ConsciousDreamer666
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This calls are more useful than what you might think if one listens with open heart.
Had a great 'aha' moment when talking to Phil on Saturday call. It really felt like that for the first time I disappeared and only pure Love and Perfection was left.
the moment it killed me was when he said "imagine there is only Love and there Is no self" . 🤨 Something happened there.
yesterday night I looked in the mirror and I couldn't recognise a self. Looked at my hands and I did not know where I was or if 'I' exist. I tried too touch my hands trying to find a self, desperate to exist. But I couldn´t. I might not be real after all. Hahah
'I' might be a construction within the Infinite Oceanic Dream of Love.
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1 hour ago, Phil said:
There isn’t any experience of we act on presumption so that which there isn’t can’t be addressed.
If your experience is that you are acting on presumption that can be addressed.
As always with that twisted curled up language that is great to feel like you are saying something super complex and profound but nobody understand: Great tricks of manipulation.
QuoteNo idea what truth value is or means and how this concept relates to jumping of a balcony.
Is very simple. As I said, if you guys invalidate the question of death by saying is an "assumption", then I am saying, jumping off a balcony is fine because death is 'an assumption'.
So what is it? Is it an assumption or is it more like a fact?
QuoteIf you’re inclined to harm address that directly , maturely & responsibly. Do not entertain or employ spiritual bypassing.
Not at all, I was just using an example to let you see guys how the way you are employing language is not that accurately.
The fact that you know want to gaslight me by saying that is 'spiritual bypassing' is a cheap shot by your part. Gurus love to instantly make the pupil feel inferior or that is not doing things right, the moment the guru is challenged by what is saying.
1 hour ago, Phil said:Where are these notions like “percentage of truth value” and “fighting suffering” even coming from?
Again, making me feel like 'I´m dumb' by saying this things.
1 hour ago, Phil said:Fighting suffering is adding resistance, and is suppressing. That is the nature of suffering, that is not a proper or fruitful way to address suffering.
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1 hour ago, Phil said:How is daily morning meditation & expression such as with a journal going?
Acknowledging emotions?
Is impossible to acknowledge emotions, they can only be utterly destroyed.
1 hour ago, Phil said:What is the difference between thinking about reality and or spirituality, conceptualizing, listening to self proclaimed ‘teachers’….
and implementing these suggestions…? What differences or distinctions come to mind?
Again you are trying to make yourself like you are in a throne of truth and im doing bad things...so tiring. Yeah im so conceptualising dude, ive only done hundreds if not a thousand hours of spiritual practice last 2 years. But you know more than me always. Ok...
1 hour ago, Phil said:Experience fundementally is that of awareness aware of thoughts, perception (seeing & hearing etc), sensation & emotions. ‘Work’ with the simple ordinary elements of direct experience.
None of this is actually transpiring in direct experience, other than as, thoughts. Again, it all seems indicative of conjecture, which is indicative of suppression and twisting, contorting & spiritual bypassing.
QuoteAddress these matters properly.
Another cheap shot.
QuoteAll ‘infinity continues’, ‘infinite numbers’, ‘infinity goes on forever’, ‘infinite infinities’, etc, etc, etc - is utter nonsense.
Lol. And you are a 'Guru' that approaches about love. But again saying that what I write is 'utter nonsense'. Yeah dude, you are so 'above me', and im 'dumb'. Sure, dude. Sure.
QuoteRumination which is discordant, and is suffering and is indicative of suppression & spiritual bypassing.
You love to throw those words always to gaslight the alumni on why they are not 'getting it'. Great manipulation techniques.
QuoteConditioning seems to be very confused & suppressed with spiritual concepts like reincarnation and energetic painful karma.
Sure, because you know all the things on the universe... you say what spiritual concepts and right and what are not...you have a massive ego of knowledge, you feel so above us is concerning what you are doing.
QuoteAgain, it all seems indicative of conjecture, which is indicative of suppression and twisting, contorting & spiritual bypassing.
Is incredible the level of mental manipulation and gaslighting you use. Thank god you showed it to me so clearly and intensely with this last post so I can truly stop coming to this forum for advice.
