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Thanks. Sorry for not replying earlier.
On 12/11/2023 at 2:47 PM, Phil said:Well don’t. It’s pure joy. 🙂
The guidance might be unworthiness.
The ‘self’ referential thought might be ‘I think I feel’. It’s a very, very sneaky situation.
Yeah I think it was unworthiness felt. There's sometimes thoughts saying people don't actually want to help me and that I want too much attention and help.
"I think I feel" - sneaky because there's no seperate self and no thinker who feels?
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@Serenity You're doing so good! I want to be this effective too 😂🥲
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16 hours ago, Phil said:
They’re one & the same.
Some thoughts feel discordant, and the discord felt is sometimes believed to have a cause. (A belief).
Emotion refers to how the thought presently feels, and is insightful as to why the thought feels that way. (Guidance).
Insightful as in revealing of the truth or true nature, and in regard to attracting of what’s wanted, or consciously creating. (Alignment).
Sometimes another thought arises as to why an emotion is felt - when emotion is overlooked or suppressed. (Justification)
That thought is often a self referential thought. A thought about a self, which isn’t you. A ‘second self’. (The ‘separate self of thought’).
In this way a deciphering happens, between the conditioned false idea of self, and actual present self. (Awakening).
Withdrawing focus from discordant thoughts & focusing on perception and or sensation is relief from the discord felt of the thought(s). (Self-love).
It’s also ‘mindfulness’ & ‘being present’.
The false self is never present, in accordance with thought, it’s always in or related to a past or future. (Conditioning / The ego).
The true self (not that there are actually two selves) is always present, is presence, and is never in or related to a past or future. (Unconditional).
It’s like the kids that tour the chocolate factory and the expressions of conditioning or ego. Augustus’ is gluttony or greed. Violet’s is comparative thinking, always needing to be better or the best. Veruca’s is entitlement, nothing’s ever enough for her. Mike’s is obsession, at the expense of real life experience. The kids are all portrayed as ignoring the guidance and this leading to their demise.
Except for Charlie. Charlie doesn’t suppress his natural curiosity, honesty or integrity, and very much welcomes and listens to the guidance. When he finds the ticket, rather than keeping it to himself he shares it with his family. When Mr. Slugworth makes him an offer, Charlie returns the Gobstopper to Willy Mother F’ing Wonka. Charlie remains humble throughout the entire movie, and the alignment leads to him to quite literally floating, breaking through a glass ceiling, earning the trust and respect of Willy Mother F’ing Wonka, and inheriting the entire chocolate factory, or as Jesus said ‘the kingdom’.
In letting it go, the lens clears, or is emptied, and insights can then arise in that empty space. This is always the case, as sure as Willy Mother F’ing Wonka could walk just fine and the cane and sluggishness were an act.
To receive the insight or guidence from emotion, is it necessary to acknowledge how emotion feel or do you receive the same kind of emotional insight or guidence when you just focus on perception or sensation?
Thanks for explaining the movie, I've seen both of them but it was many years ago so I barely remember anything of them 😂
I think I feel guilt when you reply much more than I've asked for. I don't want to take your help for granted at all, or even waste your time.
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I have a meeting with my job coach next wednesday and I feel so much worry about what I expect myself to do until then.
I've been encouraged to start study but it's not even possible for me with cognitive issues and not being able to read much. But it's been like that for three years already. I hope it changes sometime.
Through this unemployment program I'm in, they offer to support me with money while I study, for one year.
Education is mostly free where I live and you get supported with a small amount of money while you study but usually it's not enough. In my case they are offering me double that money, which is like $800 every month.
If I would just choose to work now, then I would probably not get that opportunity later when I want to study.
I don't know what I want to study anyways.
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On 12/9/2023 at 6:30 PM, Phil said:
Though it might not ‘click’ quite yet, noticing self referential thoughts is the same as acknowledging emotions experienced. Both approaches or framings are one & the same; holding conditions, or letting conditions go. It’s most worthwhile and a lot like the fate of Augustus, Violet, Veruca & Mike as compared to Charlie, floating, breaking through the ‘glass ceiling’ & receiving the entire factory.
