ConsciousDreamer666
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14 hours ago, ivankiss said:
I don't know about you all, but I've been walking around with thoughts such as 'there is no self, no other', etc. stuck on loop in my mind... and it's some of the worst times I've ever had.
Glad I survived that madness. Someone else might have not.
is normal, you can not think this through or you go crazy
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15 hours ago, Phil said:
Ego is that there is a universe, a thinker, a lot of people, a Self, control, we, others, me, them, anyone who could get this, reasons, teachers & anyone figuring anything out. More so, the underlying implication there is a finite self which is separate of those, knows or believes there is those.
crazy 😂
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because is not the separate self who goes through the steps! Is the Infinite Being which does!
Is the process of discovering itself beyond the imagined limitations/identity of the body-character.
As they say usually in this forum is 'coming home'.
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where exactly are we? Where this conversation is happening? 😂
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On 5/17/2024 at 10:56 PM, Phil said:
The discord of a belief like that could be half a cycle to (oddly) ‘feeling better’ by having the belief confirmed.
I see, like feeling one is right in his belief would somewhat make him feel better.
Maybe the thought "I'm hated" was created a sort of defensive mechanism or whatever, and when the mind tries to confirm that belief, it is a sort of 'cuccon' protection for the mind, and that´s why there is this inertia-magnetic force to belief that thought. Like in a way the mind created that with certain purpose, (although it was dysfunctional of course)
QuoteIt’s tricky because the thought “I’m hated” feels off because it isn’t true, but could seem to feel off because it’s true.
Yes, that´s tricky. Is like a magnetic force that pulls me in Lol.
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A bike revs up and there is a sound but there is a feeling that the sound is happening 'out there' and I am within the body.
But...maybe the sound is not happening 'out there', is just happening. Is awareness.
But is the thought that the sound is 'out there' that creates the illusion of existing within a body and being a self.
Why thoughts feel SO REAL?? lol. Even though if I truly inspect I have no direct experience of such a thing as a distance or 'here' and 'there'. YET IT FEEELS like that.
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3 hours ago, Phil said:
Maybe these are related.
you mean the username? haha
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18 hours ago, Phil said:
How do you do that?
"I" do not do it. Infinite Reality does it. "I" do not exist.
But yes, this thing about sexual entanglement is not cool. I know im getting 'dirty' so to speak when I engage in this crap. I just have to stop getting in the mud.
Is kinda of dumb really. Like I get in the mud and then I complain that I get my clothes dirty...
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because when one has all the love in the world one stops having the need to scratch little chunks of love through humans
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4 hours ago, Phil said:
Doesn’t sound like it.
How are you in an illusion exactly?
no idea. But you have to laugh at the utter absurdity of it.
Anyways I am creating everything, every single thing so who cares right.
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So I was seeing the profile of this girl that I was talking recently to do some financial domination .
This girl is not the classic tall impotent dominatrix with leather all over her, etc... Is a normal girl which you could see on the street anyday.
So anyways I told her by this month im really broke so it would have to be for the next month.
I was today seeing her twitter profile and I was reading all of those messages of he hates us losers and we only deserve to be drained of our money. etc.
I entered his profile instagram profile and I saw some pictures with her boyfriend. What surprised me it was totally a normal dude, like not the classical gym bro alpha guy. Normal dude.
And that´s when it hit me.
Why the fuck I have to be hated / beaten by her like im shit , while he deserves the Love from her??
Like literally, I don´t see the difference between me and him. He is just like me. Yet she hates me and to him he respects him/loves him. Why?
Now... I know what you guys are going to say. "Is all in your head. She doesn´t even know you".
Yes, sure. But I mean... I truly feel that belief inside my body, the belief of being the bad one, like is mine. Is a sticky icky identity. It's ahhhh I can not let it fully go. Can I let it go?Because im really sad. Is so unfair to have this belief within oneself.
I suspect is a sort of karmic memory imprint inside consciousness. Because no therapy or even psychedelics have really helped. It always is there.
So it makes me conclude that is always there because is the memory of the identity. The memory 'block' from which Consciousness was able to create this body and mind.
Consciousness need memory to create stuff. If not is just formless emptiness. So to create my imaginary character it had to use the karmic memory of family members.
Now... I hope there is a possibility...a freedom beyond all memory can open up.
What a fun time im having in this illusion, lmao. What a masterpiece.
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Yesterday I was looking at the petal of a flower for a couple of minutes completely mindblown. What is this?
I realise I don´t know anything. Felt like pure magic.
