Reena

@Solipsistic Consciousness I will never go back to Actualized.org. I'm married to this forum and I'll be here. Sometimes people take each other for granted and only miss them when they are gone. I always feel like I am not of much value to people when I'm living and breathing. People usually miss me when I'm dead and suddenly I'm valuable again, it's a strange phenomenon. It reminds me of Kurt Cobain. They're always famous after they're dead and gone. Suddenly everyone misses them. But nobody cared for them when they were screaming in pain. I think this is human nature. We're never satisfied with what we have but we think it's valuable when we lose it. A similar phenomenon happened with all of my exes. I would get messages from them after they had dumped me long ago. They would complain about me incessantly and once I was gone, they would write me how much they miss me. They would want me back. I would suddenly mean something to them. It's almost like - hate me first, love me later. Most of my exes were narcissists using me for whatever needs. I think it's just another plot twist in the narcissist mind game. They first show disdain and contempt for someone who shows them respect and decency. Then they take them for granted, treat them like dirt. When the person is gone, they miss them and want them back because they feel powerless without someone to bash and mistreat. There's a saying - distance makes the heart grow fonder. When I'm away from people, they like me a little more. When I'm closer to people, I'm a nobody. This post reminded me of — Distant telephone calls from people who want me back. I hear familiar voices, a crack in my voice, a quiver in my throat. Tears rolling down my cheeks. Why now? I wonder if humans are even ever capable of true love. Or all of it is just narcissistic love. Love of the ego. Love for the ego. Love by the ego. Cherish what you have and value others more than yourself. Don't be so proud, we're just a speck of dust, mere mortals who succumb to lust. Everyone should feel loved. Love does not measure, does not count, doesn't carry standards, doesn't treat one child as a golden child and the other as unwanted. Love is not love when you don't love them for who they are but love them for the purpose they serve. Love does not pawn people as objects of purpose and value, sorry that's elitism. True love is loving weakness and giving to those who need. True love is empathy not adulation.

If you're a truthseeker you would try to know every side of a story. I don't wanna bring the mayhem of Actualized.org into my life again. I was in a paranoid state, my mental anxiety and disorder being triggered and made 100x times worse by Leo Gura. In that chaotic paranoid state I did whatever I did with no logic or reason to it. It's like spray painting my name across every wall in town on a frenzied night. I've done such things before. Where I copied someone's journal title on Actualized and then realized that I'm doing everything because I'm intensely emotionally unstable and that's triggering all sorts of abnormal behaviors. Believe what you want, I have no land to defend. I felt abused by a cult called Actualized. It's not a community, it's an eliminating bootcamp and that environment is not at all suitable for mentally ill people like me. I'm not abused in this place. I'm much happier here. Here I don't feel abnormal anymore. Trying to come to terms with whatever happened on Actualized, I feel like a huge past was sorted out in a way, it was getting overwhelming there. Too much heat. You gotta get out of the kitchen. I have moved on long ago, I will never be there again and that's a firm resolve. All the chaos is left behind. It has to end the way it ended because abusive relationships always end suddenly. It had to be that way, I would have never learned the truth otherwise and a genuine truth seeker has to go through a lot before the truth is learned.. I'm glad everything happened the way it did or else I would have blamed myself forever. Actualized.org was a huge part of my life (that I left behind and found peace in the aftermath and learned certain truths along the way), To those who excessively speculate things, mayhem will always continue so watch out your own backs. The need to blame comes out of the Ego. The need to understand comes out of love. I want to operate through love. \\ I saw the mask fall off and that's the greatest devilry. What Leo engages in is the greatest devilry. To not love like God but to claim that one is God is a scam.. He has gone the deeper end and if you still don't realize that he has gone the deeper end and slowly disintegrating then I don't know how to help. Edited February 4 by Cupcake

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I went through an exact same experience as Proserpina. Another victim of Leo's narcissism and toxicity. I felt exactly the way she wrote - I believe my schizoaffective disorder was hugely triggered by following Leo Gura. I said earlier on actualized.org that Leo Gura sent me to the mental hospital. It was his psychological manipulation, brainwashing, the hypnotism, thinking he was special, the 'one' to help me and then the psychological and verbal abuse, the discard, thrown out like trash at my most vulnerable. When my mother died all the symptoms became much worse and I began hallucinating and everything took on a theme of 'death'. He calls that 'immaturity'. I call it grief and suffering. He uses people's disabilities and weaknesses against them during times when they need love the most. He can't hurt me anymore as I have too many support systems in place and I've experienced it all before. I've ready to accept that I was brainwashed and hypnotised into thinking he and his community were the 'one'. I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to heal.