Is noticing a thought or focusing on perception just as effective in letting go as noticing an emotion?
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What is it that you don't like about the people in Canada? Where in Europe does the guy live?
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On 12/4/2023 at 8:27 PM, Phil said:
The references to sleep are…
My sleep.
Lack of sleep.
I wanted to sleep.
I go to sleep.
I’m not able to sleep.
I don’t get much sleep.
I crave sleeping.
I fall asleep.
I didn’t sleep.
In noting there is no actual experience of sleep…
Can it also be noticed there is no actual experience of the one to whom sleep belongs (my sleep)…
The one who knows there is a ‘lack of sleep’.
The one who ‘wants sleep’.
The one who ‘goes to’, ‘sleep’.
The one who is not able to sleep.
The one who doesn’t get much sleep.
The one who craves sleeping.
The one who falls alseep.
The one who didn’t sleep.
These are thoughts (about another self, and about sleep) - yes?
Is that one present now, in accordance with direct experience?
Can that one be pointed to?
What if it is these thoughts which feel off, feel discordant?
And emotions are felt?
And guidance is felt?
About these thoughts, about sleep, and a second self…?
For example….
The thought / belief in lack feels off… because in truth I am abundance.
Yes it makes sense that it's just the thoughts about sleep that feel off.
I feel maybe worry or overwhelment thinking I have a lot to do and that it's too much to sit down and try to point to a seperate self, so I haven't tried that.
I have slept two nights this week without interrupting it. I didn't even go to the toilet for bladder issues at night, I felt like I needed to pee in the morning but I was able to fall asleep again. I think I slept almost 9 hours but I felt like I could've slept one extra hour because I felt so tired when waking up.
I also don't feel as much pain in my ears during night and I don't cough as much.
On 12/4/2023 at 9:44 PM, Phil said:A fever is the body’s naturally empowering response in terms of immunity.
What works for the body in terms of immunity doesn’t necessarily work for the lens.
Ideally, the lens & body are aligned, on the same page.
In reading between the lines, more empowerment is whats really wanted.
Not sleep issues, tension and resentment.
But empowerment can’t be got. It’s not at a store to be bought. No person can give it to you.
Empowerment is not a thing, and therefore can’t be lacking in any way.
Empowerment is an emotion.
It’s higher on the scale than contentment.
Contentment is the natural ‘result’ of unfettering, of expressing all of the emotion below, contentment.
Empowerment have been on my dream board for a while.
On 12/4/2023 at 9:44 PM, Phil said:Well happy “birthday”! 🙂
Thanks 🙂
On 12/4/2023 at 9:44 PM, Phil said:But is holding that resentment and or being right worth the sleep issues, anxiety and tension?
Is it beginning to be seen how you’re creating these?
I thought worry and fear impacted sleep, anxiety and tension the most, not anger etc.
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I've had a high-grade fever and fatigue since friday, today I feel a bit better but I've felt tired. Third time I've had a fever in a month. I've been coughing until I vomit this morning. 😂
I met a doctor today and he prescribed me a cough medicine which is the same one that my dad have given me at home, that didn't even work, the doctor still gave it as it's the only one for this kind of cough apparently.
I'm struggling a lot with anger, irritation and revenge about my parents. We have had so many small unnecessary conflicts this weekend.
I have felt like saying the worst things to them. I want them to be wrong and I want to be right.
Before last weekend I think I've been pretty good at acknowledging anger and irritation and I've been sitting in the same room as them more often when I eat and I have felt more ease when talking to them. I think this fever and lack of sleep threw me out of alignment so that's probably what made me more careless and reactive. Same for them it seems because of their fever. Or maybe it's just easy to blame fever and lack of sleep.
