ConsciousDreamer666

If most men that struggle to get laid is because they are not masculine enough and high value females discard you at the minimum trait of weakness or lack of masculine authority and confidence, can we certainly confirm that women are 1. Tougher than men 2. More raw, crude and survival oriented than men (instead of valuing things as personality affinity, hobbies, etc...). As a man, I feel I've always rejected this crude truth. But it has come to a point where I think I have started to REALLY accept it. Something dies inside you because deep down you had this hunky Dory narrative about that women can love you as you love them (just as you are, with your good things and bad things, and taking into account basically physical attraction and personality). But it seems those things does not really matter significantly to females. Is more..."are you going to give me what I really want/need from a man? Or not? Because if not all your fancy personality things don't matter at all" And I realized I'm no one to judge what women really need. I realize...ok I can not judge them from my male perspective. I was born with a penis, not a vagina. With this body I was born with a predominant masculine energy , I can't really know the struggles and fear that women might have, so who am I to say what is important in a male. Whatever they are actually attracted to, I will respect And it seems raw attraction from males is that. Protection, leadership, owning them (in a positive way, not in an abusive way), to finally be able to let go and trust his man. To strength and confidence, raw power. Ok It makes sense, and is painful to see it, I never transmitted this values to most women. It makes sense most of them rejected me. Now that I have accepted the hard truth I will be able to give them what they actually need. Before I used to judge "Alfa males" but I know realize it was a judgement towards masculine energy. Well, not more judgements. Some of us that have had problems with attracting females have to really embrace this energy and give it to them (females) finally. Accept the role they want. Make them feel safe and lead and "holded" between our arms. Of course this kind of narrative might not be like by some feminists but is where we are right now. I mean just look at the war, we are nowhere near a conscious planet yet. There is still the jungle rules, there are still wars, bullying...etc. and so female attraction goes still for the most basic important traits that will make them feel safe. They don't care about your zodiac sign affinity, your hobbies, personality, or even if you are physically appealing. They care that you won't be a sissy bitch. They want a strong confident leadership Alfa man. If you are triggered with that you might be a sissy in denial. Attraction of females is raw, crude, this is the jungle, if you don't give them what they actually need you don't matter. This might sound harsh but notice we are talking about chimps (males and females are just evolved chimps) attraction. Love as disney movies told you does NOT exist between romantic/sexual partners. Is impossible. The faster we accept this the less painful surprises we will face. 💔

Good, bratty bitches online remind me of it every day 🤐

Thanks for the message, that clears for me a lot of things. I definitely overreacted, I've been thinking about it and I could have just not cared when she told me she only wanted to be friends. But no, my fucking mind had to make a complete fucking horror movie that lasted 7 days about it. @Mandy Overall your message has given me an interesting perspective on women, appreciate it. @Reena "Only natural males". Bro. Like are you calling me a sissy or what? Seems you are fucking with me in that post by calling me feminine man. Lmao get the fuck out of here bitch. I can do the whole ordeal of treating you like my puppet but I expect more from women, I can do that in bed (and even there it has repercussions ) but outside of that I expect you to be a full fledged human being not just a cute object for me to play with. Like, I can be masculine, but is so clear to me that is a very high price to pay. One can get into that role for a date, two, etc... But at what price. I find hard to believe that women expect always that from a man. *can't unquote

women live longer because they do on average much less physical demanding jobs.