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So I came across this and I'm glad I came across it. Thanks for checking out this petition. In todays world, we live in a whole new era, the digital era, where boundaries doesn't exist and it's easier than ever, to be influenced by other people online, without knowing their real purpose and intentions of their online presence. I and a lot of other people online, are starting to open our eyes for a massive manipulative cult online, which goes under the name of "Actualized.org" on YouTube and also has a website with the same name. This massive community online, is run by Leo Gura. He started out as a personal development guru, to teach people how to get their basic stuff in order such as finances, confidence, depression, meditation, thinking strategically and how to become a success etc. Slowly over time, Leo Gura has taken Actualized.org to a completely new and dangerous level, with people contemplating and even trying to end their lives, due to the distorted teachings he is teaching. These teachings is very focused upon that nothing is real, no friends, family, pets, buildings, no material objects are real, only consciousness is. More and more people are getting into deep depression, anxiety, despair, solipsism and suicidal states of mind, due to these dangerous teachings from Leo Gura. There is no form of security or precautions to his teachings, it is widely available for all ages online, it doesn't matter if you're 8 years old or 92, everybody has access to these teachings, but they are unfortunately not aligned or proven to be right, by any other source than Leo Gura himself. On his forum Actualized.org or in his YouTube comments, you can often see people trying to give their point of view on his teachings, but Leo always bashes the person asking for advice, with "It's your ego" "You don't understand, it's your ego".. It is always your ego. This entire thing leads to exceptional levels of gaslighting, narcissism and psychopathy. This petition is all about removing Leo Guras presence from the Internet, as we are many people who believe that he is a dangerous man, who is creating a dangerous cult and destroying the psychology and happiness of thousands and maybe even millions of people online. You can find a lot of proof online of people reporting the following symptoms, due to his teachings: * Anxiety (+ Anxiety / Panic attacks) * Depression & Despair * Suicidal states of mind * Solipsism * Deep confusion and mistrust of the world This is not healthy, and this has even been reported by profiles online who are under the age of 13! Let's together end this dark corner of the Internet, which is Actualized.org, run by Leo Gura. This petition will be showcasing how many of us are against the teachings of Actualized.org and will be sent to Google, who is the owner of YouTube. Please sign the petition and share with everybody you know online! I will be doing more research on how to get Actualized.org removed from YouTube, but in the meantime, please sign the petition. Thank you so much for reading this far! Let's create a healthy internet together, with focus on positive mental health 🙂 /// IF YOU ARE FEELING UNSTABLE DUE TO HIS TEACHINGS, PLEASE REACH OUT TO A CERTIFIED PSYCHIATRIST OR ANY OF THE FOLLOWING CONTACTS///

I feel horribly exploited by Leo Gura and I'm not afraid to say it. One day people will visit this page of my journal and realize that I was telling the truth. That Leo engages in deep narcissistic abuse of his followers and much of it goes unnoticed. He will leave a trail of victims. People who will be left suicidal, psychologically damaged and the day he will be totally exposed will be the day people will visit this page to read these words and realize the truth of these words. People will see Leo for who he is. I always trusted him. Until I saw his real face and the mask fell off. That's when I saw Leo Gura without the mask. Leo Gura the fake guru. The man who leeches off vulnerable people. Leo Gura is not a good person. He is manipulative and psychologically abusive. One day he will be paying the price for all the suffering he has caused to people in the name of teachings. I have no empathy for him. Because he is bastardizing spirituality. He is bastardizing God. Actualized.org will go down some day. And it needs to. Leo's ego will be slapped in his own face. He thinks he is winning. He will never win. He is going deeper and deeper into his delusion. He will destroy many people before peace is found. This is how it has always been for narcissistic abusers historically. This is the law of karma. My battle is on. I'm slowly removing the poison from my system My new life begins after forgetting Actualized.org.. It's left behind. All the trauma. The trauma is slowly draining from my body. Without victory there is no survival. Even the forest has eyes.

This is what people say about Leo Gura.

Leo Gura is an arrogant, callous, narcissistic con artist fake guru trolling people into paying him for fake awakening. I pity and feel sorry for people who pay him regularly for his content.. He is purposely outlandish and a cult leader. I'm not the only one observing this. Others are saying the same thing. Much of his early content was just a mashup of all the stuff he had already read in books. Leo has a dark energy and he instills fear in people and exerts control. He is extremely manipulative. You will only see it when you get too close to him and get burned by his negativity.

