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nonresistance. Like how the fuck am I supposed to not resist that shit? If I knew how to achieve permanent states of transcending suffering, I would be enjoying that but I'm having trouble doing that. The distinction is in myself as a limited thing that must survive rather than the godhead. thats what I'm struggling with. Ok will try. thanks.
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@Mandy I get where your coming from but I don't really think it applies to me. A lot of what triggers me is people who aren't comfortable in their own skin. Like for example I get triggered by needlessly aggressive guys who pick on random people. But they clearly are not comfortable in their own skin otherwise they wouldn't be so aggressive. That being said I do have a subconscious aggression which I suppress which might also contribute to the triggering. I've done a lot of combat sports and weird fantasy of mine is that some aggressive bully picks on me and I beat the shit out of them. I can't exactly express this aggression since I can't really go around fighting people.
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suffering is an illusion, there is no self, be in the present moment, nonresistance. etc. If I knew that I wouldn't be on here... A better analogy would be: 'its true that the earth is round but in my everyday life, the distances are so small that I might as well think of it as flat' The absolute truth is that torture doesn't exist. The relative truth is that if someone hooked a car battery to your balls, it would hurt... Yes that's what im trying to do but it's hard to let go of the belief that torture, rape and genocide are bad. Not for a logical reason but from a deeper underlying fear. I am well aware of the logic of all of this. But letting go is not a logical decision but an emotional one.
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What your saying makes logical sense to me. I am aware that I have no control over the outcomes and worrying about things beyond my control is pointless and detrimental. However, some of the extreme suffering overrides this logic. I am aware that being afraid and resisting is going to have no effect on whether anything bad happening to me yet I can't help it.