Then I observed the intense color it had. I realized this colour is impossible, how is this possible?Then I had an insight, colour is actually pure creativity.
The petal... It is my being. But that makes things even more mysterious.
This game Is like an eternal dream of ignorance ... the more you accept you know nothing the more the magic opens up.
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Human mechanism have the possibility of holding both energies (masculine and feminine) in a perfect balanced way.
You do not need to go doing lots of things on the outside to become 'masculine'.
The alignment is internal. Hatha Yoga is a good way to align yourself if you feel you are unbalanced in this polarity area.
Ha = Sun
Tha = Moon
Sun = Masculine
Tha = Femenine
In a big way what Hatha Yoga does to your system is aligning in this two forces.
So, you know... you don´t become a beggar to the opposite sex to ask for the 'opposite energy'. You've learned the capabilities of the human system in such a way everything that is worth knowing and absorbing from the universe in to your system, is there for you.
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12 hours ago, Enlightened Cat said:
Sit with them intently and watch them appear and disappear. Dark/dim room is best. Don't shy away from them.
There is nothing to stop because unicorns can't believe in thoughts. You couldn't believe in thoughts either, there is just the experience of that thought, too.
Trying to "stop believing in thoughts" is like trying to hunt unicorns. You can't stop believing in thoughts without any thoughts present, because the idea that you have to stop believing in thoughts is itself a thought.
This is only how an assumption about thoughts could feel presently, because thoughts point to nothing and don't exist. You assume they point to something, and that assuming feels like whatever you assume. It only takes a moment to focus on the feeling thought creates, and then realize that nothing in your thought could cause that feeling because you are not in the thought.
11 hours ago, Mandy said:Power isn't possessed by anyone, there is no separate between creation and you, so all there is is creativity itself. "You're so free you can choose bondage."
What's missed is the one thought at a time, THIS thought now. The power is only ever now, but we write over that power, forget the now, in thinking it is possessed by people, in the past, future, elsewhere, etc.
7 hours ago, Phil said:Had the power, lost the power, how to regain the power… is a narrative about a self in time. It’s like asking ‘how can the clouds shine again?’.
Acknowledge powerlessness as how some thoughts feel, and note whether it resonates or not, rather than look for or expect a ‘thoughts answer’.
3 hours ago, Dima said:Just relax meditating, it's not conceptual. Conceptually it's just a bird song, or sound of rain, exactly the same - you.
One thought at time, choose thinking that feels great, otherwise listen to rain, relax 😊
2 hours ago, James123 said:Because it is the biggest illusion. There is, was, will never you, therefore thoughts. Now is before so called birth.
I´m sure your advices are very useful but im going to be very specific.
I have an humiliation kink where I pay girls to mock me and humiliate me and take money from me. While it last I enjoy it a lot, I feel truly at the peaks of love and consciousness.
But when time passes and I remember those same women posting in social media I start to have the kind of thoughts I mean.
Is a kind of thoughts of utter complete pain, of almost annihilation, the funny thing is... I truly can not see what the thoughts are 'saying'.
Today I was sitting very mindful of the thoughts, I was trying to get close to that nucleus of pain, to that karmic content, trying to see what really the thought is about.
But I can not see it. I don´t understand why is there. There just seem to be this message of the thought of saying to me 'You are complete shit. just accept it, look at the facts, she´s mocking you. She's showing the money she took from you'.
Of course is completely relative, I chosed to play this game-kink with this woman, but the fact that is this kind of karmic repetitive very very sticky thought has been welded into my consciousness since I can remember.
I even have a theory this kind of thought ("you are shit"), does not even come from my life but past life or karmic memory.
I am contemplating stopping the yoga kriya practice, is complete useless for me to have amazing trascendental states but at the end of the day I can not really destroy this thought for good.
If this kind of karmic thought would be dismantled my life would be heaven. Really, like there´s really no other problem in my life but this fucking shitty karmic thought which seems impossible to understand or dismantle.For some reason this kind of thought wants to tell me im utterly inferior and shit and is impossible to not belief it, it has a lot of 'proofs' always to make me believe it 100%.
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20 hours ago, Mandy said:
I have a locket with portraits of my son and his sister that my son drew when he was five years old. Mistaking the photos for my actual kids would be disregarding suffering, (discord). Enjoying the innocent cartoon like representation of them would be aligned thought.
Thought is a caricature, a cartoon, a crude drawing, it seems to be a representation, but really has nothing to do with any separate thing, the only reality of it is the love, joy and creativity.
