ConsciousDreamer666

That makes sense. See this is my reasoning: Before having/being in this body, I was nothing, now I am supposed to be 'this' character? Does not make sense at all. 😆 I watched the video but I don´t get that thing about thoughts having conditions though. Awakening/Enlightment seems impossible tbh...perception seems rock solid...there is a body and thoughts and there are of a certain character. If there are no others selfs, then who are the thoughts that appear in awareness right now? Also, if you don´t exist who am I asking this question? To the screen? This seems fucking solipsistic. I want this twisted game to end lmao. This is getting ridiculous. 😅

are you trying to say 'other' perceptions exist? If perception is empty Being with noself, then other selfs would be me. But how do I even know you even exist if I just empty my mind there is just nothing I can know @Phil as James said not-knowing. How can I know you are real? How do I know im not alone in this empty unknown Being?

so what is current perception? Just Empty Being ?

@Phil The actuality of reality is that there is no Self in perception but rather just Being? Maybe there is no self all of there is Being?

I don´t know who am I talking to or who am I asking. I don´t know what are this objects or other people, I don´t know anything. I am completely lost. I am beginning to question 'I' does not exist. Not only the feeling of 'I', but also the perception. Like this bubble of consciousness is not a bubble of consciousness and is not even mine, or nor do I even exist 'here'. (let alone in the body). This seems like pure magic! What is this!!!??? (And I don´t even know who am I asking 😂💙)

mmm Phil, for having no self you seem to be developing some kind of bias to some people´s around here... Not that I mind because I don´t validate my life experiences to anyone, so I don´t expect your validation of awakening, just so you now. He knows perfectly what I say are just words and he can not know if I am having a dissolving experience or not, but of course since words like that, and he seems have developed a certain angriness or bitterness towards me because I said his method of letting go thoughts does not work for most people, then he nit pick chooses words to try to prove what I am saying does not fit his No Self Meter. Overall this kind of behaviour just let me see that you are not truly selfless state and your mind still develops in discriminations to your favor kind of way , which makes me think you might not be awake NOW as a permanent way of living. If he truly would be in non boundary state he would have love for me because he would be conscious I am him, and then he would not reply to with bitterness/envy, etc...trying to put down my experience. I hope you do realize that brother. @Phil

@James123 @Phil Well, I do take all of my posts back. I finally awoken and realize all of my posts were bullshit. Awakening to reality is dissolving completely in the present moment where no physical boundary between body and reality is experienced. Therefore, sense of self completely being gone. Existing as one wave of infinity, empty of ideas, maps or filosofies. Completely surrendering the mind and staying in Reality, which is this experience.

TRUE, BUT only if by 'universe' you mean Infinity universe.

With all due respect I think you are settling down for spiritual solace and not actual clarity. 'Discord 'etc... words you picked up from Phil. Which I still intuit he is legit/enlightened but coming from you makes me intuit also you just picked up a narrative from him. (which again, not debating is 'wrong', you might find relief/solace in it if you are going through a rough path and maybe it is useful, but I would be careful with assuming you 'got it all sort it out'). Is risk to settle down soon. Just saying. (If my intuitions are wrong and you are legit unlimited/liberated. Cool. Just ignore me 🙂 ) @Phil What I am inspecting is the following, let me know if you find any incongruencies in my thinking: I inspect why I am experiencing this POV and not my girlfriends POV I afterwards realize Consciousness/Awareness is the one who actually experiences/perceives. From that, of course Consciousness is indeed also experiencing my girlfriends POV. I concur then that I am the one (the illusory one) who is asking the question 'Why I am not experiencing my girlfriend's POV'? Which is totally normal because as the ego-body-mind I am ConsciousDreamer666, and not my girlfriend´s. I then proceed to put myself in my girlfriend's head and imagine she is also asking herself that question. 'Why I am not experiencing ConsciousDreamer666 POV?' I concur, Consciousness is indeed experiencing ConsciousDreamer666 POV. Is my girlfriends illusory ego which is NOT experiencing ConsciousDreamer666. And is totally normal because that ego-female body-mind is precisely that. I then realize, well, this must be then which every ego ask itself.... 'Why I am not experiencing other person POV'? Since the ego ask itself this question, and assumes that the experience is having is Personal, then of course it is created the illusion of individual existence into one´s perception. Did I just awoken logically? Lmao