The moment people ask something that goes against your narrative you harshly gaslight and manipulate with those words as suppression and spiritual bypassing to null the person and make them feel dumb and wrong.
Is not cool what you are doing. But whatever. Keep feeling like you know everything about life and know more than everybody else.
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8 hours ago, Jonas Long said:
Death is never actually directly experienced, just the idea of it. Actually death would require there being something other than the present moment, nothing happens in the past or future.
8 hours ago, Phil said:Time, life, something happening, breath / breathing are presumptions.
Overlooking that it is itself.
You guys are right, but you have to give a break in the sense that we act on presumptions all the time. If a presumption does not have a certain % of truth value attached to it, we just don´t jumping off the balcony? Anyways the belief that I will die or I will hurt my body is a presumption.
Literally the thing that was giving me most peace of mind to fight suffering is the 'fact' that I (as a separate self) will going to die. If you guys rob me of that 'fact' im dont know what im going to do lmao.
As my guru said, if you were inmortal how would I ever get you to meditate. (laughs).
No, but really, I absolutely can open myself to the possibility that infinity continues, other dreams, etc. whatever. But please please at least god end my fantasy of a separate self because 'I' suffer too much with my bs.
One of the last fears I have is that if reincarnation is real I will reincarnate with the same energetic painful karma. Like all my hope is that this life is the last life I experience the karmic suffering, my hope was that when this body-mind dies all this attachments and kind of thoughts are completely done for eternity. That´s why in a sense im doing this work, I don´t want any being or any future-me-reincarnation to experience what I have experienced in sense of suffering this lifetime.
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On 3/27/2024 at 4:06 PM, Phil said:
There is nothing for infinite being to be inside of, and infinite being isn’t a thing (which would be inside of anything).
There’s also no form, and so no restriction, limitation or assertion upon; infinite being.
So (the infinite) One appears as two, making it seem to itself, that it’s a thing (human), inside of some bigger thing (universe).
The inside / outside is the in-breath / out-breath… infinite being making it seem like it’s a thing inside of a bigger thing.
Thus the breath is referred to as “the breath of life”, and ‘used’ for grounding & clearing the mind.
Unless of course thoughts about the breath / breathing are believed, as in, important.
‘Important’ denotes “to me”, which means you’re doing (Being) an amazing job of making it seem like you’re a thing inside of a bigger thing.
Sheer perfection.
When death happens there is no more breath, what happens then? How infinite would be able to experience itself as something finite?
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2 hours ago, Phil said:
For infinite being to seem to experience the world it is being, infinite being must veil itself from the fact that it is being the world.
The lens-sphere is the means of veiling, and therein the means of experiencing the world Being is being.
The lens-sphere is an appearance of Being.
The illusion or ego is that there is someone or something (separate).
Typical Reality Paradigm (conditioning):
There are separate physical selves & things and or events like a couch, seeing, table, chairs, living room, he, and imagining.
Being:
(No paradigm(s))
“Imagining” is on behalf of the separate self of thoughts. Subjective experience / “I’m” or “you’re” imagining “that” / covert “doer doing” / subject-object thought. “Imagining” is really, “knowing” - “I know”… fundemental illusion.
Being overlooks the reality of itself being, via believing the thought, “imagining”.
Im sorry but i dont get It for much as i try 😭
I have more questions but i Will leave them for the zoom meeting so i dont derail more the topic..
Can consciousness be known?
Like lately i spent an freaky amount of time just trying to contemplate what the hell is a sound. Not labeling It as Consciousness, Being or God, but actually what IS the Essence of reality, what IS really a sound, like what the hell is this. Where am i, what IS the phenomena of reality. I can not handle not knowing It, i need to know what IS reality, Directly.
I dont even know if im in a world anymore, or Who the fuck you are lmao. I want just the illusion to completely break, i cant take It anymore, the ignorance.
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38 minutes ago, Phil said:
The actuality of what the thoughts body, brain, proof & intelligent human point to is the world-sphere.