19 hours ago, Blessed2 said:What came in mind first was that thought = "this, not that".
Thought always implies this, not that.
But then I wonder that if there isn't this nor that, how can thought imply "this, not that"? What "this" is thought pointing to?
Now I wonder if all thought is really just implying what isn't there. That every thought is actually false, like a false reality.
Or not really even false per se, just what isn't there.
19 hours ago, Jane said:The I that has never seen a thought; has never been seen either.
As these concepts are known never seen.
Seeing never sees itself in the same context the sun never shines on itself.
The only answer to the question is already contained in the question...a thought is nought but a thought, conceptually known, and never seen.
18 hours ago, Phil said:If infinite intelligence drew a circle in infinite intelligence it could seem like there are finite thoughts and not infinite intelligence.
7 hours ago, Enlightened Cat said:Whatever it is, isn't, because that would be another thought.
Try to find what a thought is without thinking!How come it seems thoughts have power over Consciousness? (me)
It seems thought has the power to 'bring me down'. How to regain the power?
How do I stop believing thoughts as 'myself'?
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It might seem a nonsensical question but I truly wonder.
What really is a thought? Is it awareness but in a limited way?Because I have never 'seen' a thought.
Is just like a conceptual compression in consciousness.
Something really weird.
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Nothing seeks Nothing.
If enlightment is realising there is nothing at all (that every 'thing' was appearance-mind-imagination-proyection).
Ultimately any sort of feeling that reality is 'something' feels off for that one that is Nothing.
So Nothing can only be truly 100% comfortable in Nothing lol.
Which would explain why according to emotional scale enlightmennt is 1000, the top. Apparently it is beyond things as Love, Bliss or even Ecstasy.
That´s because in love bliss or ecstasy there is even a subtle protection of a 'thing' going on.
makes sense? Yes? No? Would like to hear your views on this.
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48 minutes ago, Orb said:
The Ego is the fear itself. Essentially, the Ego is Aversion at the most fundamental level.
Love isn't scary at all. Love is Unconditionality. No conditions, no need for anything to be anyway.
well said
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2 minutes ago, James123 said:
Isn't is amazing?
Love is scary. Can not let go so easily.
Dropping the illusion is no joke
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This calls are more useful than what you might think if one listens with open heart.
Had a great 'aha' moment when talking to Phil on Saturday call. It really felt like that for the first time I disappeared and only pure Love and Perfection was left.
the moment it killed me was when he said "imagine there is only Love and there Is no self" . 🤨 Something happened there.
yesterday night I looked in the mirror and I couldn't recognise a self. Looked at my hands and I did not know where I was or if 'I' exist. I tried too touch my hands trying to find a self, desperate to exist. But I couldn´t. I might not be real after all. Hahah
'I' might be a construction within the Infinite Oceanic Dream of Love.
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1 hour ago, Phil said:
There isn’t any experience of we act on presumption so that which there isn’t can’t be addressed.
If your experience is that you are acting on presumption that can be addressed.
As always with that twisted curled up language that is great to feel like you are saying something super complex and profound but nobody understand: Great tricks of manipulation.
QuoteNo idea what truth value is or means and how this concept relates to jumping of a balcony.
Is very simple. As I said, if you guys invalidate the question of death by saying is an "assumption", then I am saying, jumping off a balcony is fine because death is 'an assumption'.
So what is it? Is it an assumption or is it more like a fact?
QuoteIf you’re inclined to harm address that directly , maturely & responsibly. Do not entertain or employ spiritual bypassing.
Not at all, I was just using an example to let you see guys how the way you are employing language is not that accurately.
The fact that you know want to gaslight me by saying that is 'spiritual bypassing' is a cheap shot by your part. Gurus love to instantly make the pupil feel inferior or that is not doing things right, the moment the guru is challenged by what is saying.
1 hour ago, Phil said:Where are these notions like “percentage of truth value” and “fighting suffering” even coming from?
Again, making me feel like 'I´m dumb' by saying this things.
1 hour ago, Phil said:Fighting suffering is adding resistance, and is suppressing. That is the nature of suffering, that is not a proper or fruitful way to address suffering.
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1 hour ago, Phil said:How is daily morning meditation & expression such as with a journal going?
Acknowledging emotions?
Is impossible to acknowledge emotions, they can only be utterly destroyed.
1 hour ago, Phil said:What is the difference between thinking about reality and or spirituality, conceptualizing, listening to self proclaimed ‘teachers’….
and implementing these suggestions…? What differences or distinctions come to mind?
