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@Phil That helps to clarify things for me, thank you. This is pretty much how I've been meditating the past few days and it feels more natural and light to me than following a formulaic technique. Especially framing meditation as relaxation and an enjoyment as opposed to monitoring experience. Enjoyed the Ballooon analogy btw.

I'm still not entirely sure why those emotions came up. Is it simply because beliefs don't resonate? I might be way off idk.

I'm not certain what I really am. I don't understand how it fully feels like there's a me, but when I attempt to point to that me, I'm not sure that anything I point to is me.

I can't point to any location and honestly say that there's an "I" there. But it felt like I undertook the exercise. Bit of frustration. That kinda hit me in the feels.

I'm in complete agreement with this. I start work at 7am and most times I've woken up early to sit, I would just get extremely tired and eventually just give in and go back to sleep. But I definitely notice a difference meditating in the morning as opposed to meditating after work.

Glad I'm not the only one 😅 🙏 Thank you for your reply.

@ConsciousDreamer666 Awesome, thanks.

@ConsciousDreamer666 I'll have a look at some yoga, do you have any YouTube channel recommendations?

@Mandy Really appreciate your replies. Thank you

I feel like I can understand this on a conceptual level but it's not a lived understanding.

@ConsciousDreamer666 Definitely feel like I'm more meditative some sits over others. Sometimes when I sit it definitely doesn't feel "meditative". But some people say that the only bad sit is the one you didn't do. How can you tell if you're actually meditating or not?

@Mandy When I was sitting earlier, occasionally something like an unknown sort of sadness would come up, or other times a feeling like there's a pit in the stomach area. Nothing bad, just noticed while I was sitting. I didn't notice any direct thoughts that could have been associated with the sudden sadness. What would be the approach here? To just feel the sadness bubble up and pass?

@Mandy So so clear. 🫶 I didn't realise that I was constantly believing that meditation is a chore, I also didn't know that feeling guidance was so precise. So this whole time I was believing that meditation is difficult and a struggle, but actually, that was the feeling guidance letting me know that the thought that "meditation is a struggle" does NOT resonate. I was overlooking the feeling guidance in favour of believing the thoughts, all while assuming that the feeling guidance was proof that the thought was true? This confuses me a little bit. I think I'm missing the pointer.

@Orb Appreciate ya! 🙏10 mins into the 20 minute sit I decided to sit for an hour instead.

@Orb Read your post, I'm going to take your advice and go and meditate now for 20 minutes. 👊

Just wanted to see if anyone had any perspectives on this: I know that meditation is the way. I know I'll inevitably feel better if I meditate everyday. Basically, I'm struggling with actually sitting down and meditating everyday. Not too sure why, but it doesn't feel good and it feels like this resistance that needs to be washed away. Its ironic that I've completed a 10 day retreat yet sometimes I can't sit for 2 minutes. ---------‐-------‐------------------------ Has anyone experienced anything similar? How do you turn meditation into a joyous "activity"

Red Dog (2011)

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Been Loving this recently.

It's amazing because I actually spoke about repressing anger as a child to the Reiki master before the session and also a tendency to sometimes get lost in anger when it comes up or experiencing irrational anger on the roads driving when someone cuts in front of me for example. I think I was fixated on seeing auras because I believe that I attributed it to spiritual growth or some sort of attainment.

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Yeah I was catching myself trying to feel something. So accustomed to trying to alter 'now'. Maybe auras are overrated. 😎

Mmm, I can appreciate the subtlety of it. I can view it as a teaching in letting go of expectations and striving.

Been a while but just had my first session a couple of hours ago. Honestly, didn't feel to much "energy" during the session. But I felt extremely relaxed and light immediately after. Part of me was hoping to come out of it being able to see auras everywhere 😅. The guy that did the session said there was some sort of misalignment/too much energy in my liver area. Also one side of my hip. Not too sure what to think tbh.