Proserpina Posted November 21, 2022 Share Posted November 21, 2022 (edited) Here is my new journal. Edited November 21, 2022 by Proserpina Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted November 21, 2022 Author Share Posted November 21, 2022 5 minutes ago, Joseph Maynor said: This might be a healthier place for you than Leo's forum. ♥️ ❤️ Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted November 21, 2022 Author Share Posted November 21, 2022 @Joseph Maynor Its so surreal to be on a forum again with you. I still remember when I used to follow you around on the forums. It was some of the happiest times of my life. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted November 21, 2022 Share Posted November 21, 2022 @Proserpina @Joseph Maynor Good to see you both here! 🙂 ❤️ Quote Mention Youtube Channel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted November 21, 2022 Share Posted November 21, 2022 @Proserpina welcome to the forum 🙂 Quote Mention ♾️ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blessed2 Posted November 21, 2022 Share Posted November 21, 2022 Welcome! How long did you use Actualized forum? What was your experience like there? Quote Mention There must be an effortless way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
God Posted November 21, 2022 Share Posted November 21, 2022 17 hours ago, Joseph Maynor said: This might be a healthier place for you than Leo's forum. ♥️ You're welcome😂😜 Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted December 16, 2022 Author Share Posted December 16, 2022 (edited) Flower I was thinking and I realized whatever capacity I am set at, it is beautiful. I am like a flower. I may be limited but I am beautiful. I am blossoming and evolving and flowing with reality at my level of capacity. I feel content with where I am currently at. I make peace with my cognitive issues and choose evolution. Edited December 16, 2022 by Proserpina Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted December 16, 2022 Author Share Posted December 16, 2022 (edited) The Flower's Beauty The flower's beauty is composed of no ego (lower density strength) and choosing growth and evolution where choice is available despite illness and challenges (my cognitive issues). Standing in both those qualities and knowledge of these qualities resolutely despite my challenges and despite potential bullying (because of said challenges) further solidifies these qualities. I have past experience of standing resolutely in the knowledge of these qualities in the presence of bullying and was able to transform a negative situation into something else. Edited December 16, 2022 by Proserpina Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted December 16, 2022 Author Share Posted December 16, 2022 First Voice I'm having visions. 'Visions' is a far safer description I find than anything else (like self-referencing. It's just a vision). Visions of what is to come; precognition. Visions of what others may possibly feel and think. It's a bit like a tarot reading on the go. It stems from the first 'voice' or angel (all beings or lifeforms). All beings or lifeforms are this first voice and all speak from this first voice that is a representation of Oneness. All are divine if you look closely. The representation or first voice and Oneness meld together, they are not so separate, they have a likeness, so it may be difficult to tell them apart. It becomes more obvious once the first voice SPEAKS and the voice evolves into more than just a first voice. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted January 28, 2023 Author Share Posted January 28, 2023 I've decided to probably stick to using this public journal now. I don't particular enjoy having Leo breathing down my neck, watching my every movement, fearing I'm going to be IP banned any moment like before. It's painful. Atleast here, I can breath easy and express my self in a relatively similar format (with some downsides). It's like I was crucified for jaywalking. I want to express myself freely, I like to write free flowing what he deems 'verbal diarreah'. My disability, what I have had no choice in having had to live with, is called unhinged by him. Screw actualized.org. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted January 28, 2023 Author Share Posted January 28, 2023 I've discovered a productivity app goldmine called "Norbu". It uses calming and alerting exercises similar to sensory modulation to help you with shifting into a state conducive to productivity and uses a scale to measure before the exercise to gauge your level of stress or willingness to take action. It also has a gratitude journal where you can write about any action you take as a result of the exercises. It's really effective for emotional regulation, state shifting, and then journalling results. I'm making a great deal of progress with the app 'Norbu'. I'm learning about emotional and state regulation. This is fantastic for my personal development along with my productivity. I really feel like I'm healing and I mean it this time. I completed all my habits this week and went on a long walk today, just by keeping close attention to my state of being, making sure I'm in a calm and alert state. I supplement the app with other calming and alerting things (like music, meditations etc.) and with an app called "mind tracker" that helps me to measure my energy levels and mood throughout the day. The measurement function is particularly useful to me in these apps as they teach me to become self-aware. