Reena

How would you describe your perfect productive day? I'm yet to come up with my own.

What would a perfect day look like to me? exercising committing to a goal taking baby steps towards a major goal?

What will i classify as random anxiety?

If you have a scatter brain it's tough to create a proper to do list. But anyway. I struggle with productivity.

Things to do.

Did you have a productive day? Answer - yes

Positive affirmations. I'm blessed My life is blessed

Thought is a representation of your cognition.

I was watching this video of a rose in the rains. And I thought to myself -Am I not the rose I'm watching? I sure am. When you realise that you're one with creation, you are the rose you're looking at, you're that purity, that presence, your true nature like the rose is natural, organic, pure. It is your essence. Your essence is pure and still like the rose. It is full of rapture. It is in the moment. It's neither created nor destroyed. It has forever stayed the same throughout eternity, this is when you realize your true nature - stillness.

He punished and demolished the wave. Balls of granite!

Ironically we will suffer even if we are on a spiritual path. Spirituality is not a one size fits all solution to suffering. On the contrary spirituality might even increase suffering. Spirituality is the disintegration of the illusion of self. It's breaking through it and realizing that your true nature is as beautiful and as pure as water. It's crystal clear, sublime and pure. It's pure consciousness. It's happening in real time. Everything is happening in real time. Right now whatever happens to you is happening in consciousness. And consciousness is unperturbed. The only one who is perturbed is you and your false sense of self that is the ego. Your true sense is one with the Source. Is one with the Spirit. There's only one spirit. This spirit is rapture. Your spirit is rapture. Your consciousness is unaffected, unimpacted. You not realizing this is living in illusion. You realizing this is awakening. Awakening is never ending. Awakening is simply awakening to your true nature, pure consciousness. When you realize this, absolutely everything turns to dust and the only thing that matters is the continuation of the soul into the afterlife and communion with one spirit. Satiety. Spiritual satiety. You're satiated spiritually. You'll suffer but you'll also be liberated in knowing that all suffering is impermanent.

Ironically we will suffer even if we are on a spiritual path. Spirituality is not a one size fits all solution to suffering. On the contrary spirituality might even increase suffering. Spirituality is the disintegration of the illusion of self. It's breaking through it and realizing that your true nature is as beautiful and as pure as water. It's crystal clear, sublime and pure. It's pure consciousness. It's happening in real time. Everything is happening in real time. Right now whatever happens to you is happening in consciousness. And consciousness is unperturbed. The only one who is perturbed is you and your false sense of self that is the ego. Your true sense is one with the Source. Is one with the Spirit. There's only one spirit. This spirit is rapture. Your spirit is rapture. Your consciousness is unaffected, unimpacted. You not realizing this is living in illusion. You realizing this is awakening. Awakening is never ending. Awakening is simply awakening to your true nature, pure consciousness. When you realize this, absolutely everything turns to dust and the only thing that matters is the continuation of the soul into the afterlife and communion with one spirit. Satiety. Spiritual satiety. You're satiated spiritually. You'll suffer but you'll also be liberated in knowing that all suffering is impermanent.

Throughout our lives we're besotted by spiritual questions that intrigue our minds. Some of these questions are of an existential nature. The same old questions though. Why do we live? What's the after life like? What's the purpose of life? What is God? Does God exist? Why do good and evil exist? These questions have existed since millenia.

Positive affirmations about my life I'm flourishing I'm thriving I'm doing better My life is going great My life is happy My life is enriched. My life is beautiful My life is deeply spiritual My life is intuitively developing and thriving My life is energy supported My life has divine force My life is colorful and creative, holistic and organic My life is hot and happening My life is full of life.

Our greatest wealth is our spiritual wealth. Whatever spiritual abilities, intentions, resources and treasures we bring with us are the only ones that will accompany us in the afterlife. Along with the lives of our precious pets and other sentient beings that connect to the same spiritual source through us. We are the conduit of spiritual energy collectively.

Today is a good day and whatever was bothering me has gone away. I prayed for things to be better.

Positive Affirmations for May 2,2024. I'm whole. I'm integrous. I'm beautiful. I'm unique. I'm mystical I'm deeply spiritual I'm intuitive I am extremely hard working I am extremely passionate I'm creative I am loving I'm caring I'm subtle I am swift I'm virtuous I'm honest I'm sincere I'm truthful I'm loyal I'm healthy I'm whole

I never wanted to be known. I simply wanted to feel like I was in the right place, doing the right thing, feeling like I belonged where I was. Even that, as simple as it sounds, will put you in a mindset of searching and trying to make puzzle pieces fit that you know good and damn well don't. Being nobody and being alone suits me more than anything ever has. I'm reclusive but not socially inept although I'm autistic. I can function in society just fine but prefer solitude. People fight so hard to be a part of something and have notoriety, even if it's just in a group of friends. I don't like keeping appearances and maintaining a social image. For me spirituality is synonymous with being entirely authentic in your being. When I think of gatherings I get physically nauseated. I can't tolerate the false niceties and inquiries into what I have been up to. I understand that comes off as anti social. Really though it's a matter of I'm in a different place, waking up to the truth of reality and self. In that process I've come to the understanding that I have no desire to be anything to anyone. Right now I'm more excited about understanding the knowledge. I've been given through epiphanies, revelations and "a he's. " I barely recognize who I am anymore. Everyday is an adventure in trying to be loving to myself. Mostly it's a battle to stop being hateful to myself. Mind numbing grief, depression and anxiety is a hole that keeps digging itself deeper. When I woke up, I was in terror and dread, fight or flight 24/7 for more than a month . While there are still some really bad days I've never been more okay with myself, my family, my life and the truth of it all. When you finally understand who you are, what you are, why you're here and what this place is, life becomes a different concept, I don't mean when you hear about it, and it sounds like it might be right. I mean you have a knowing. You're hit with such profound truth, that acceptance makes you decide to enjoy your experience on this planet. The only goal I have now is to cultivate my self to the level of my being. I think the truest way to serve is to know thyself and hone the light, so that others might see it and know their own light as well. The personality is there to interact with the world, the spirit is there to experience the world, the body is there to move through this world. I've been allowed the realization that the only thing we get to take with us when we go home is the experience we had and the knowledge we acquired. Experience and knowledge yes. The beauty of the earth is mind boggling.

Being somebody means having tons of burdens, worries, fears and expectations. On the other hand being nobody means belonging to everybody yet free from these personality burdens. I love being a nobody. Having a healthy small ego is so much better than a huge toxic ego. There's a certain wisdom in being a nobody.

I just have to open my eyes to these unusual experiences.. Everything is alright. Everything is fine. It might not look hopeful in the moment. But there is connection. There's life out there. There's a source of goodness somewhere out there that will heal everything.

I believe there's a God in everything.

What's understandable and what's not. It's strange and weird and my autism makes everything weirder. Why is my life so complicated? Why can't others see through those complications? Why am i so difficult to read?

Its hard and i wonder if the next few hours would be okay or safe for me.

I have to be patient with myself.

I can feel anxious and pretty disoriented and out of touch with everything from time to time. No nightmares yesterday.