So basically after so many rejections of women I´ve adored, I realized that the fact that you might idealize her is not attractive for them. So basically instead of bathing myself in that infatuating super pleasure feeling of love, I need to not 'attach myself' to any girl. Well that is not fun! I can do that, but what a fucking sad existence that is. The WHOLE POINT of seeking women and getting into relationships is because I can NOT generate that blissful infatuating feeling of love and perfection, and when I met a girl that 'clicks' that inner chemistry start to be generated (as a projection to her, of course, but who cares, the fact is I am experiencing that pleasurable state), that shit is better than any drug. It seems women do NOT want this, or maybe another perspective: The fact that you might be feeling this amazing loving inner chemistry does NOT mean she is feeling it. This is my suspicion: For her to feel a good inner chemistry, you actually CAN NOT feel a good inner chemistry. You need to become a non-attached, masculine, not project any value to her, so she feels whatever the feminine needs to feel from a man, in order to feel attracted. Then she will get that good inner chemistry state from you and then she will be attracted. But, the mindfuck is that then the male inside they won´t feel love towards her, because he had to deny that love in order to become 'masculine' and 'strong' so she could get attracted. So they point is, the relationship game is fucking shit because women are scared to be with a man that opens itself to love. They still are like living in the jungle, they reject and deny love from a man! They want a strong and survival oriented man. This is also seen in sexual excitement. Last girl I met, she was crazy for master-submissive talk. When I didn't give a shit about her and treat her like a submissive cute object she was crazy attracted, once I started to feel love for her and open myself more, she lost total attraction. Relationships are fucked. The whole fucking point about relationships is getting that sweet feeling of love inside you. If the male has to surrender that in order for the girl to get attracted, what is the fucking point lmao?? I´m so disappointed by women. They are fucking scared all the time. Is so fucking sad. They always want the same. Masculine strong man, so they can feel safe and lead by them. Great, now you have a man empty inside. You will never feel connected to him by expecting this behaviour from them. Keep being scared of love. See what that leads you. How fucking ridiculous. Will you ever get that the man is a slave to you? Whatever you expect from us, we will deliver. If you expect this survival chimp stuff, this is what you get. So do not complain afterwards. A man that had to reject and deny itself loving you because you hate men that actually love. You deny love. You are scared of love. Your heart is not open. Is sad.

Here's what I think: This hunky dory perspective of love is not real. I should just accept she is in this sinister macabre word of being HUMAN, and Humans try to bully and humiliate when they can if they have certain tendencies. She saw me WEAK and she thought I was a complete subhuman loser. She didn't have any respect for me and considered me complete shit. What if that is truth and I just have to accept that? If I have the balls to accept the game, I will finally open my plexus solar chakra and will stop being a loser and I will have respect for myself because I will treat this game as is the fucking jungle. Because it definitely seems like it.

This dark energy I am going to describe is what I have been feeling-being possessed by most of my life, since I can remember. Is only when events like this that happen, that it gets triggered and appears to the surface in very clear ways. But this last experience triggered in a way that I didn't knew possible. Today I am better, but the last 6 days I have been experiencing a brutal hell, EXTREME emotional suffering, to the point I was in the verge of existential trauma. Expiring 24/7 non stop beliefs about myself that I am not-life , not-worthy , not-love. I don't know how I have survived feeling that. I need someone to save me of this fucking nightmare. Basically, I met this girl 2 weeks ago, I had an awesome interaction with her the day I met her, we kissed and made out. The following week we texted and I had a thrill (and also her). And then at Sunday we met again. The date in my view was good, but the next day she texted me saying she had an awesome time but would not like to go further and would like to stay friends. This message really crushed me, I know there is nothing wrong with that, but that message it triggered this dark-soul crushing energy of not being wanted from girls, that I was terrorised to feel again. (last time it happened was with another girl 8 years ago). The next days I started thinking about the second date. Then I realized, there was subtle anxiety, fear and doubtfulness through the whole date. This was the obscure energy I have inside and I was in it, subtly dominating me and not letting me being a man and feel loved. Of course she might have sensed that through the date and she lost the desire/wasn´t attracted to me. In fact through the whole date I displayed some people-pleasing / validation-seeking traits. Now it makes sense that she didn't felt attracted. Ok, I accept that. I wasn't able to be free of the dark energy, so that happened. But what even tortures more is that I can remember now that at some points on the date, I gave her a compliment, and she found funny the way I complimented her. A word I used. In that moment I was not aware I felt that obscure energy again. But now contemplating about it, I did. In the same moment she laughed, I instantly inside felt she was laughing of me, making fun of me. I even said that to her, but not in a very emotional way, more like it was nothing. She replied saying something like "I laugh about everything, is my filosophy. " Now thoughts about that compliment have come back. I can not cut them off. I really feel they are true. I was a loser and not enough of a man, and she took advantage and laugh of me. I only want to feel I am the same Love as the love/acceptedness I project to her. But I don't know how to do it. The fact she rejected me because of not being man enough and being weak-doubtful through the date (I only kissed her when we went home), makes me think is true. I am a loser, I am inferior to her, she is better than me. She is life and worthy to life, I am less than life and unworthy in an inherent way. This is a nightmare. How do I fucking get out of this insane energy of inferiority and self unworthiness? Especially towards women. Please HELP

