ConsciousDreamer666

So is all Being but illusory separate self is created because of thoughts? What about the thought 'But I have thoughts because I have a brain and that is the proof I am an intelligent human'? 😅

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@Phil So let me ask you a question. If im at my homes terrace and im listening to the sounds of the waves of the sea. And then there´s maybe a guy out there in the beach walking his dog. If I inspect the sounds of the waves of the sea where are they happening, maybe they are not happening in my brain, but actually literally the waves are consciousness and they do that sound, which is also consciousness. So the guy at the beach is experiencing the same consciousness as me, so you could say we are experiencing the same thing. But consciousness is not experienced, is me. So we could say, me and the guy on the beach are being the big sphere. How´s that? Does that make sense or no way?

because it puts you in the actuality of reality?

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@Blessed2 In the metaphor of the spheres, the big sphere is awareness, and the small sphere is created via thoughts?

humm.... Right. Like they appear to make the discordant belief true. When I feel it again what am I supposed to do exactly? Focus on the thoughts I am experiencing in that moment? 🙂 Uhm. That make sense. I lack the ability to truly see what exact belief I experienc though. For any reason I just start feeling attacked/ridiculed deeply. So one of the ways truth got veiled was because of not-so-good beliefs about 'oneself'? 🤯 @Phil

Ok I get you. But how do you explain that 98% of time talking to people yesterday was very good yet in some moments I felt that negative energy? You say that I am projecting that, right? If I am understanding you correctly. So you are saying my perception is wrong? (not saying this in a bad way, im open to all possibilities, im aware of the possibility of projection). But if someone hits me physically I would say is a negative act from the other person. In the same way, when people talk with a certain tone, I don´t see it necessarily as a projection to sense that they are using an 'agressive' tone in order to cause harm. Like, I get you that Is my responsibility and blaming others maybe is not how things will solved, but what is the way? Literally yesterday after this two people said to me that I spent the next 15-20 minutes with my body trembling, like literally a real physical sensation. How come the rest of the time during the hiking trip my body feel very good yet in that conversation after that precise moment my body started trembling? What happened there? @Phil

It is. Whole of Reality is Empty Boundless Nothing. Is exactly like AIR or SPACE. This AIR is unlimited so it imagines an infinite dream. Some AIR gets encapsulated in apparent 'individual Bubbles' that are little specks of imagination of the dream. When AIR becomes aware of its infinite nature and that when it realises that when the thing that is apparently encapsulated dies, the AIR will still be AIR, then Enlightment happens. For the individual thing, or human, Enlightment means TOTAL DEATH. For the AIR, everything stays the same, except that the AIR will have freedom because it will be able to not identify itself with the thing that is 'apparently' encapsulated. Since Enlightment happens, ego is obliged to surrender to the TRUTH 24/7. To leave the AIR enjoy Truth. hahah

Not sure I understand what you mean . What you mean with listening and believing a teachers teachings? @Phil Yup. Pretty nasty what some people do. But hey, it's their karma. They won´t be getting liberation in that lifetime im sure.

Why some people that apparently everything IS going well and cool suddenly throw energetic arrows of negativity? Is It because of Envy? Literally this is all that has happened in my Life. I was always a being vibrating quite high close to the frecuencies of Love, Truth, and Light (enlightment), but since most of the rest of the people were vibrating much lower they projected their lack of Love in to me, projecting energies of judgment towards me, if im the "bad one". My mistake was believing that, after that ego developed so called "social anxiety" and so on, but It was actually that i believed their judgements and i did not trust/stablished myself in my own luminary Love. Instead i fell down to their energies. This is what the whole Game is. reality is boundless Love and most beings vibrate in fear and separation, when they see a being like me vibrating very high, they get scared and envious and try to make me fall into their level. Im telling this because yesterday i went on a hiking trip with the psychedelic community of my City. That first morning i had done my yoga kriya process and i had clearly Awaken i am in an Empty boundless Dream that is made of me. When i went to the hiking trip this was being the best days of my Life, talking to everybody and connection deeply, being in Truth, knowing i am them, 0 traits of separation or so called social anxiety. But when we were at lunch then this two guys (mainly one but then the other one also Jumped with him and joined him), sent me an energetic arrow of violence. I was just telling the group what i eat for breakfast and It seems they felt way too threatned by my purity and consciousness one of them tried to being me down and make me feel shit/embarrased. Quite dissappointing this happens in a psychedelic group, some people not even with psychedelics can let go of the barriers.

