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Its hard because I do think he has some legitimate insights. But there's so much toxicity as well.

@Mandy I think the problem with discussing Leo is that its not really about what he teaches, but more about the way in which he goes about teaching. So tis hard to talk about any of Leo's teachings as separate from his overall way of teaching and character.

Welp I got banned for disagreeing with Leo too much. Was probably for the best considering I was going on there too much and learning very little. I will miss my journal tho. Was helping a lot of people. I will also miss some of the forum members. Hopefully they defect to this forum. Am I salty? yes. But it is what it is. Now that I can't go back there I see how much of a sinking ship it was.

Looks like someone met their shadow...

@Phil Thanks, I have a journal on actualized.org if you want to read it. '' Shadow work using IFS therapy''

This is a cross post from my journal on actualized: While working with my existential dread and nihilism, instead of avoiding it, I jumped straight into the fire and fully embraced these feelings and I ended up facing my shadow. All my preconceived notions of shadow work were wrong. The shadow isn't just a part, Its an entire world filled with darkness, dread, hatred and malevolence. And its been here all along pulling the strings. I understand why its called the shadow now. My shadow isn't just a part, It is me! Its just as much me as the conscious me, just a dark aspect of me that never sees the light of consciousness. Everything I hated out in the world was inside me all along being projected outwards. I thought, I was suppressing it, but its been in control the entire time. If my self is a reflection of the light of consciousness, then my shadow self is a reflection of the void. Once I embraced by shadow, all my existential dread remained, but to my shadow, the dread was ok, it was just one of many emotions in the void. The experience was equal in intensity to a psychedelic trip although none have allowed me to access my shadow like IFS therapy. The shadow hasn't changed, It's just been illuminated. I don't know what the consequences will be or if I can even trust my shadow, but its not like I was ever in control in the first place. I can only allow things to unfold. I tried to draw my experience with midjourney:

Even with your definition of the shadow, a man can still have a feminine shadow. Men can be hyper emotional, needy, people pleasing, powerless and self victimizing. All shadow feminine qualities under your definition.

A decent amount of guys are like this dude. Tell me he doesn't have a feminine shadow.

lol no. most guys have a feminine shadow.

I mean, he did get molested as a child. If there's anything, its probably that.

@Mandy ok I see

I agree that projection is a big thing but if i'm complaining about genocide, does that make me hitler?

Well they aren't very spiritual and a lot of their beliefs conflict with mine. Ok i'll give meetup a go.

After graduating from uni, I now have no social life. I'm still looking for jobs while my school friends have their lives sorted out with great social lives and relationships. I also find myself no longer being able to connect with my friends after getting into spirituality, since my values have drifted so far away from theirs. How do I meet new people? Especially people that are into spirituality? Can I use law of attraction to manifest a social life?

@Phil ok i'll give that a try

@Phil Hmmm, what do you mean by substance?

@Phil The idea that kundalini awakening raises my vibration and thereby improves by ability to attract

Ah nice. I'm still working on my heart chakra.

yeah definitely. But what does that have to do with it?

What do you mean?

@Orb fairs. Do you think there are benefits from this energy?

I have brief moments where it feels this way but its not most of the time.

A few days ago I'm almost certain I had a kundalini awakening while meditating. I was removing emotional blockages in my body and I noticed a buildup of energy in the lower part of my body. It was trying to rise upwards but there were blockages there which made it very uncomfortable. I went about removing the blockages and slowly moved the energy up towards the crown chakra. Once the energy reached the crown, I shot up energy from my root chakra, through my spine into the crown, completing the circuit. Once i did this it felt like a lightning bolt through my entire body. My entire nervous system lit up I felt like I was going super saiyan. This lasted for quite a while and the next few days felt like my energetic body and emotions were unstable. Are there long term benefits to this or is it dangerous? and what should I expect going ahead? Bonus question: is there a relationship between kundalini awakening and law of attraction?