Blessed2 Posted May 22 Share Posted May 22 It's out of my ability. I don't know how to feel better. I don't know how to reach infinity. I don't know what sensations to focus on, how to listen to emotional guidance, what thoughts to think, how to let go discord, how to succeed in alignment and all this. All effort is unsustainable. All trying in unsustainable. You cannot try, you cannot give effort forever. It's unsustainable. You will get tired, you will burn out. All I can do, all I want to do, is how I am when in deep sleep. Total self-unconsciousness. That's the only sustainable way to spend an eternity. That's the only way I can be without discord. The only way I can be. The only way eternity can be. The only way peace can be. Anything else must be a "failure". Anything else is "off". I can feel it. It must be done to me, for me. I just want to sleep. Yeah I've heard many times how you just gotta give it to God or Source, to let go the wheel and sit on the passenger side. But I don't think that works. I don't think God would do it for me. If I let go the wheel, wouldn't the car just ride off the road and crash. Quote Mention Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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