I experience so much resistance about letting this go without getting to point out everything they do wrong. Forgiving might make me look as the one who did everything wrong. I hate that it seems like it's just me that have to change who I am and that they get to continue behaving how they want.
I have already said sorry to my mom once for saying shit to her but that didn't really change much.
Tomorrow is my birthday too, wow how well prepared I am with all of this resentment! 😂
I hope I can let go of this before tomorrow because if I hang onto this I might ruin the day for myself. I really just want to feel relaxed and good tomorrow.I think I'm going through the emotional scale before bed.
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On 12/1/2023 at 11:28 PM, Phil said:
Jaw tension is ‘keeping the mouth closed’ when there is resentment held, and anger & revenge unexpressed.
Do you mean express just for myself by journaling or emotional scale, or express it verbally when it's experienced in a conflict with someone else? I believe it's not a good idea to express how I feel to my parents specifically.
On 12/1/2023 at 11:28 PM, Phil said:Anxiety is the other-than acknowledging emotions (like anger & resentment) & expressing (and releasing tension & conditioning therein).
Resentment is not an emotion right?
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On 12/1/2023 at 11:28 PM, Phil said:
In all honesty, have you ever actually experienced sleep?
If not, maybe it’s something else.
No. What comes to mind is that falling asleep maybe is like a surrender to your true nature?
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I didn't sleep much last night. Woke up late and the cough is worse again and I feel like I have a cold.
I feel so frustrated about how tense I am during and after meditation. I do concentration for 15 min and then 35 min body scan. I feel most tense by the eyes, jaw, shoulders (the left one is most tense), belly and pelvic muscle. 🤷♀️ it only relaxes for a short time and then they are tense again.
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34 minutes ago, Devin said:
Milk and processed food does most of that to me almost predictably.
I think that's common. Milk is food for babies 😉
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On 11/28/2023 at 8:19 PM, Kevin said:
I personally feel better on a high protein and high fat diet.
My mom is completely vegan though and I was as well when I was a kid so I have some experience with the diet.normally I say follow what feels good and if you work out eat lots of protein. However with vegan diets there are certain things to be aware of. There are a bunch of nutrients you can’t get unless you eat animal products.
If you stay vegan long term, look into creatine supplementation. Creatine supplementation in vegetarians improved cognitive performance and it’s good for building muscle. Also be careful about low iron levels. That’s very common in vegans. My mom is anemic. There is iron in some vegan foods but it’s far less bio available than heme iron which is found in meat. So if you stay vegan definitely look into iron supplements.
I didn't know about creatine.
It seems more natural to me to just eat meat if the body truly needs creatine and if that's the only natural source of it.
On 11/28/2023 at 8:19 PM, Kevin said:Also be careful about low iron levels. That’s very common in vegans. My mom is anemic. There is iron in some vegan foods but it’s far less bio available than heme iron which is found in meat. So if you stay vegan definitely look into iron supplements.
I think one needs to consult with a doctor before taking iron because it's not good to supplement too much of it either.
On 11/28/2023 at 8:19 PM, Kevin said:not surprising about the oats. Apparently oats have a compound in them that blocks the absorption of certain nutrients which can lead to deficiency.
https://www.marksdailyapple.com/are-oats-healthy/
Also oats often have traces of glyphosate which is a toxic weed killer.
I think that's what they call an anti-nutrient. I usually soak gluten-free grains, legumes and nuts over night and wash them off. If I remember it right that helps to remove the anti-nutrients, makes them easier to digest and helps the absorption of all the nutrients. I haven't tried that with oats but it might work.
On 11/28/2023 at 8:19 PM, Kevin said:if you don’t mind me asking, what issues are you trying to fix with your diet?
Being constantly bloated (looks like the early stages of pregnancy 🥲), constipation, gas, nausea, pain and emotional discord.
Most of it, if not all of it, is emotional suppression I think. So far a vegan gluten free diet with no oil, eggs, dairy or soy have felt best but I just want to feel more free to eat what I want.