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted January 28, 2023 Author Share Posted January 28, 2023 I may input "norbu" into a habit tracker in order to prioritise state of being over productivity and action. My chronic fatigue wall that I hit was a result of prioritizing action and productivity instead of state of being. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted January 28, 2023 Author Share Posted January 28, 2023 I already feel infinitely better here. I don't even care if anyone even reads my journal as long as I psychologically know it's public then that makes the difference in how I write and formulate my thoughts. I put more effort into my thoughts and writings. I need a place without Leo breathing down my neck but not a discord. Discord formats don't work for me for some reason. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted January 28, 2023 Author Share Posted January 28, 2023 (edited) Apps that combine mindfulness with simple routine actions like exercise and cleaning help me to complete those routine actions. I might carefully invest money into 2 habit apps that effectively combine mindfulness (like headspace etc. ) Edited January 28, 2023 by Proserpina Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted January 28, 2023 Author Share Posted January 28, 2023 (edited) Apps I've included in my habit tracker (to do list): Norbu (sensory modulation - alert, calm state) Breathwrk (breathwork is my new favourite thing to do) Headspace (mindful walking, mindful brush teeth, mindful cleaning) Calm kids (CUTEST mindful activities EVER -don't judge) Edited January 28, 2023 by Proserpina Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted January 29, 2023 Share Posted January 29, 2023 13 hours ago, Proserpina said: Calm kids (CUTEST mindful activities EVER -don't judge) That's actually really brilliant, IMO. Quote Mention Youtube Channel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted February 14, 2023 Author Share Posted February 14, 2023 Achieved in Dreamfora: How to be organized (4 habits) February 14/02/2023 - 12 day timebound challenge Habits - Make my bed when I wake up Write down reminders Make a weekly to-do list Declutter regularly The 30-minute morning routine (5 habits) 14/02/2023 - 12 day timebound challenge Habits- Make my bed Do repetitions of my favourite exercise Take a moment to relax while drinking tea Write a Journal entry Meditate Lean, toned and healthy (4 habits) 14/02/2023 -12 day timebound challenge Habits- Exercise Stay hydrated Relax my mind and body Eat a healthier diet Healthy teeth for life (5 habits) 14/02/2023 - 12 day timebound challenge Habits- Brush my teeth in the morning Brush my teeth in the evening Floss after brushing Follow a healthy diet for my teeth Drink water or chew sugar-free gum Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted February 14, 2023 Author Share Posted February 14, 2023 (edited) I plan to make permanent certain timebound challenges. I'll just repeat them. Those include: Lean, toned and healthy (already listed habits above) My ideal nighttime routine: Habits- Take a warm bath Write a to-do list for tomorrow Run through my nightly skincare routine Listen to music Design my dream room (expanding this to my entire house): Habits- Keep my room (house) organized Find ways to to personalize the room (house) Healthy teeth for life (already listed habits above) Coping with depression: Habits- Set a reasonable goal for today Get out of bed Spend some time in nature Take a moment of self-reflection ............. Then I'll add one other time-bound challenge on top of that. I can't do more than one or I'll be overwhelmed. I'll change this one every 12 days to 3 to 6 months or so. Edited February 14, 2023 by Proserpina Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Proserpina Posted November 11, 2023 Author Share Posted November 11, 2023 I'm learning to follow my highest excitement inspired by Bashar. So far this is what I have (in the order I did them). There seems to be a pattern: Dress Brush hair Lip balm Moisturiser Makeup ASMR Colouring in Jigsaw puzzles Walk Music Aromatherapy Mindfulness Listen to Atlas Listen to Ryan Tedder Feminine music Colouring in Bruce Lee Aromatherapy Prayer book Pink candle (really beautiful) Actualized Read Leo Jigsaw puzzles A perfect circle (synchronicity) Fvp Read Joseph maynor Tool Drink water Lipbalm Spray Moisturizer Jewellery Snapchat pictures Drink water Tool Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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