Really is infinite is an illusion. Infinite or reality is illusion. Deny everything, including yourself. Then get it. Enlightenment is not about learning nor gaining. It is all about loosing everything. You must hit the bottom till there will be no more you. After realization is inevitable.
To experience, satisfaction and LOVE. How beautiful is that smelling the flower, waking up with the love ones, eating dinner, getting tired and sleeping etc... you are in heaven now, enjoy it.
Isn't is crazy that just so called thoughts creates entire illusion and enlightenment is just that what we already are? It is like cat is running behind its own tail. Meanwhile, it was the cat already.