What really scares me is that im in Truth 24/7 and i dont know Who you "guys" are ☺️🤣 Actually thanks for replying Consciousness 😃 You dont trick me anymore i know Who "you" "guys" are. 😆

I finished meditation and went to look at some flowers on my garden for 10 minutes straight...I couldn´t fathom how this is possible. What is a flower? Is it consciousness? I was looking at the shining white colour of the petals...this blows my mind...how is it possible that this colour even exist. Is pure white. What is white anyway? What is colour? Lol. Then while touching the flowers I realize also the feeling of touch is also impossible. What is 'touch', what am I touching? Then I realize I am not touching anything. I dont exist. Existence is happening. There is not a self. Even though sometimes it feel really feel like there is a self. How can there not be a self? But honestly if I am honest there is not a self.

Damn, Ok. You are right. By the way I find funny you are talking like this like buying bread. You literally are just saying whole reality is non dual consciousness like is nothing. This is worth opening a champagne bottle uh? 🙏 Ok 😅

@Phil @Jonas Long Are you guys actually Consciousness instead of separate selves? If i Accept Truth i Will have to Live as God for the rest of my Life. It is Life changing. Im not saying is bad though.

Right. oh ok got ya. Then yeah that 'bubble' I can definetely stop using it 👍

Fair enough. Nah maybe this is not a bubble. But it is scary to open myself to the Self and let go. Everything would change. And as an ego I am scared of change and truth. Yes, and that is what I most fear. I don´t see possible to stay in Truth all the time because that means Death. Infinite Solitude. No more illusions, no more fantasies. Just me. It is scary. Although maybe because my ego hasn´t truly surrendered yet.

Right. If I contemplate who I am is nothing, empty, does not exist. I guess for enlightment 'I' have to surrender completely the self. Which is something im having a hard time doing because im scared of how absolute this present moment is. If I dissolve self I merge with everything, therefore im scared of 'death' .

Right. But isn´t that dualistic still? Is the observer GOD? Why GOD is looking through the eyes of a particular character? Yeah, I was thinking exactly that. Maybe I´m still Nothing and there's absolutely no identity now. But that seems solipsistic though, it really feels I need to 'belief' there are other selfs to not feel solipsism. Because if I just look at what's true then there is just being but no other one to share it with.

That makes sense. See this is my reasoning: Before having/being in this body, I was nothing, now I am supposed to be 'this' character? Does not make sense at all. 😆 I watched the video but I don´t get that thing about thoughts having conditions though. Awakening/Enlightment seems impossible tbh...perception seems rock solid...there is a body and thoughts and there are of a certain character. If there are no others selfs, then who are the thoughts that appear in awareness right now? Also, if you don´t exist who am I asking this question? To the screen? This seems fucking solipsistic. I want this twisted game to end lmao. This is getting ridiculous. 😅

are you trying to say 'other' perceptions exist? If perception is empty Being with noself, then other selfs would be me. But how do I even know you even exist if I just empty my mind there is just nothing I can know @Phil as James said not-knowing. How can I know you are real? How do I know im not alone in this empty unknown Being?

so what is current perception? Just Empty Being ?

@Phil The actuality of reality is that there is no Self in perception but rather just Being? Maybe there is no self all of there is Being?

I don´t know who am I talking to or who am I asking. I don´t know what are this objects or other people, I don´t know anything. I am completely lost. I am beginning to question 'I' does not exist. Not only the feeling of 'I', but also the perception. Like this bubble of consciousness is not a bubble of consciousness and is not even mine, or nor do I even exist 'here'. (let alone in the body). This seems like pure magic! What is this!!!??? (And I don´t even know who am I asking 😂💙)

mmm Phil, for having no self you seem to be developing some kind of bias to some people´s around here... Not that I mind because I don´t validate my life experiences to anyone, so I don´t expect your validation of awakening, just so you now. He knows perfectly what I say are just words and he can not know if I am having a dissolving experience or not, but of course since words like that, and he seems have developed a certain angriness or bitterness towards me because I said his method of letting go thoughts does not work for most people, then he nit pick chooses words to try to prove what I am saying does not fit his No Self Meter. Overall this kind of behaviour just let me see that you are not truly selfless state and your mind still develops in discriminations to your favor kind of way , which makes me think you might not be awake NOW as a permanent way of living. If he truly would be in non boundary state he would have love for me because he would be conscious I am him, and then he would not reply to with bitterness/envy, etc...trying to put down my experience. I hope you do realize that brother. @Phil