The actuality of the thoughts ‘body’, ‘brain’, ‘proof’ & ‘intelligent human’ is the lens-sphere.
The lens-sphere is the illusion or ego?
Another question- example, if I´m in my couch and I´m seeing a table and 4 chairs, that is supposed to be the world-sphere, which is Being.
So if someone now enters my living room is not that he is imagining the table and 4 chairs, but rather he is also within the world-sphere, or Being.
But I don´t see what is the difference between Being and the typical Physical Reality paradigm.
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15 hours ago, Phil said:
Awesome! One big phat yep to all except that last part, and even at that it may just be a ‘word thing’.
“All” which can be measured or pointed to, including the measuring & pointing is actually the world-sphere.
That which is immeasurable & ineffable is being the lens-sphere, as the means of veiling itself, which makes for ‘an experience of’ the world-sphere Being is being.
Thus, all knowing & understanding, especially of consciousness, is unequivocally on behalf of an illusory separate self of thoughts.
Put another way, consciousness is not All-Knowing… consciousness is infinite.
What’s funny is the dog is pure consciousness, no lens, while of the lens the thought appears “dog”, and then of course “I’m an intelligent human, etc, etc, etc, etc,” 😂
So is all Being but illusory separate self is created because of thoughts?
What about the thought 'But I have thoughts because I have a brain and that is the proof I am an intelligent human'? 😅
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5 hours ago, Phil said:
fucc
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On 3/26/2024 at 2:08 PM, Phil said:
Look around. ‘That’ is the world-sphere.
Notice there is ‘looking around’. That is the lens-sphere.
Where exactly is “a world” or “the world”?
Where exactly is “a looker” or “lookers”?
⚪️+⚪️ = 🔘
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@Phil So let me ask you a question.
If im at my homes terrace and im listening to the sounds of the waves of the sea.
And then there´s maybe a guy out there in the beach walking his dog.
If I inspect the sounds of the waves of the sea where are they happening, maybe they are not happening in my brain, but actually literally the waves are consciousness and they do that sound, which is also consciousness.
So the guy at the beach is experiencing the same consciousness as me, so you could say we are experiencing the same thing.
But consciousness is not experienced, is me. So we could say, me and the guy on the beach are being the big sphere.
How´s that? Does that make sense or no way?
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because it puts you in the actuality of reality?
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drink warm water with honey
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@Blessed2 In the metaphor of the spheres, the big sphere is awareness, and the small sphere is created via thoughts?
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The concepts about energy seem like a mental way of making the discord felt, seem to come from outside yourself.
humm.... Right. Like they appear to make the discordant belief true.
QuoteWhen the emotion felt is acknowledged and allowed to be guidance for thoughts
When I feel it again what am I supposed to do exactly? Focus on the thoughts I am experiencing in that moment?
QuoteA discordant belief and corresponding emotional guidance was experienced.
🙂 Uhm. That make sense.
I lack the ability to truly see what exact belief I experienc though. For any reason I just start feeling attacked/ridiculed deeply.
QuoteThis is good news. When all beliefs are inspected and dispelled, only the Truth can remain, and this is self-realization, liberation, enlightenment.
So one of the ways truth got veiled was because of not-so-good beliefs about 'oneself'? 🤯 @Phil
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19 minutes ago, Phil said:
Conceptualizing / spiritual bypassing. Like there being “toxic” people / people which become enlightened, etc. Conceptualizations like energetic negative arrows are additional concepts. Attempts to make sense of the experience. Additional as in aversion, like the originally conceptualizations / bypassing. Another example is the concept emotional intelligence comes from experience. The examples are too many to list. It’s really beliefs being triggered and likely emotionally infused.
8 minutes ago, Phil said:Doing the same thing.
Introspection is ‘the other way’ which dispels beliefs and break cycles & the ‘triggering’ of beliefs therein.
Ok I get you. But how do you explain that 98% of time talking to people yesterday was very good yet in some moments I felt that negative energy?
You say that I am projecting that, right? If I am understanding you correctly.
