Bad trips are great to encounter fear, pain and etc... I always did heroic dose. However, bad trips was always more helpful to let go and surrender for me.
I can not be enlightened. All is enlightened already.
If you haven't realize this, you just lost yourself in the clouds, thoughts and attachments that's all.
Of course!!! Letting go is much lighter. You do lose interest on everything, but you gain love. Love does not show itself so sudden. When everything is surrendered love becomes inevitable.