Good point. I agree with most of your points, but there is something missing. Awareness should definetely be able to verify unity. In my case there are moments of dissolution of self, but ego comes back. Why? Because I believe the dissolution is not total, is not clear, is not truly clear. @Orb If there is clarity, if you truly become everything and verify it for yourself (as Awareness, not as the ego self), then you can imagine... there would be absolutely no problem in 'activating' this dissolution at will, and engaging with mind/body when is needed (for menial tasks, work, driving, talking, etc...). But since there is doubt, there is not real absolute perception, there is not direct recognition, is just a mud of pseudo openings and dissolutions, then still questions comes up. So don´t judge me for asking questions, you guys love to dismiss absolutely every damn question with the answer 'just let go of the thoughts!' When in my opinion, you should recognise the technique or approach 'let go of the thoughts' is not really being useful. Is not powerful enough. Is not explosive enough for clear awakening. It might be useful to lift people from depression or anxiety episodes to a minimum of well being and mindfulness. But is definetely is not working for most of us for clear and permanent liberation. I just think Is just doesn´t cover everything that is needed for clear realisation. And I feel you guys are not acknowledging this facts.

Good question @Phil I was wondering... if Consciousness is experiencing all 'POVs' at once, then this POV, is not more real or more important than any other... Yet, for the ego, it is 'the real one'. Yet For Awareness this pov is not more real or more personal than a 'strangers' POV. But for the ego, it is created an hallucination of 'personality'. And... that would explain why´s why my ego sometimes ask himself "why I am experiencing as awareness a man and not that woman?" The question for awareness of course doesn´t make sense. ... That I feel alone. I know the drill 'don´t belief thoughts, blabla', but truly I would like to know if am united with the rest of reality or not. I just don´t want to enjoy peacefulness of mind (not attaching to thoughts), I want to go further and verify unity is real. Hundreds of Hours of meditation and spiritual practice, dozens of gruelling mind broken psychedelic trips, ...etc and still the ego hasn´t gone...No, cmon, it can not be 'that simple'. Nobody believes that. Even sages took years and years of spiritual practice to get somewhere real. Is your experience of life of absolute unity with the rest of reality right now? Because that´s what am I aiming towards. If solipsism is not true, then, let´s go, I want to experience true non duality. If you guys say other aren´t a cupboard cut out, then I want to verify they are literally me.

If we agree that "my POV" is not my pov because It doesn't have an end, ok there is Only one POV But perception wise, i dont have access to seeing Tower Effeil now, and some "other povs" (which are not really "other", rather, percepcion limited) that are in france might have access right now . You see what i mean? There is definetely an experience of Life. Maybe is not PERSONAL, Ok. But there is an experience. I call that a POV. Because mentally i imagine It? If we say solipsism is not real, the question of what or how are other peoples experience naturally comes Up.

Where is the border or separation "line" between one POV and another? Where is the border or separation "line" between one POV and another? Where is the border or separation "line" between one POV and another? Where is the border or separation "line" between one POV and another?

I cant seem to Accept the fact that other persons have an experience. See, before It was no issue because i thought there something such as a person and a biological thing perceiving the material world. I thought, sure, this is me, and there are the others biological beings perceiving. Each biological machine is different sure. But now...is clear to me that there are no biological beings perceiving stuff. There is just consciousness, passing through every being, and in that, creating an experience of individuality. So basically i can not handle how is It possible that there are ACTUALLY other beings experiencing the same i am experiencing (an "illusory pov"). Infinity Love, Infinity dream. It can not be possible. No way. No fucking way.

Thanks! Sometimes i doubt but i intuir Phil is legit. Something about him being so congruent in his teachings so much time Tells you something

What?