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Leo is so lacking in integrity that at this point after everything I saw go down, I don't trust anything that comes out of his mouth as truth. It feels like every word out of his mouth is a lie just to maintain his image. Narcissism is self deception and deceiving others. Finally narcissism boils down to lack of integrity because that's the condition it creates. To me he is the most unethical person in the room, preaching others in a hypocritical sense, meanwhile completely ignoring the elephant in the room, his own selfish ego. It's just vapid lack of integrity masked as health of the forum. First he damages his own image and then sits down repairing it. But he can never let go of his addictions and obsessions.. This is his pattern. You'll witness more damage control in the future, obviously none of it aimed at actual inner change,just outer facades as usual. Leo has shown terrible lack of sensitivity, judgement, character, morality, integrity to suffice his own selfish motives. (My final comment on this thread,because I don't have much time) My final judgment on Leo is this - Lack of integrity cannot take you far, it will eventually destroy everything you create like a termite corroding furniture. Everything you see going down was a gradual consequence of your own lack of integrity, your own choices you made. Goodluck. Peace

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True words. The imbalanced Masculine with the Feminine in their shadow and without integration of Marriage (human and Divine) wants to double-down with a manipulative iron fist and control their way through life using concepts (intellect) and force. This creates a hellscape for them and for those they relate to -- It's an inverted vortex. Gaslighting is used to try to control the karmic blowback that happens when you’re unbalanced and where reality is trying to get you to do some self-improvement but you refuse the call of that Hero's Journey. Flying monkeys are enticed by being rewarded with power and egoic perks to keep the inverted vortex in place. Think of it as a smaller system that must maintain its own survival by building up defenses or it will be destroyed by the wider system. Reality is a teacher and will keep knocking you on your forehead and sweeping the floor up from under your feet when you're not learning and growing (and integrating). Those lessons just accumulate and you almost have to dive into a pond to avoid the incoming bees eventually breathing through a straw to survive. But that's hell, that's not a happy life at all. My advice is to stay away from toxic people. If they're like a worm in your mind, you gotta surgically remove that worm. It's just not worth the hell that it brings your life. I like the word "emptying work" for this -- it's letting go. I stopped watching the news or looking at news websites for the exact same reason. It's a hellscape inverted vortex too. Don't let anyone or anything rob you of your heaven and happiness and peace.

I like this post I reject the idea that a loving God would condone or enable child rape. This belief is deeply disturbing and incompatible with my values and personal beliefs. I recognize that I may have previously held notions of God that were not fully understood or verified by me. I take responsibility for not guarding my mental faculties properly and not fully examining my beliefs. I now choose to embrace skepticism and rational empiricism, and return to atheism as my default position - but in a non-dogmatic manner. As an atheist, I can subjectively choose to call child rape as evil, based on my own logical definition and values. This allows me to ascribe meaning to my reality as a humanist without resorting to twisted and illogical notions of love. I recognize that love is a human virtue, and I strive to embody it through expansive, loving and kind thoughts and actions that benefit other humans and animals. Atheism also gives me the freedom to be myself, own my needs and goals, and choose to do good spontaneously. I understand that life is best played in a collaborative, non-zero-sum manner, and I will strive to enrich and empower others through careful logical considerations and my own authentic heartfelt moral compass. Furthermore, I am open to exploring and understanding consciousness through meditation, kriya yoga, and psychedelics, as I believe this will help me to become a more compassionate and empathetic person.

I'm doing fine. I don't have anything to worry. (never bb me with personal stuff) Actualized.org is no more a part of my life. I had a bad experience there and I had planned long ago back in November/December that I would be out of that place some day somehow. Leo had been building too much pressure on me on a personal level. He had threatened to ban me on multiple times. So it was getting a bit not so comfy in that place for a long time. I'm glad that somehow im no longer having to be there. And I'm free. I have zero purpose to answer any questions related to that place since it doesn't exist in my Self-o-phere anymore. I'd like to quote what Proserpina said about that place because that resonates with me as well. So I quote Proserpina - "I've decided to probably stick to using this public journal now. I don't particular enjoy having Leo breathing down my neck, watching my every movement, fearing I'm going to be IP banned any moment like before. It's painful. Atleast here, I can breath easy and express my self in a relatively similar format (with some downsides). It's like I was crucified for jaywalking. I want to express myself freely, I like to write free flowing what he deems 'verbal diarreah'. My disability, what I have had no choice in having had to live with, is called unhinged by him. I already feel infinitely better here. I don't even care if anyone even reads my journal as long as I psychologically know it's public then that makes the difference in how I write and formulate my thoughts. I put more effort into my thoughts and writings. I need a place without Leo breathing down my neck but not a discord. Discord formats don't work for me for some reason. " I couldn't have expressed it better than Proserpina. Yes you can't develop or grow in a place where you feel constant fear running down your neck. It's unhealthy. Period.

I married this forum. Sort of. After being abandoned and treated like trash by another place.

Yea I literally married this forum. Because I had to. Just like arrange marriages in the Middle East. . . . .

It was my job to not let him misuse my trust.

Yup.