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@Blessed2 so it wasn't old gasoline then? 😅 Where did they even put the leaded gasoline when they banned it?...

@Blessed2 Sounds like heavy metal exposure. I've read that gasoline can contain Lead. You might be toxic. Have you looked into Andy Cutler heavy metal chelation before? Leo actually have a video on it using Andy Cutler's protocol. Do you remember how you felt the time after inhaling? How long have you had these symtoms? Your body might be trying to communicate to you in its own way that it needs some help with clearing out toxins from the body 😄 There is a solution out there for you, this is not the new "normal"😊 You deserve a healthy body & mind! ♡

INFJ here too.

@Lotus Might explain a part of what's going on in my belly 😂 Felt a bit scary to share. Felt good being able to relate to you. 😊 What's the name of the program you're following? Feels better to attract from a place of inspiration & wanting to enjoy the experience itself 🥰

@Lotus I think maybe it goes both ways. Anxiety trigger tensions + chronic tensions in pelvic floor makes the body think it's in constant "danger". Thanks for sharing. I like "Childs pose". I do it every night before sleeping it's soo relaxing 😍 For me, I think a part of having tense pelvic floor comes from having a destructive relationship to sexuality + sexual assault + non-sexual touch that I don't want. Owning my body, being aware of what I truly want, setting boundaries, practicing verbal consent, being mindful & feeling my feelings helps me. Maybe you don't relate to this at all, but maybe if there is the experience of chronic tensions maybe there is something deeper to explore that is triggering it? 😊 And yes I feel like I have a lot more to learn about this!

@Lotus Thanks for the reminder! I know about some of them Recently I realized it might be an important part in healing. I've mostly thought that it will go away the more I relax generally so I haven't focused so much on it but I've heard that tense pelvic floor muscles trigger anxiety. Maybe it's more important than I've thought. Now I just try to be aware & relax my pelvic floor whenever I feel like it (it's tense all the time if I don't notice it yes). I do some stretching/deep breathing everyday. Sometimes I shake my body. I'm a bit skeptic about kegel exercises for the purpose of relaxation when I'm already tense. What do you like the most for relaxation?

Yes, a nutritionist have helped me with diet, different tests for my gut etc with an holistic approach. The gut could still cause the fog even though I only eat foods that feel good. I'm also trying to make sure there's nothing else causing the fog Thank you 🙂

So, I just need to allow myself to receive healing & simply choose anyone that feels right for me? 😊 No, there's no free reiki clinics here

I want to resolve tensions in my body & have been thinking about how reiki could help me in the process. My prio 1 is relaxing my head because of the severe brainfog I experience. Other areas where my tensions are most dominant are pelvic floor and stomach. As you could guess my stomach/digestion is out of balance. I've met a few people that I know practice reiki and naturally I know I would choose the person I feel most relaxed & safe with. I think I've even felt it when writing with someone but I guess it's good to meet in person or at least talk on the phone before.. hehe. Is it possible to find practitioners that are better than others in reiki? How can one know if someone is "good"?

Oh my god!!! I actually felt pretty good yesterday most of the day & this morning I felt good for no reason and I've felt good ever since (it's afternoon now)???? This is incredible! 🥰 I think yesterday I switched from feeling powerless in a loop to feeling that I have the power to consciously create my day & that I'm allowed to do what I want. I was making time for writing down what I truly want to do now & before I "die"! I've tried to do it before... but I've believed I've had "no time" for it & that focusing on what I don't want would keep me more "safe"... This morning after breakfast I was so damn bubbly with intense vibrating energy in solar plexus & I just truly felt the need to put on music & dance!!! It didn't even felt "forced"!!!! I just look forward summer so fucking much. I love summer. I love the summer air in the night & I love summer mornings. I look forward spending time with people I truly Love & have fun with!!! I look forward to festival mornings dancing with amazing music. Also I love all the colours that the summer shows me. 🥰🌈 I so appreciate that I've started to sleep pretty good almost every night. Sleep is a blessing. I love it. Also I just want to say thank you for giving me the best work-environment that starts in a week! I'm going to take care of a stable & horses. It's surrounded by nature. This will support my healing so much & I love feeling the energy of horses it makes me so emotional in a good way. I will also look for somewhere I could camp & swim nearby. Funny I just wanna share more appreciation but I'll let myself soak in this appreciation for now. 😂 Thank you. ❤️🧡💛💚💙🤍💘💖

Though I cannot lie, I know how hard it can be to connect with new people or even to feel connected when in a group. I've found that showing my true self, by expressing myself honestly with awareness is the way to go! No matter how akward or silly I seem to be, lol

I always find those people where I live when I attend spiritual gatherings of any kind, dance groups, workshops or festivals (spiritual or psychedelic music festivals). For me it has been easiest to truly connect, not just meet people in a shallow way, when I've attended gatherings or workshops that are focused on conscious relating. For example authentic relating groups, circling, cuddle-parties or neo-tantra. 🤍 If there are no gatherings currently where you live... I'd try to be brave, talk to people on the street that look like hippies 😄 or look for any local online group where you basically could be straight forward and share about who you are & what you are looking for.

I appreciate that I was able to relax a little bit today & that I ate my home-made chocolate I appreciate the joy chocolate gives me!

If anyone's interested in the full interview from the second video: ❤️

I’ve seen a few posts here about wanting to make new friends and connecting more deeply in relationships. So I would like to share a practice that has been close to my heart. If you struggle a lot with loneliness, inauthenticity or difficulty in relationships - this practice truly helps you to slow down, be present with what is alive in this moment together & allow your intuition to guide you. Circling is a unique experience that needs to be experienced, it’s hard to get a taste of it by just reading about it or watching a video. Every group is also very different depending on the people in the group. There are different practices but the one I like the most is Surrendered Leadership that people from Circling Europe is doing. I’ve done some circling with people from US too but it was different and more structured (though that was one group, I’m sure there are others out there!). There’s also other structured practices within the term "Authentic relating". I like Surrendered leadership the most because it is more free & effortless, where I truly relax into what is alive in this moment. It almost feel like I’m not even doing anything although I'm fully expressing my true self! It feels like my intuition is guiding me in the moment, the more I allow what is, the more effortless it becomes & I feel like I’m in a flow. A lot of times I’ve felt a special “high” from being present with another. This is a very energizing way of relating because you allow silence & you don’t feel drained by filling the void with inauthenticity. Trauma & difficult feelings will come up so it’s important to be aware of the full responsibility that you have for your feelings. This might not be for everyone. I’ve felt that it is good to regularly practice conscious relating with other people that have the same intention. Last year when I met the same group for a while I noticed how my connection to other people outside of the group changed because I got used to connecting in the same way, from my heart. Feel free to share any other practices around conscious relating that you like! For me, meeting other people in any conscious relating groups has been the easiest way to truly connect with new people & to love myself more. This might even bring some awareness & inspiration on how to relate to each other here on this forum. (Looks like I’m getting money for sharing so much about this but I’m not lol) 🌈🍀🌟✨☀️🤍💖💜💛❤️