It also feels like I'm creating unnecessary stress when I think about how I can't eat what I want and how I expect myself to feel a certain way if I eat things I believe I don't tolerate. I experience worry by writing about a diagnosis too, like it makes me keep believing in it by focusing on it.
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On 11/28/2023 at 7:13 PM, Phil said:
What a great question. It brought to mind the interesting factoid of the definition of vitamin. A vitamin is an organic compound that is essential to the body, yet which the body doesn’t produce or doesn’t produce enough of. That points to a oneness, a symbiosis, of the body and food. In that same manor, imo, it’s not an either how it feels or what research suggests kind of answer. It’s more of a ‘both’ are actually one and the same, a symbiosis. Allow both to inform you of what is and isn’t aligned, keeping in mind that some aspects are generally the same for all bodies and some aspects are unique, and there is a process of trial & error when it comes to fine tuning.
That resonates. 🙂
I've read that it's important to get complete protein with all the essential amino acids. I guess that's one example of where maybe it's good to listen to what research says.
On 11/28/2023 at 7:13 PM, Phil said:I landed on this shake and whole foods many years ago after much ‘trial & error’. When I’ve deviated, in terms of how it feels and what research suggests, I’ve always went back to this. Not to mention I find it delicious and more satisfying than anything else. In addition to being packed with all the legumes & ‘healthy stuff I should eat’, it’s cheaper, easier and quicker to make, which is where the name comes from. It may or may not resonate as much with you but I’d give it a try.
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On 11/28/2023 at 7:11 PM, Mandy said:
In this case an identity based on right and wrong and having the "best knowledge or plan" over others.
I don't attempt to do low protein or high carb, I do limit refined carbs and refined fats, and focus instead on fruits and veggies.
I'm just trying to find what works for me, I just don't want to restrict my diet more than necessary.
I stumbled over a youtube channel a while ago called Gut Feelings, a naturopath that is influenced by medical medium. She said that protein and fat are harder to digest than carbs, so she recommended to not eat too much of protein rich foods in one meal. So that's why I tried it.
It might just seem like "low protein" to me because I compare it to when I ate high protein and low carb.
I ate chocolate pancakes made from eggs, buckwheat with blueberries & honey on top today. Ugh. I used to eat a lot of it before I stopped with eggs. This time it was more obvious to me that it felt off, like a heavy tiredness. Probably the eggs.
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I feel so much discouragement about how I never get my sleep right. I try to wake up earlier and go to sleep early but there's always something disturbing my sleep.
This month I think I've had some kind of virus and not been able to sleep because of cough. I've taken oregano oil now for a few days and it has helped but I still cough a bit at night.I also get obsessively focused on swallowing because it seems like I have too much saliva, but I only get disturbed and focused on it during night and when meditating, right when I don't want to be focused on it. This didn't appear with the cough, I've felt disturbed by it for some time and it seems to come from anxiety.
I've been waking up by noon many days. I have an alarm in the morning and I'm trying to get up earlier and get up even if I don't get much sleep, but I feel more anxious when I do that everyday. I think I'm sensitive to sleep disturbances due to imbalance in adrenal glands.
I really crave sleeping as long as I want, but I also want to fall asleep latest at 10pm and wake up early, that's when I feel the best.
I feel some worry about talking to my jobcoach tomorrow to follow up. I haven't been applying for jobs this month yet. I've only looked a bit on new places to live but haven't even decided where to go. So I don't know where to send applications. I just want to be honest with her but I feel so much guilt about letting her know I haven't moved forward or done anything productive since last time. It's kind of important to do what they say to get the money too.
I really want to talk to someone about how I feel that I can be honest with, I've been so isolated.
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9 minutes ago, Devin said:
You can live off of just purely potatoes, you get everything you need from them. You can also go without eating anything for a month. Many people have done both of these.
I was thinking more about if it could affect your health negatively if eating low protein and low fat for many years.