It has happened more than one time that after I finish the meditation I have some seconds of 'God Realization'. I feel very good in this 'state of consciousness' because it feels there aren´t any boundaries, I´m everywhere and there is pure silence. Afterwards I start to lose my 'state of consciousness' and I become to get frustrated and very sad that I can not get to that state of consciousness. What is helping is to remind myself that 'God Realization' is just another word/thought/idea. I am remembering that 'state of consciousness' and I am proyecting that experiencing that meant being God. When in actuality, what matters is experience. If I am not experiencing that, then I am not. Full stop. I am not God or whatever fucking bullshit the mind wants to tell me. I still fall trap to this mind games from once in a while but I think I am clear that I shouldn´t ever let the mind define what an experience is or especially what It means. I just have to focus in improving my internal experience, but I must be very careful to not fall trap to the mind games of saying that I am in that experience now (in other words: I am God), because the reality is, I am not experiencing that now. @Phil is probably going to ban me for using so many times the phrase 'state of consciousness' 🤣😆

@James123 🤣🤣You are going to kill me 🤣 I´m not sure what do you mean @Joseph Maynor Absolutely. @Phil Yes @Reena 😂

I was just contemplating about it and I started to laugh my ass off at how ridiculous the ego is. The ego is constant fight against reality. I realize all my spiritual practice is a way to try to align myself with reality for some moments, to bring the mind and body to a place of embracing and being in armony with reality, which is how it should be all the time. But outside of that, is all a constant fight. A constant delusion. Thought after thought, the ego trying to feel real, special. Me, me, me. I, I, I. Constant friction, constant entanglement in mind hallucinations. Little Being, Little Reality, Little Harmony. How ridiculous! How come we have to meditate every single day to be truly at peace and at ease for some minutes??' And the rest of the time is just mud with thoughts? Is the ego insane? When this guy is going to break?? 😂 I´m having the time of my life watching this imaginary guy thinking is real and special. If it wasn´t for the fact that a life is wasted on thoughts and mind hallucinations... Is definetely hilarious.

@Phil I´ve read you several times saying there are not 'levels of consciousness'. Then how do you explain that thanks to my daily energy practice (learned from a legit Guru) I experience a focus and intensity of awareness where I do not entangle myself with thought for hours. Depression or 'low mood/high mood' rollercoaster does not exist here. Because there is a constant focus 'outside'. The highs and lows of the thoughts do not touch me at this state of consciousness. You will say now, there aren´t levels of consciousness, and there aren´t gurus, and there aren't energetic practices. Yet, if I stop doing the practice, in a few days, if not the first very day I won´t do it, thoughts and entanglement will come back, fast. So basically what I´m saying is, there seems to be a real correlation between states of consciousness and quality of experience. In other words, if there weren´t states of consciousness you wouldn´t recommend meditating. You recommend meditating because something changes in consciousness. It gets activated and aware, therefore the possibility of some freedom opens up.

That is a super common 'problem' when meditating, don't worry. I advice you to seek other tools in order to make meditation more effortless or 'a consequence of'. IMO for meditation to be a success, there must be a certain activation or intensity of energies, so when one sits and just don´t move, stillness is the result, and not drowsiness or sleep.

😊 @Someone here "Be a mother to the world". If you can just interiorise this mantra, you will be able to love. Everywhere you walk or go, wherever you are, humans, animals and even inanimate objects, see them as yours. (After all, they are happening within your experience, they could very much be yours ☺️) Or just do this emoji 🙏 to everything that appears in experience. Everything that touches you will become sacred and reverenced by You. The technique or tool is not the problem. Is, you maintaining the consciousness or focus of this 'purpose' or goal. Remind yourself, remind yourself everyday.

The body and mind surrenders, of course there is not a 'self' that surrenders. Which is why meditation, yoga, etc...exist. Is a way for the body and mind to get to a place where is not anymore a blockage to reality. The illusory energy or energetic aberration that was being created as separated from reality, is no longer there, and so Dissolution happens. So in summary, there is no self that surrenders, but rather mind or body do (or stop doing) certain thing, that make the true Being or Existence awake and be 'activated'. In other words the body or mind becomes an aligned conductor in reality, making the illusory feeling of separation stop. And thus our True Being feel finally at ease.

That it exists without condition, kind of like empty space or air.

🤞💥Got it my friend @James123 I Will keep letting go of thoughts and ideas and conclusions until nothing is left ...