Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I feel like I did a ton of stupid shit. But I don't want to be punished for it. God. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I constantly have this thought where I feel like I screwed myself up very badly. And I simply had no coping mechanism. Nothing was under my control.. And my family never understood this BIG TRUTH. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I need a lot of resources like money of course. But I also need a lot of... Workthrougs and breakthroughs... Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I need an empowering partner. Someone with a big heart. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I wish I would wake up every morning with a huge physical hug. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I don't know why but I always feel like a physical hug from an adult makes a huge difference to my my mental state.. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 (edited) What can replace a physical hug with? Answer - nothing. I simply cannot fix that. Edited March 20 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 I think what happened is that I suffered an emotional crisis and I coped with it through an eating disorder.. And that became a vicious loop. And I developed medical issues as a result of my emotional crisis going out of control. So it became a chain reaction.. And here I am... Feeling fucked up. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 19 Author Share Posted March 19 (edited) Identify the emotion right now - Overwhelmed. Edited March 19 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 I'm extremely stressed out because of my sister's embarrassing behavior. She is much older than me and she always talks to me in a threatening way. She was the one who sent me to the mental hospital and I kept pleading and begging her and they physically assaulted me right in front of her and she proceeded to sign consent documents. My mom came to my rescue that day. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 (edited) Identify the emotion right now - Stressed Edited March 20 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 Yep. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 What's my closest western resemblance? A woman called Carrie. Let's say. Someone who is always a bit messy and clumsy. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 I was going through picist today and I felt like this woman should play my alter ego Carrie. https://www.pikist.com/search?q=Blonde&page=27 Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 My family has asked me to move to the States. And I refused. I feel like I am going through an identity crisis. Ugh. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 Everyday I wake up feeling like shit. Like I'm not worth it. And I have to keep pushing to feel better. One day it will - hopefully. Real struggle. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 I will go for a 10 min walk today. Again today is another psychiatric appointment. I hate that shit because I'm not making much progress and I'm incredibly slow and the psychiatrist is sorta trying to be patient with my idiosyncratic behavior. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 Stress can have a massive impact on the brain. Especially post traumatic stress. It can weigh you down. It's hard to feel normal. I bought a book today. I'll show later. It's a book that helps people work through their emotions. Exercises and stuff. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 14 hours ago, Reena said: I can improve my own life. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted March 20 Author Share Posted March 20 (edited) My emotions are surely all over the place. Today is not a good day. It started out with me feeling stressed out. I'll eat rice right now. Rice calms me down. There are no animal sounds in my house today so I feel less frightened. Yesterday I was feeling bombarded with those creepy sounds. It felt like it came from the atic. And I was too scared to open the atic. Edited March 20 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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