So you are saying my perception is wrong? (not saying this in a bad way, im open to all possibilities, im aware of the possibility of projection).
But if someone hits me physically I would say is a negative act from the other person. In the same way, when people talk with a certain tone, I don´t see it necessarily as a projection to sense that they are using an 'agressive' tone in order to cause harm.
Like, I get you that Is my responsibility and blaming others maybe is not how things will solved, but what is the way? Literally yesterday after this two people said to me that I spent the next 15-20 minutes with my body trembling, like literally a real physical sensation.
How come the rest of the time during the hiking trip my body feel very good yet in that conversation after that precise moment my body started trembling? What happened there? @Phil
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5 hours ago, Jane said:
The realisation of our infinite non-dual nature can be both terrifying and a liberating relief for the ego.
It is.
Whole of Reality is Empty Boundless Nothing.
Is exactly like AIR or SPACE.
This AIR is unlimited so it imagines an infinite dream.
Some AIR gets encapsulated in apparent 'individual Bubbles' that are little specks of imagination of the dream.
When AIR becomes aware of its infinite nature and that when it realises that when the thing that is apparently encapsulated dies, the AIR will still be AIR, then Enlightment happens.
For the individual thing, or human, Enlightment means TOTAL DEATH.
For the AIR, everything stays the same, except that the AIR will have freedom because it will be able to not identify itself with the thing that is 'apparently' encapsulated.
Since Enlightment happens, ego is obliged to surrender to the TRUTH 24/7. To leave the AIR enjoy Truth. hahah
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43 minutes ago, Phil said:
This is the inevitable fallout of Being lied to. Listening to & believing “a teacher’s” “teachings” which are self-conceptualizations on behalf of the separate self of thought, indicative of suppressed trauma & emotion(s), therein conceptualizing emotion(s), the real guidance. The concepts of energetic violence, energetic arrows of negativity, envy, lack, ego development, social anxiety, their judgments, their energies, the whole game, a being like me, scared, envious… it’s all essentially mental gymnastics / attempts to compensate. There is also the aspect of psychedelics baked into the underlying “teaching” and apparent ‘personal’ experiences deeply confused with reality or the truth.
“The aggrandizing of the separate self as a teacher and the message therein of becoming enlightened is not without pitfalls, as the ‘becoming’ is the aversion.
This “message” ignores that the self which is teaching, and the self which could, would or will become enlightened - is the separate self of thoughts. This aversion from emotions reinforces the separate self of thought / idea of a self / a future and is spiritual bypassing…”
https://www.actualityofbeing.com/blog/2024/3/13/the-fallout-of-being-lied-to
Also (if interested) see Misnomers; Teachers, Meditation & Nonduality for the discernibly specific difference in terms of vibration / frequency. https://www.actualityofbeing.com/blog/2024/3/22/misnomers-meditation-nonduality
Not sure I understand what you mean . What you mean with listening and believing a teachers teachings? @Phil
17 minutes ago, Joseph Maynor said:They created a bit of a laugh at your expense which actually strengthened their bond. It sucks that people do this, but it helps to understand systemically why it happens. Think about this one, a group can only exist once a scapegoat is fashioned. The group then emerges and survives to spite the scapegoat. This gets deep into relationship dynamics. So they were trying to bond, but they chose them at your expense, and kind of used attacking you as the catalyst to do it. They weren't trying to include you in the group of bonding nodes (in this case dudes).
Yup. Pretty nasty what some people do. But hey, it's their karma. They won´t be getting liberation in that lifetime im sure.
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Why some people that apparently everything IS going well and cool suddenly throw energetic arrows of negativity?
Is It because of Envy?
Literally this is all that has happened in my Life. I was always a being vibrating quite high close to the frecuencies of Love, Truth, and Light (enlightment), but since most of the rest of the people were vibrating much lower they projected their lack of Love in to me, projecting energies of judgment towards me, if im the "bad one". My mistake was believing that, after that ego developed so called "social anxiety" and so on, but It was actually that i believed their judgements and i did not trust/stablished myself in my own luminary Love. Instead i fell down to their energies.