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18 hours ago, Mandy said:
@noomii The reason I recommended that book and specifically not the lifestyle is because it's a cleanse that you can do, and then go back to how you ate before, but with more awareness of how certain foods affect you. You may keep some foods out and some of that you tried in. In my experience it gives many of the benefits of fasting while still offering even more nutrients and vitamins that a normal diet. It also tends to blow a lot of "I can't eat that and feel ok" hang ups when it comes to extremely healthy foods out of the water.
What do you mean by lifestyle and why not?
I haven't looked at what's eaten during the cleanse so I'm not trying to eat like that. Just the things you recommended, then I tried out less protein and focused more on the carbs to see how it felt.
18 hours ago, Mandy said:If oats are bothering you, are you eating the gluten free ones? High amounts of even the GF ones can be hard to digest. I don't do well with the ones that aren't GF at all. If they bother you, there's no need to make them work, they are just a good inexpensive, easy food, low problematic grain if you still want to do grains.
I eat gluten free oats. They seem to feel the same as the ones with gluten for me, not sure though.
18 hours ago, Mandy said:Notice how the interpretations feel. Science hasn't made up it's mind on any it because science doesn't have a mind. Because of the social media influencer thing, extreme diets and overconfident gurus are the thing. It makes it more confusing if you try to find one that's right in the exclusion of others. I found the high protein high fat ones first, they seem to be the loudest. That's when I started having issues with all kinds of foods. For me the medical medium cleanse and changes I made after are what really helped, I did other things as well. By doing the cleanse i noticed that a lot of simple things were off, too little water, too much salt, too little fresh produce. I really don't think the anti fruit rhetoric helped anyone. 😬It's almost like we had a rebellious phase of the 90's low fat dogma.
Well I ate Paleo diet before, and that felt better for me after feeling bad on a vegan diet for years, but when I was vegan at that time I ate some gluten, sugar, soy and didn't have much food that I tolerated.
I started eating less meat not long ago just because I don't feel good about the thought of killing animals.18 hours ago, Mandy said:Try to let go of the right/wrong and let your own intuition take the reins. Medical Medium tries to own, package and sell that seems more and more so as time goes on. I think he got it right a lot, and I'm glad for the
guidance that came when it did. I bought the book, didn't resonate with it or the tone at all, then was getting rid of books and intuitively kept it. Vibration moved up instead of lowered. Didn't know why. Then the time was right, and when I asked it was right there on the shelf. You will be intuitively called to what's right for you when it's right in the same way. It doesn't mean any book and any ONE is right or wrong.
I'm just confused about what to do if the candida symptoms come back again. I guess I could just go back to how I eat right now if that happens, but if it comes back easily then I don't think it was healed.
I just want to resolve it once and for all. Especially for social events and holidays I just really want to be free of the symptoms of pain and emotional discord when eating.I don't really understand how to resolve the root cause when the candida was triggered by a medical supplement that I don't even take anymore.
Also I read from Louise Hay:
"Candida: Feeling very scattered. Lots of frustration and anger. Demanding and untrusting in relationships. Great takers."
I don't think of myself as demanding or untrusting but I don't know, maybe others think so.18 hours ago, Mandy said:Try to let go of the right/wrong and let your own intuition take the reins. Medical Medium tries to own, package and sell that seems more and more so as time goes on. I think he got it right a lot, and I'm glad for the guidance that came when it did. I bought the book, didn't resonate with it or the tone at all, then was getting rid of books and intuitively kept it. Vibration moved up instead of lowered. Didn't know why. Then the time was right, and when I asked it was right there on the shelf. You will be intuitively called to what's right for you when it's right in the same way. It doesn't mean any book and any ONE is right or wrong.
There's a lot Medical Medium says that I don't resonate with either, especially not from hearing about how many people that have had a bad experience from the heavy metal detox, but I'm still open to try the other stuff some time. -
I've started to eat a vegan diet with lower protein & low fat for healing digestion.
I've mostly been eating veggies, fruits and some oats and buckwheat the past week.
