutes ago, please call again. Whenever ideation occurs - do not utilize this forum. Instead immediately contact a prevention hotline. This forum is not trained for nor is any kind of means of addressing ideation. Hotlines are specifically trained for this. This forum is about self-realization and is not about suicidal ideation nor prevention. This forum is not a place to discuss nor receive help for ideation. There are trained facilities & people who specialize in this help. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blessed2 Posted May 1, 2023 Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Orb Hear you brother. You will feel better. These feelings always pass. Like Faith said. See if you want to have a walk outside at some point. Just walk, listen to music, whatever. Any nature near you? Sea, a river, a forest? Go chill out there, and just watch animals and bugs do their thing. They are true spiritual masters. Just like you. Quote Mention There must be an effortless way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted May 1, 2023 Author Share Posted May 1, 2023 @Phil im fine now, a bit above suicidal, more just slow right now. @Blessed2 thanks for the kind words, It feels like I got a giant pile of shit to take care of, I gotta call a bank to take my totaled car 😥. Ugh, but one thing at a time. Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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