This is what the whole Game is. reality is boundless Love and most beings vibrate in fear and separation, when they see a being like me vibrating very high, they get scared and envious and try to make me fall into their level.
Im telling this because yesterday i went on a hiking trip with the psychedelic community of my City. That first morning i had done my yoga kriya process and i had clearly Awaken i am in an Empty boundless Dream that is made of me. When i went to the hiking trip this was being the best days of my Life, talking to everybody and connection deeply, being in Truth, knowing i am them, 0 traits of separation or so called social anxiety.
But when we were at lunch then this two guys (mainly one but then the other one also Jumped with him and joined him), sent me an energetic arrow of violence. I was just telling the group what i eat for breakfast and It seems they felt way too threatned by my purity and consciousness one of them tried to being me down and make me feel shit/embarrased.
Quite dissappointing this happens in a psychedelic group, some people not even with psychedelics can let go of the barriers.
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What really scares me is that im in Truth 24/7 and i dont know Who you "guys" are ☺️🤣
Actually thanks for replying Consciousness 😃
You dont trick me anymore i know Who "you" "guys" are. 😆
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I finished meditation and went to look at some flowers on my garden for 10 minutes straight...I couldn´t fathom how this is possible. What is a flower? Is it consciousness? I was looking at the shining white colour of the petals...this blows my mind...how is it possible that this colour even exist. Is pure white. What is white anyway? What is colour? Lol.
Then while touching the flowers I realize also the feeling of touch is also impossible. What is 'touch', what am I touching? Then I realize I am not touching anything. I dont exist. Existence is happening. There is not a self.
Even though sometimes it feel really feel like there is a self. How can there not be a self? But honestly if I am honest there is not a self.
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15 hours ago, Jonas Long said:
No, nothing changes, you've already accepted the truth, there isn't a choice really.
As far as conceptualizing separateness, it's a learned habit, super ingrained, like smoking. And as far as that goes "i" still smoke all the time.
Damn, Ok. You are right. By the way I find funny you are talking like this like buying bread. You literally are just saying whole reality is non dual consciousness like is nothing. This is worth opening a champagne bottle uh?
13 hours ago, Phil said:Consciousness is infinite, this is the Good news, as in Good or Goodness is nondual.
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QuoteHave your cake and eat it too!
Ok 😅
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@Phil @Jonas Long Are you guys actually Consciousness instead of separate selves?
If i Accept Truth i Will have to Live as God for the rest of my Life. It is Life changing. Im not saying is bad though.
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1 minute ago, Jonas Long said:
You don't have to surrender the self, you couldn't even if you tried; its never been there in the first place, there is nothing to surrender, you're fine.
Right.
Just now, Phil said:“The bubble” theory seems to be about bubbling in self referential thoughts, and bubbling out emotional guidance for the thoughts. Anxiety, panic attacks & the like (most unfortunately & unnecessarily) follow.
oh ok got ya. Then yeah that 'bubble' I can definetely stop using it 👍
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1 hour ago, Phil said:
Can ism’s really be true, for the truth, appearing as & aware of, isms? Is that which is aware a thing which knows things, or knows itself in any way such as that it is a thing / object? Maybe the offness felt is the inherent limitation of thought / thinking…?
Fair enough.
QuoteMaybe the “bubble theory”, in accordance with feeling, emotions, is isolating or the like? Why else would it be mentioned really? Maybe the limitations of thought / conceptualizing just isn’t ‘fitting’.
Nah maybe this is not a bubble. But it is scary to open myself to the Self and let go. Everything would change. And as an ego I am scared of change and truth.
1 hour ago, Jane said:The Am I infinite question can only be answered one way.
I Am In- Finite. I Am a finite appearance (in-finite) within infinity, inseparably one and the same no-thing and every-thing.
Yes, and that is what I most fear. I don´t see possible to stay in Truth all the time because that means Death. Infinite Solitude. No more illusions, no more fantasies. Just me. It is scary.
Although maybe because my ego hasn´t truly surrendered yet.
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Love is scary. Can not let go so easily.
Dropping the illusion is no joke