I can finally eat fruit again. I've been able to eat pears, apples, blueberries and pineapple. Bananas and dates have felt bad. Apples and blueberries felt off the first days but today it felt ok, it might have been because I still ate some oil the first days.
I don't feel well when eating oats.To my surprise I felt ok with potatoes, I haven't eaten that in a few years.
I've not been eating any legumes or protein rich foods the past week either. But I think I will add some legumes I tolerate now because I feel kind of weak as I've eaten very light.
I don't really have a big appetite either and I eat twice a day but it's been like that for a long time.
I'm confused about how all of this goes against everything that I've been told about how I need a lot of protein (and the right kind of protein) and healthy fats.
Is it wise to simply eat whatever feels good and let go of any kind of beliefs about diet? Or is it also important to listen to science and what's "right" to do?
I don't feel like eating like this long-term, I want to feel free to eat whatever I want that feels good without following any kind of rules. Not sure how long I need to eat like this, as I still have a lot of issues.I don't want to be super skinny either, I want to be fit and I believe I need more protein for that.
@Mandy I actually sent back the Medical Medium book because I felt worry about the costs of all of it. I thought I should be able to heal without that cleanse, just by resolving the root cause.
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12 hours ago, Mandy said:
@noomii No, thanks for sharing though! I usually get no more than 20 minutes before the kids have to get ready for school and if I do have time I'm usually just done after that so I usually shy away from the longer timed workout channels. 😂 I should try to fit in some longer workouts and see how I do though. I'll try one of her's soon, thanks!
This is a playlist with her shorter ones
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21 hours ago, Mandy said:
I don't usually does sauces because mostly it's extra effort and most sauces are full of oils and salts anyway, I usually steam stuff or do soups when I go without oil, or I put lemon juice on stuff.
Ok! 🙂
Have you tried growingannanas before?
https://youtube.com/@growingannanas?si=GTsDipfkUhCVzvkb
I do most of my indoor workouts with her.
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5 hours ago, Phil said:
That’s great to hear. When I was a kid a doctor told me & my mom that my body wasn’t producing pericardial effusion. After doing some tests the doctor later told us my life expectancy was around 1/4 of the average. I’ve also had cancer and ‘beat it’ twice. I’ve learned to listen to the diagnosis, yet never the prognosis. I’ve also found Louise Hay, The Roby chart and Reiki to be worthwhile. I’m not a very ‘learn to live with it’ kinda guy apparently.
That's incredible 🤍
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14 hours ago, Mandy said:
Definitely don't feel like eating weird or excessive stuff cause I'll have to record it. 😂
I thought about making a food journal before you posted this too, but I want to keep eating weird meals and excessive amounts of one thing 😂
When & if you eat no oil, do you make any sauce for dry food?
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On 11/4/2023 at 1:10 PM, Phil said:
Doctors do. If it’s a bodily issue allow the help of a doctor. As to changing the orientation, turning it all around, it’s a matter of no longer overlooking the truth.
I talked to a nurse but I didn't get to see a doctor for adrenal glands and medication.
She just said that adrenal glands are not impacted by burnout and that I can have cognitive impairment and other symptoms from burnout for the rest of my life. That I just have to learn to live with it.
I didn't respond to her even though I thought she was wrong.
A few years ago I talked to another nurse at the same place about IBS and she said that there's no cure and that you have to live with it for the rest of your life.
Around the same time I talked to two different doctors about SIBO and they didn't even know what it was (after that I got a SIBO diagnosis from the private clinic).
On the bright side, I got an appointment to their new psychologist in January.
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I remember dreaming last night that someone or something slit my throat open, so that what was inside started coming out and I tried to hold it back with my hand and asked for help from the people I was with, but I don't think I got a response.
Seemed real and it felt very weird with the throat's insides coming out and I felt worry. I have a vague memory that I was physically hurt or sick in some other way too and that I was with a doctor.
The throat is probably related to a recent situation with my parents where I felt irritation or anger.