Orb Posted May 1, 2022 Share Posted May 1, 2022 (edited) Been considering this heavily lately. All the stuff I have on my dreamboard is really just to escape how I'm feeling right now, but to actually pursue the things on my dreamboard feels just as awful as the feeling of desperation to escape my current situation. To put it simply, I feel cornered because I'm just not into pursuing "material" things. I have no real things that charge me up, like I don't have anything that I actually want to pursue, otherwise I'd be doing them already. Sure I want sex, money, success, etc. But those desires pale in comparison to just being at peace, I don't wanna meditate for 30 minutes in the morning only to pay bills and work in my office job. Just felt like venting/sharing this here. So right now I'm choosing between sex, money, awesomeness VS. Being a simple monk meditating all day just pouring into my passion for transcendence without dealing with the human bs. Edited May 1, 2022 by Orb Quote Mention "I shall give you what no eye has seen, and what no ear has heard, and what no hand has touched, and what has never entered into the human heart. "-Jesus (Gospel of St. Thomas) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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