Again you are trying to make yourself like you are in a throne of truth and im doing bad things...so tiring. Yeah im so conceptualising dude, ive only done hundreds if not a thousand hours of spiritual practice last 2 years. But you know more than me always. Ok...
1 hour ago, Phil said:Experience fundementally is that of awareness aware of thoughts, perception (seeing & hearing etc), sensation & emotions. ‘Work’ with the simple ordinary elements of direct experience.
None of this is actually transpiring in direct experience, other than as, thoughts. Again, it all seems indicative of conjecture, which is indicative of suppression and twisting, contorting & spiritual bypassing.
QuoteAddress these matters properly.
Another cheap shot.
QuoteAll ‘infinity continues’, ‘infinite numbers’, ‘infinity goes on forever’, ‘infinite infinities’, etc, etc, etc - is utter nonsense.
Lol. And you are a 'Guru' that approaches about love. But again saying that what I write is 'utter nonsense'. Yeah dude, you are so 'above me', and im 'dumb'. Sure, dude. Sure.
QuoteRumination which is discordant, and is suffering and is indicative of suppression & spiritual bypassing.
You love to throw those words always to gaslight the alumni on why they are not 'getting it'. Great manipulation techniques.
QuoteConditioning seems to be very confused & suppressed with spiritual concepts like reincarnation and energetic painful karma.
Sure, because you know all the things on the universe... you say what spiritual concepts and right and what are not...you have a massive ego of knowledge, you feel so above us is concerning what you are doing.
QuoteAgain, it all seems indicative of conjecture, which is indicative of suppression and twisting, contorting & spiritual bypassing.
Is incredible the level of mental manipulation and gaslighting you use. Thank god you showed it to me so clearly and intensely with this last post so I can truly stop coming to this forum for advice.
The moment people ask something that goes against your narrative you harshly gaslight and manipulate with those words as suppression and spiritual bypassing to null the person and make them feel dumb and wrong.
Is not cool what you are doing. But whatever. Keep feeling like you know everything about life and know more than everybody else.
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8 hours ago, Jonas Long said:
Death is never actually directly experienced, just the idea of it. Actually death would require there being something other than the present moment, nothing happens in the past or future.
8 hours ago, Phil said:Time, life, something happening, breath / breathing are presumptions.
Overlooking that it is itself.
You guys are right, but you have to give a break in the sense that we act on presumptions all the time. If a presumption does not have a certain % of truth value attached to it, we just don´t jumping off the balcony? Anyways the belief that I will die or I will hurt my body is a presumption.
Literally the thing that was giving me most peace of mind to fight suffering is the 'fact' that I (as a separate self) will going to die. If you guys rob me of that 'fact' im dont know what im going to do lmao.
As my guru said, if you were inmortal how would I ever get you to meditate. (laughs).
No, but really, I absolutely can open myself to the possibility that infinity continues, other dreams, etc. whatever. But please please at least god end my fantasy of a separate self because 'I' suffer too much with my bs.
One of the last fears I have is that if reincarnation is real I will reincarnate with the same energetic painful karma. Like all my hope is that this life is the last life I experience the karmic suffering, my hope was that when this body-mind dies all this attachments and kind of thoughts are completely done for eternity. That´s why in a sense im doing this work, I don´t want any being or any future-me-reincarnation to experience what I have experienced in sense of suffering this lifetime.
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On 3/27/2024 at 4:06 PM, Phil said:
There is nothing for infinite being to be inside of, and infinite being isn’t a thing (which would be inside of anything).
There’s also no form, and so no restriction, limitation or assertion upon; infinite being.
So (the infinite) One appears as two, making it seem to itself, that it’s a thing (human), inside of some bigger thing (universe).
The inside / outside is the in-breath / out-breath… infinite being making it seem like it’s a thing inside of a bigger thing.
Thus the breath is referred to as “the breath of life”, and ‘used’ for grounding & clearing the mind.
Unless of course thoughts about the breath / breathing are believed, as in, important.
‘Important’ denotes “to me”, which means you’re doing (Being) an amazing job of making it seem like you’re a thing inside of a bigger thing.
Sheer perfection.
When death happens there is no more breath, what happens then? How infinite would be able to experience itself as something finite?
Maybe Bliss is the only reality of our being
in Nonduality, Consciousness, Awakening, Enlightenment, Self-Recognition
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I was meditating and felt that Bliss is eternal, is difficult to explain but it didn´t felt it was constricted to time, a physical body or a reality.
crazy right