Phil Posted November 23, 2023 Share Posted November 23, 2023 @Reena That’s a really great question. Technically, the emotion is already being experienced, already felt. So ‘feeling it fully’ is acknowledging the emotion that is experienced / that it is felt. ’People’ do not want to do this. It’s really the last ‘thing’ they would ever want. A lot of thoughts will come up and be believed, as a distraction. But Being is always up for happiness, freedom, clarity & consciously creating. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 When someone responds with hate, respond with an anthem. When someone responds with a garbage bag, respond with ice cream. Be like Coco Chanel. Always classy. The wicked witch will never get ya. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 I feel overwhelmed by the recent turn of events.. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 The only way to "emotionally" deal with things is to sing like a canary, an anthem and act like an invisible robot. That is to truly not connect. Just be a canary. I have created my own dictionary. Write my own vocabulary. Be a wallflower. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 The trauma mind is different from the normal mind. It processes things differently. What you think as someone simply being disagreeable can appear as threatening to the trauma mind. What you see as someone being woefully atrocious can appear as an immediate danger or source of constant pain to the trauma mind. Just like a normal mind cannot become a trauma mind, a trauma mind cannot become a normal mind. It's too much expectation. The thought can then go in cyclical mode where it appears and reappears even without a trigger as the trigger becomes a staple of the mind once it has been planted in there, so nobody really needs to even bring it up, it comes as a wound over and over like a spasmodic pain in the knee. It just comes up. Also an eye for an eye feels good only in the moment but the fairness is never really felt. The correct weapon to deal with hate is not yet invented because hate can feel like being killed in the middle of war, no remedy invented yet. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 I don't think you have ever connected with anyone deeply. I guess it doesn't matter when life gives you everything or at least the things you want. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 I think there's a specific way to exist online and there's no real way to be online. Like it will always be a classic problem. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 On 11/21/2023 at 6:05 PM, Reena said: Inner Child Crisis. 16 minutes ago, Reena said: The rape dream could also be a mirroring of the oppression I felt in life. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 Normal mind - turn the other cheek. Look for ways to deescalate. Trauma mind - it hurts like a dagger. Not giving back feels like more trauma. Energy block. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 I was intensely suffering from November 8 till November 15. This thing happens on November 18th. And today is Friday, November 24. Wow this is intense. I have been dealing with this since a week. Totally feeling messed up. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 Nobody can deal with toxicity, it's just what it is. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 (edited) Dealing with Hate Dealing with Negativity Dealing with Malice Dealing with Meanness Dealing with Humiliation Edited November 23, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 17 minutes ago, Reena said: Dealing with Hate Dealing with Negativity Dealing with Malice Dealing with Meanness Dealing with Humiliation Especially when you are depressed and down and suffering in some way, any amount of negativity can get to you. All the Meanness gets to me. Makes me upset. Down. Degraded. Impacted. Crushed. Demoralized. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 This is Friday. It's been a week I'm living like shit. It's like all effort goes to the drain. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 (edited) 23 minutes ago, Reena said: Dealing with Hate Dealing with Negativity Dealing with Malice Dealing with Meanness Dealing with Humiliation Also because I'm sensitive to hate and triggering. It can mess with my emotional state. Edited November 23, 2023 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 Like Phil says notice that emotion. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 Home is where the heart is. As I slowly begin to love myself, I will learn to get settled. Once I have a home I will feel better It's not just a visceral physical home but also a mental home. An emotional home. Maybe I never had an "emotional home." Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 This is a good example of emptying oneself psychologically. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 Finally it's time to get myself together. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted November 23, 2023 Author Share Posted November 23, 2023 What did I want to do? What did I want to do? Quickly note it down. Quickly note it down. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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