I wonder how come this two get inter twisted together in such a crazy way. NSFW explicit talk incoming, but I need to be explicit to explain my case properly: Lately I´ve been cleaning up my 'sexual diet' and I am practicing more healthy, vanilla, normal, no-difference projecting like sex, sometimes I get 'attacks from the ego' and I go/enjoy going back to a certain feeling of self-destruction that by some weird reason feels good (until it doesn't). In this one attack I go into twitter and I search a famous humiliation goddess. I click on a video of her and I start to masturbate. In the video she says something like: 'The plan of today is taking your money while I laugh at you' I remember spending last summer on this absolute bitch about +200$. I got traumatized of the way I feel this absolute whore manipulated me. But also after one year I enter again in his profile and is that perception of manipulation and abuse that at the same time got me crazy horny. At this point and while watching the video, is all those thoughts of feeling she enjoys taking advantage of me, or humiliating me, that puts me on edge, and I cum hard. And while I am cumming I realize, this is fucking insane, how the fuck I am living like this, is like you realize this is literal the worst psychological pain a human can endure. It feels like deep down they are beating you to death. What I think this pain is, the belief of certain thoughts such as 'I am such shit human being she really wants to hurt me and humiliate me' and several of those. I belief there is a certain conditioning that have been imprinted, who knows why, by childhood trauma or genetic trauma or who knows, but this shit is fucking insane.

It´s quite frustrating that when I get high, it seems my usual thoughts and emotions or whatever you want to call it, that tortures me, don't exist in that state of consciousness. When I get high I feel protected, safe, a sense of innocence, yes that's it...I finally feel not guilty! Oh how good it feels.... And I appreciate the opportunity to feel this but I would like to feel like this all day not just occasionally with drugs

is getting pretty shit unfortunately since im working downtown lately each day...but if I eat at home, my diet usually consists of honey, tahini, quinoa, avocado, eggs (occasionally), hummus, tomatoes, rice, ...etc and something else I don't remember

Either no one reincarnates or all reincarnates. There is no such a thing as past lives, or either you are all lives

Who is the you that is trapped in someone here's pov? What you need my friend is less thinking/sorting out and more sadhana/actual spiritual tools. You want clarity? Great, that is the way to go. But you won't ever find it in words. Only in experience.

You mean thought and Me? That they are not two?

because you are suffering it buddy. It should be the opposite!

I think either this trip changed me for life in some way, or either this is the last trip of my life. Will see tomorrow how im feeling. Now I just want to say is all fucking love lol.

I took 45mg of 5-meo-dmt, I know it was a big dose but I was at the verge point of my life, I was going to this findom humiliation session with a 'goddess' and I couldn't take the darkness anymore, I went straight to LIGHT, load up the dose, up my ass and straight sit in sirdahsana and put myself "Aim Namah Shivaya" mantra and stood there like a warrior to face whatever it should be faced. Until... it hit me. But this time like no other. Absolute horrendous time I had, because I was completely confused at what was going on, nothing existed but this present moment, I could not handle the Brutal Love. I think this is what happens with psychedelics, you force yourself and then you are not ready for the TRUTH. Then I started shouting like a madman, for 20-30 minutes. The thing is, I am sharing the house with the landlord, now im coming down the trip and I start again to have self-doubtous thoughts about myself "What would she think of this? Will she kicked me out"? The Love that I experienced is no longer here. I am doubting it. Why I am not anymore feeling the Love? The ego mind is again talking breaking This Love... and tomorrow of course it will talk more. Will I remember that it was all pure Love? That all differences were created? That Reality is absolutely freaking perfect because is all a 'trick' of God to forget it is God? Lol Fuck psychedelics. I don't think I´m doing this again lol

