Celestial

@SuesserEsel Nah no worries at all man, to sum it up I'd probably say that being on retreat just strips away all of the distractions and comforts of everyday life, it's difficult but a very awesome experience in hindsight. Def recommend if it's something you'd be interested in.

Yeah it seemed to be connected to doubt about the future in particular about if I'm going to make the right decisions etc.. how'd you know lol? Is this when I'd notice that and simply just focus on breathing from the stomach?

It's interesting because Bashar says that open contact is also coming and it seems like there's more and more people having contact experiences. And I feel like no one really took UFO's seriously even like 5 years ago, now it's gone mainstream. Definitely interesting times.

It's definitely a different experience being at home compared to being on a retreat where everyday you don't talk, are meditating ~10 hours a day and don't have access to all of life's luxurious. But I don't think there's anything preventing me from feeling like that now besides my own thoughts and interpretations.

Saw this just after I woke up and did about an hour. There was this constant sort of pit feeling in the stomach area, not too sure what to think about that besides just allowing it. Honestly I think the main thing that's bothering me with regards to meditation is that there's so many different techniques, I experience doubt about if I'm practising the 'right' one. This also could be the way the mind avoids actually meditating by ruminating about all the different techniques. I hope this isn't derailing the thread btw

@Phil So I guess any meditation technique is far greater than not sitting. Complete happiness. But yes also, a life with genuine relationships & full of love for every aspect. First time I've seen this and I love it.

@Phil How do you know which technique is the right one? Is it the one that resonates the most, or the one that is the most enjoyable? Or maybe the technique that you are the most averse to could actually be the most beneficial? How does Self-Inquiry compare to meditation and when does it come into play? How much of the path should be about practice as opposed to theoretical knowledge or listening to pointers? 🙏

What do you mean?

Man, I just finished my second 10 day Vipassana retreat and I can't recommend it enough. Such a beautiful experience that it's hard to describe. Was really nervous this time and experienced a lot of suffering throughout the retreat, but after the 10 days, especially on the 10th day when you get to talk to everyone, such a beautiful experience! Wanted to desperately go home on the first 2 days, settled in on day 3, experienced a lot of mental rumination and quite a lot of suffering a bit later in the retreat. Getting to talk to everyone after the 10 days of silence is an absolute blessing and it feels like a beautiful reunion, everyone feels like a brother and honestly the fact that it's fleeting makes it all that much more special and honestly like a very happy kind of sadness. Miss them already man. Now I'm tearing up lol. Highly highly recommend going on a retreat and staying the 10 days, you will have such a wonderful experience. Can't recommend it enough. 😌😭

@Phil Awesome to hear, and I appreciate you.

Lately At work lunch: 2 apples and a banana When I get home from work: Oats with mixed berries, walnuts, ground flaxseeds, ground chia seeds, cacao nibs. + a loophole shale with frozen blueberries added. Dinner: stir fried vegetables, can of mixed beans, brown rice, cholula, salt, pepper. After dinner: Another loophole shake with frozen blueberries added.

Got the retreat in three days and I can feel that there's an energetic preparation going on, like its getting real. I am also noticing some nerves although I'm welcoming them. Part of me thinks that I'm ready to 'have a breakthrough' and that this retreat will facilitate that. But I'm also content to just do the retreat and whatever happens, happens. Last year when I did the retreat I went in addicted to weed, literally smoked a joint before I went in, and I exited that retreat without the urge to smoke at all. This year, I'm going in fresh. I've sat for 45 mins for the last two weeks, no weed recently or alcohol. I feel like my being is ready to release a lot of suffering. I've written a lot of stuff on my dreamboard that I'd like to experience and just the other day I added Kensho, so I'll see where that leads. Overall, I'm excited and nervous about the retreat and I'm looking forward to experiencing whatever I need to experience to purify the mind and body so I can be filled with more love. Also, this new ufo stuff is getting interesting, I think its all unfolding perfectly and it seems like a thing that the universe wants to experience lol. And it seems like its all just going to get more clear. The main thing I'm worried about is, it seems like no ones actually talking about how we're going to be peaceful with whatever the crafts are, it seems like people are either, concerned with "national security" or with the technology that the crafts seem to possess. Isn't it fucking amazing and magical that there's other beings that are visiting Earth and crafts showing themselves to people? Yet the US is worried about fkn national security. In my opinion, if these are beings, they are completely non-hostile, full of love, wanting to connect with us. When me and my brother witnessed a craft it completely felt like we were supposed to see it, like literally stars aligning type event. I hope sightings become more frequent so more people will know that et's are in fact real.

