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@Mandy typo.

@Links she is something from the past now . I'm looking forward to new relatiorelats.

The point is in all honesty she is beautiful. She is Norwegian not Indian . I met her in college . We would meet in my place and bang .but I am not sure it was anything more deep than sex towards love. Maybe because it was my first sexual experience in my life and I Lost my virginity I got mad .

Happy feelings .

@Mandy OK.

Because I couldn't satisfy her . We weren't into each others as in a mature relationship. It was merely a friends with benefits relationship. Basically we satisfy each others sexually and nothing more . And she was like what is wrong with you ?am I not attractive enough for you to get it up ? I tried to explain to her that there is something called refractory period when a guy reaches an orgams he loses his ability to get hard for few days . But she is stuipd .

@Mandy basically i couldn't perform one night.

@Phil what in my comments indicates that I'm "that guy "?

It's embarrassing to say !

@Phil sorry I have to go get some food .I'll be back in an hour if your interested.

Of course and the girl should be into me as well . It's not just sex .Notice I choosed the word "romantic " not sexual . Of course its wrong to look at women as sexdolls ..but I promise you I'm not that guy . Yup. It was learned. But isn't that obvious?

Haha come on I'm not obsessed with sex . The case is I do have genitals . So people without genitals are none of my business. I'm stallion as hell .got steel sack of balls 😁. It might seem like I'm being silly ..and in a sense I am. But I understand that fucking and orgasming isn't the point of life or something. But it is something that the 7 billion human chimps seek.

@Phil all I know is that I find within myself a need to be In a romantic relationship with a girl that I truly love .and that that need isn't being met .which leads to dissatisfaction with my current state of life . What do you suggest to do ? And please go ahead and elaborate about what you mean about way of thinking is what's problematic and not an actual proplem.

Weird ..then how did you get married if intimacy wasn't sought ? Maybe you are genetic natural freak. Or maybe back in the days things were different. Idk really. Are you familiar with Maslows hierarchy of needs ? It says sex is an essential need . You can't aspire for higher things without meeting your basic materialistic needs ..one of which is sex .

@Phil Is masturbation during puberty a need or want ? Actually think back to when you were 15-18 yo. Its something similar to that what I'm going through