This advice does not apply to all males, but a lot of this advice is needed for a lot of young males out there. I see a lot of young scheming all types of techniques and perspectives in how to get the most sex experiences possible and attract as many women as possible. I also see this men have in common that is everything is always about them, and about critizing the women or putting them at a place of a pure object to use and take advantage of. A lot of them also seem to have this kind of fantasy or mind attitude of trying to have sex to feel good about themselves or feel "macho". All of this perspective will hurt you, (and is hurting you, although you can not see it). This type of understanding sex and women is deeply toxic and you are making a big mistake. I suspect this type of perspective comes from several places, one big of them probably is religious background, and the damage this religions have produced on society and the psyche on a fundamental level. As a male, if you want to really be successful in life, what you want is to change completely this focus and let all of this become about her. Only have sex FOR THEM. Only have sex for them (women) to have actually a great experience and one that they will be come out of it empowered, not feeling used or like they were taken advantage them. Forget completely about the whole "what about me??" Motto. Just forget about trying to have sex or casual success with Women for your sexual achievements. This is sick and this is not what a Powerful men is. Go have sex only for her. Only if she will benefit from it. If not, don't have any interest on sex. If you have a girlfriend, is the same. Only have sex when she she really wants it and FOR her. If for some time or because of certain circumstances is better she does not have sex, absolutely you won't want to have sex. Because remember, Sex is a biological process, is not something you as a male build an identity around it like a compulsive creature. You should be arriving for creating and cultivating acts that are beyond survival compulsory acts. Not trying to use sex as a way to fill your traumas and entangle yourself more in the dream, in physical identification, and in fake love mechanisms of the ego .

All beings are being held inside of me. Right now. This is the biggest, clear and most intense love that can exist.... But it can not be thought, only experienced, only Be it... Something must open up, very intensely. I don't know if call it perception, energy, or what....but if that opens, activates, very intensely...then oh my god... then everything is accesible, right here. And the love never moves...is right here, always held inside your consciousness.... Is crazy. Eternal, indestructible, unmoving. A bliss and a silence that can not be handled by the ego mind... 🙏😵‍💫💥

sounds some 'inner engineering' amazing work. Thanks for sharing it...

If there is no self, Reality its an Infinite Bubble of Love 🎯😇

fucking gaslighting here you guys are playing here. Always one is the fucking dark one, others are the good ones. THE FUCK???. Gtfo man aint no time for this manipulative gaslighting subtle bullying. Not going to take this from nobody. I See Your Games. I see them so fucking easily.

Mandy, let me tell you something. Do not project whatever you want Reality to Be, TO ME. I am done with bullies that want to tell me that they are right, that EVERYONE in reality is LIGHT, and I am the darkness/the bad one. Fuck you. (With Love, but honestly...). I´m done with you guys games. Of course, it's always me who is the 'bad/dark'. I´m guilty because I am doing the bad judgments towards people/women, ITS NEVER THEM right? Other people/women are fucking perfect, im the bad one hahahah you guys have some fucking balls. Fuck you. I already believed that shit in the past. I fell for that game in the past. AINT FALLING NOW!! I KNOW I AM LIGHT!!!! I´m done with this. I am pure fucking Light, do not tell me I´m the bad one here. Gtfo. It's sad that I have to use this language but this shit gets me emotional. Do not play the 'I/We are Light, you are Darkness' game. No sir, I am Light, you are Darkness because of trying to project that twisted judgment game on to me. Here You Go: 💙 And I send you this because I´m conscious of this. Are you going to stop projecting your Karma on to me? Because I´m telling you, I am not FUCKING EATING IT. 😉 Send whatever you want. Only Light here baby. 👆

@Mandy I feel That's very true and very interesting that insight. The problem is, 99.5% of women are like that Lmao. So when men start to get into the game of attracting, they either succumb to play by the raw rules that most people are playing, or either have integrity and don't go anywhere. Because unicorns are hard to find. And when they appear, you just probably sabotage it and lose it because you are still playing the old paradigm.

For Starters, I can guarantee you that women don't find attractive men that ask themselves "Am I worthy of beautiful women?" So start by removing any trace of weakness, self-comparison, self-value, ...etc. It can be daunting because some of us have picked up that low energy and dark thoughts as Karma to resolve... But as a general rule, if you want to play the game, play by the rules. Become a strong attractive men. You are right being skeptic about the Disney-like advice that its going on in this topic... You just have to go out some Friday/Satuday night to some clubs and look to what kind of men the top attractive women are with. That will give all the answers you seek. The question is do you want to swallow the bitter pill or not. This attraction stuff its no Romantic or Love Movie, it's pure survival, pure jungle, pure seeking of who is the best value male/women that can the other genre find for themselves. Any thing else its people romantizing the jungle game. Love can only be found within, outside it's just survival game. If you want to date a model, Start by hitting the gym HARD for starters.

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