@Phil Would be interested to hear this as well? Because I sort of hold the belief that the crafts have some sort of connection to et's, and its all moving in the direction of us having contact with these et's.

@Phil I literally set an alarm for the call because its at 2am for me but I woke and fell back asleep. I would love to hear you explain it, did you record it or maybe a YouTube video? If I had seen your message above I definitely would've stayed up to listen. I feel like the more clarity around this topic the better.

Having had an experience with a craft a couple years ago that felt extremely intimate and "meant to happen", it is my hope that all of this is going to end up with open contact with the beings. I can't understand how they could be viewed as any sort of threat, in my opinion, we're the only possible threat to peaceful contact.

Think I've gotta take it easy on myself and the people around me.

Man it's so easy for the mind to get into a whirl wind and worry about pointless stuff. Just gotta be where I am, in this moment instead of conceptualising endlessly. Listen to a vid that has the law of one in it and then I start to over think everything about it and all of the densities of consciousness and shit instead of being where I am. I haven't experienced any densities of consciousness or whatever so it's just conceptualising for me which isn't helpful really. Have meditated 45 mins for the last 8 days so stuff might also be coming up idk really. Times likes this is when I really appreciate music, always connective.

Currently listening to loud music in the lounge room home alone, danced for a bit and have been singing, feels really good, simple and freeing. Letting loose by myself. Gonna do this more often.

Just sat for 45 min doing the "just sitting" technique. Feel really good and everytime I do a longer sit I always am reminded to do more. So here I am reminding myself to sit more often. Almost feels like a mini purification just sitting and doing nothing. Everything feels "fresher". There was a point towards the end of the sit when I started to experience irritation and i just decided to feel into it instead of just go along with the irritation and when i did that it wasn't really a problem. 🤷‍♂️

It's like i know that my suffering is self created, I know that it's all just stories, beliefs and the way I'm seeing things but I can't seem to fully unhook from this at least at the moment, now that's just another story I'm telling myself as well. I'm partly hedging all of my bets on experiencing a big release on retreat and sort of viewing that as a reset to my life. I have started doing things that resonate more like fitness, diet is spot on at the moment, haven't had any alcohol for months now even though I think it'd be fun to drink with my mates. But then every time I drank all of this spiritual stuff went out the window. I mean, only like 4 months ago I was completely addicted to weed so I should be proud of myself for where I'm at. I should love myself for how life is going and the direction it's going. I think what my heart deeply desires is to know what true eternal peace is.

Been avoiding meditation the past few days, and trying to distract myself to avoid feeling. I feel jealousy when I see other people just doing they're thing and just being able to be outgoing around everyone. Sometimes it seems like the more I get into spirituality or whatever, the more suffering I experience. But I do see a light at the end of the tunnel where there is peace with everything. And maybe all of the suffering im experiencing is for the benefit of me. The shit I need to work through and love in order to be free.

They feel really bad, it feels like the whole body reacts to those kinds of thoughts. I mean I'm not too sure but they're both centred around me so they feel very personal. But I guess to be more specific they would be pointing to interpretations of experience or discordant ideas. Idk I would say that there's only feeling, but what is felt changes.

The feeling of shame/embarrassment but that'd just be thoughts I guess. Whatever the thoughts "shame & embarrassment" are pointing to, definitely doesn't resonate with my inner being. I sort of view "shame & embarrassment" as descriptions of certain feelings, and those particular feelings feel very discordant.

@Phil No offence taken 🫠, I really want to understand this stuff. Is it enough to just 'be' with the feeling of embarrassment and shame without inwardly acknowledging that it is specifically shame and embarrassment that is felt? Maybe what I'm getting at is why is it important to acknowledge the specific emotion as opposed to simply just be with the feeling. If shame shows up, and I acknowledge it, what then does it mean to receive the guidance? Like, if I'm at work and I start experience triggering, and I recognise that what I'm feeling is Insecurity (and I just feel and 'be' with the Insecurity), is that enough? I hope I'm being clear enough.