ivankiss Posted July 13, 2022 Author Share Posted July 13, 2022 Ho-ho-holy shit! Massive drop on the chart, out of nowhere! My TP has been hit. Had I not set it, I could've extracted a few more pips. Still, this is my biggest profit so far, since I started trading in this new chapter of mine. Epic! Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 13, 2022 Author Share Posted July 13, 2022 My account has grown more than 20%. 7 or so trades. No losses. Fantastic. But I think I could be at least twice as much consistent and/or let my trades run longer. So yeah, twice as much money. Either way, I think it's really time I stop doubting myself, because I'm clearly good at this. But even if I doubt, as long as I'm profiting, it's all fine haha! The closer I'm getting to being able to do this full time the stronger the second guessing. It's becoming too real and it's kinda challenging to accept that lol. Even though it's what I wanted for years now. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 13, 2022 Author Share Posted July 13, 2022 5 hours ago, ivankiss said: Still can't decide what to do/where to go in October. I'm pulled in 4 different directions. All are doable and have their pros and cons. 1) Stay in Italy, rent a cheap room, make music and trade for living. I'd save up the most money this way and I could stop working '9 to 5'. I'd also chill and focus more on hook ups, etc. 2) Move back north to Maribor, rent a sexy apartment, continue working 9 to 5, start smoking weed again, hook up and party, trade and make music. Basically do everything that I've been doing before, just on a higher level. Chill for some more time, stop being obsessed with growth and development. 3) Move to Asia and live a simple, low budget lifestyle. Trade for living, make music, hook up, explore the land, etc. 4) Move to Amsterdam, get a good job and continue grinding. Trade and make music on the side. Meet new cool people, network, hook up, etc. I really don't know just yet. Let's dig a bit deeper into these ideas. Italy... I like it because of all the diversity, the fashion, the outgoing nature of people, the nightlife, the architecture, etc. I'd have to learn to speak Italian fluently, which is kinda appealing, but at times it also seems too much. Until then I'd interact in English, which resonates a lot, but it could be quite limiting. The city offers a lot of different things and I'm sure I'd establish a nice little social circle fast. Maribor... I'm clearly drawn to it because it is known. I know what to expect there and I could arrange everything pretty fast. I know quite a few people, already have somewhat of a social circle, girls to hook up with, etc. I'd probably get a girlfriend and live a pretty standard lifestyle. Work throughout the day, chill or whatever at night. Maribor is kind of a boring city. There's really not all that much to do. So I'd be staying in a lot. Watch movies and cuddle lol. Architecture is pretty cool, it's much cleaner than Italy and also more peaceful. It would simply be easier to restart there than to start new in Italy. Asia... Love the idea of going on another adventure, seeing and trying completely new things, etc. The forest, the ocean, the mountains... I'm attracted to all that. Asian girls too, of course. Can't lie about that. Last time I was in Asia I loved it. Except that I did not experience it fully because of my crappy ex relationship. It would be completely different going solo. If not now, I'm going there sooner or later, for sure. I'm a bit scared of anything going wrong, and also doubting that I'm ready for that leap, but I think that's something I'd overcome easily. It's only natural. Amsterdam... That's an idea I had years ago. It could be a very cool experience and I could grow a lot. I'm attracted to the urban city life, all the art and artistically orientated souls, the architecture is cool, etc. I could make some nice connections there and who knows what would open up for me. But it's quite expensive and I'd need to work a lot. It would also cost me the most to move there out of these options and I'd be left with not too much in my pockets. It's kinda risky, and there's some fear around this idea too, but also quite a lot of excitement. I'll keep on weighing these ideas till October... Maybe even something completely new opens up for me by then. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 13, 2022 Author Share Posted July 13, 2022 I am sound asleep. As I should be. Only that way can I go through this transformation. I remember choosing this, creating this, for the greater good. I remember putting myself to sleep. It's just so encapsulating once in the sequence. None of this should surprise me really, because I deliberately designed it all, in my imagination, just as I am designing the very next chapter. The only way to live through it all and experience it all as if it's happening to me, is to go to sleep. A deep, undisturbed slumber. I can wake up at any moment. But it's not time just yet. There's more to be done where doing and time exist. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 13, 2022 Author Share Posted July 13, 2022 (edited) Finished the bass lines for the track. Everything is in place and nicely polished. Ready for recording. Installed a brand new DAW. It's modern and fancy as fuck. Might take some time to get used to it and make it feel like home. Even though there are quite a lot similarities as with the previous one I used. Still need to buy those drum and bass VSTs. Not in a too big of a rush. Letting things unfold naturally. If I push too hard, I might cause unnecessary stress. It's been a long while since I've been actively recording and putting music out there. Yet again, I must build a momentum slowly. It's also quite challenging to give attention to all these aspects I'm working on. There's a lot of detail and technical fuckery in all of them. It can get overwhelming pretty fast. Rest is very important. Turning it all off, coming back to it refreshed. Edited July 13, 2022 by ivankiss Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 14, 2022 Author Share Posted July 14, 2022 Thinking of going back to this haircut... I'm rocking the mid split right now, and it's cool too, but it also kinda looks goofy. I suppose it would look better if my hair was just a bit longer. This haircut however suits me pretty damn well. Also makes me look a bit younger and more trendy lol. I like it. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 14, 2022 Author Share Posted July 14, 2022 There was a big spike up after yesterday's fall. Stuff like this makes me glad I exist fast. Maybe I don't need to change anything and just keep trading exactly the way I do. Price is back down again, probably breaking through to the next support line. Might sell if I get a good entry point, but I'm in no rush. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 14, 2022 Author Share Posted July 14, 2022 Missed the entry. Could have been a nice profit. Oh well. Can't have it all. Off to the gym. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 14, 2022 Author Share Posted July 14, 2022 I am winter dormant in my solitude You are spring alive and with new growth I am summer burning in my beatitude You are fall shedding leaves grown old Just when the circle's drawn Just then the circle's gone The circle's goneI am petals found in frail wayside flowers You are wind blowing bare open I am sunlight showering the rays of play You are sand soft yet hard as stone Just when the circle's drawn Just then the circle's gone The circle's gone Merging with the land now With all things And all the beings Knowing I am one now With my vision With all the feeling I am Winter, you are Spring I am petals, you are wind Faith fills my inner space Clears my circle's place Turns me inside out Moves away my doubt Just when the circle's drawn Just then the circle's gone The circle's gone Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 14, 2022 Author Share Posted July 14, 2022 God... These Portal tapes are absolutely beautiful. Otherworldly and divine. So touching and so soothing... I love it. Some of the best solos I ever heard, too. Pure art. Inspired me to compose something a bit more peaceful and warm. Will play around on the guitar a bit now and then I'm off to bed. Have an appointment at the dentist in the morning. All is well. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 15, 2022 Author Share Posted July 15, 2022 Back from the dentist. It wasn't that bad at all. Kinda enjoyed it lol. First time was much more painful. She fixed one tooth and sadly, one had to be pulled out. It could not be saved. Made another 3 appointments towards the end of August. It will take 4 or 5 visits to get it all done. She pre calculated it all for me, it's going to be a bit more expensive than I first thought, but it's worth it. It's simply a must. Feeling good and relaxed now. Off to work soon. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 15, 2022 Author Share Posted July 15, 2022 Sold again. Price is continuing to go lower. Not the best entry again, but it's a sure trade. It's Friday, so I'm not expecting a big move, but I'm sure I can extract a few pips. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 15, 2022 Author Share Posted July 15, 2022 Was in decent profit, but I did not take it. Wanted to extract a few more pips... Price bounced back up to my entry, looks like I'll have to hold till next week. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 16, 2022 Author Share Posted July 16, 2022 Ok. Starting tomorrow is a new and final chapter of this transformation. Solid two months left. It's time to double down on everything and get the best results possible. -No more skipping meditation and stretching. 30 minutes before the day starts is a must. No excuses. 8 to 9hrs of sleep. -Increasing my calorie intake and pushing harder/smarter in the gym. Must gain 5-6 more kilos. -Continue perfecting my trading system, start working on music seriously. -Decreasing smoking until I'm ready to kick it for good. 5 to max 10 cigarettes a day. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 18, 2022 Author Share Posted July 18, 2022 Day #2 of new phase, did not skip meditation and stretching. Definitely a better start of the day. Still get a bit stressed out at work, but it's not too bad. Trade is still negative. Biggest red so far. Looks like I'll have to hold longer than I thought, until the price comes back down. It's a massive down trend and there are no real signs of reversal yet - it's just retracement. Only a matter of time. Feeling good and sexy, all is well. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 18, 2022 Author Share Posted July 18, 2022 Stop selling on support and buying on resistance lines, for the love of God. Even if the trend is on your side. Mkay? Thank you. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 18, 2022 Author Share Posted July 18, 2022 Price is almost back all the way down to my entry. Nice. I might be in profit by tomorrow. Tonight I'll play around with plugins a bit, might recording a little something. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 19, 2022 Author Share Posted July 19, 2022 Still red. Looks like there's going to be another spike before the fall. Gotta get all those stop losses lol. I know all your tricks, marketmakers. Holding. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 19, 2022 Author Share Posted July 19, 2022 (edited) I've been thinking a lot (no surprise), and I don't wanna say I'm 100% sure yet, but there's a very big possibility that I'm moving to Amsterdam at the end of the summer. That option kinda stands out and resonates the most. I feel like I would fit in very well there. I could step into a fuller, more true and real version of myself and the possibilities are endless. It seems like something worth working towards. And I need that 'light at the end of the tunnel' now. If I was to stay on known grounds, I feel like I would be half alive, bored and uninspired. It really seems like there's nothing for me here. I also simply don't like it. Slovenia is a beautiful country on its own, has lovely nature and all, but the mentality of people, their worldview and way of living really does not resonate. I know I could just ignore everything and live inside of my own little bubble, but why do that when I can choose an environment that feels better and is more supportive of what I prefer. Again, not a final decision, but a very strong leaning towards Amsterdam. Edited July 19, 2022 by ivankiss Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ivankiss Posted July 19, 2022 Author Share Posted July 19, 2022 God I love this album... Trust no future You belong here Fear no new shore You will stay here Stay here Steal the blueprints of the sun god Sailing over the solemn bay Truly airborne we will suffer With the numbers upon the screen We are orphaned Hollow seers Selling art from a magazine The end of ends in view Moved by gentle tide it broke too soon The shallow waters nearly brought you Out to sea With the key of dreams they would buy you too Sheltered fool That gentle clay Animal That gentle clay Trust no future You belong here You belong here Here to labour and to wail with the damned Heed not my hundred reasons at midnight You belong here Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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