Feeling shame and insecurity in relationship. How does one turn vibration around

[Mandy]

@WhiteOwl 😂 

 

And you think you're old. 

 

6 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said:

 

how do i get into the Vortex so to speak. 

You don't, it's a more a moth to the flame kind of thing. The thoughts aren't really about you. The Vortex is the flame, and there really isn't a moth, actually. 

 

[WhiteOwl]

11 minutes ago, Mandy said:

You don't, it's a more a moth to the flame kind of thing. The thoughts aren't really about you. The Vortex is the flame, and there really isn't a moth, actually. 

 

Bu thoughts come up and feels discordant and pulls me out of the vortex easily no matter who they are about.

[Mandy]

1 minute ago, WhiteOwl said:

Bu thoughts come up and feels discordant and pulls me out of the vortex easily no matter who they are about.

Nope, just this one. Pick a better one. 

[WhiteOwl]

21 minutes ago, Mandy said:

Nope, just this one. Pick a better one. 

But you don't PICK your thoughts all the time if you didnt notice. They appear and then you feel a corresponding emotion. and that is ruining my life

[WhiteOwl]

23 minutes ago, Mandy said:

Nope, just this one. Pick a better one. 

Its not like i am choosing to PICK any of those emotions that make me feel insecurity, guilt, shame. 

[Mandy]

@WhiteOwl Pink elephants frolicking toward the sunset. Just write a paragraph of ridiculous whimsical nonsense. 

[WhiteOwl]

5 minutes ago, Mandy said:

@WhiteOwl Pink elephants frolicking toward the sunset. Just write a paragraph of ridiculous whimsical nonsense. 

I am at a very low moment right now. Could you be a little more clear? I dont understand what you mean with that

[Mandy]

1 minute ago, WhiteOwl said:

I am at a very low moment right now. Could you be a little more clear? I dont understand what you mean with that

I mean try it now. Write a paragraph of totally ridiculous nonsensical imaginative nonsense. 

[WhiteOwl]

Deadhorse flying fucking red caps are delciious i also knew your mother and how she tasted what on earth is the shirt made of

[WhiteOwl]

@Mandyso?

[Mandy]

Good, but it's one sentence without punctuation, paragraph needs 3-5. 

[WhiteOwl]

13 minutes ago, Mandy said:

Good, but it's one sentence without punctuation, paragraph needs 3-5. 

The kids dont want us to hard because of the rude intervention of the 1900's aids epidemic that rose to war on islam and all the things that could never be said about her. It feels off that white shirt is frogs on frogs and neglected piece of cotton woods in the forest are always predictable. Puntuation is a time vessel that predicts nothing about anything and doesnt feel good but also not bad what is the tiger of lizards and rapes oh thats bad like the cry for help that santa made last year when he drowned. 

[Mandy]

@WhiteOwl BRILLIANT! How'd that feel? 

[WhiteOwl]

1 minute ago, Mandy said:

@WhiteOwl BRILLIANT! How'd that feel? 

releasing somehow. I want more sillyness in my life. 

[WhiteOwl]

6 minutes ago, Mandy said:

@WhiteOwl BRILLIANT! How'd that feel? 

Why does that feel good

[Mandy]

It's picking a better feeling thought, taking yourself out of the equation, no ownership of the story. 

[WhiteOwl]

1 hour ago, Mandy said:

It's picking a better feeling thought, taking yourself out of the equation, no ownership of the story. 

felt better and then back into discord and out of the Vortex now. lkjpijhpnjnpoj

 

[Mandy]

@WhiteOwl

1 hour ago, WhiteOwl said:

felt better and then back into discord and out of the Vortex now. lkjpijhpnjnpoj

 

Try merging a little of what you think is reality with the ridiculousness. Just don't put too much in at once. 

[WhiteOwl]

9 hours ago, Mandy said:

Try merging a little of what you think is reality with the ridiculousness. Just don't put too much in at once. 

Feels incredible and just what i need to shatter the perfect image of perfection that permeates down under the ruggidy. But it feels uncomfortable OH NO. We don't like that in my house. My house is a house of green lions that doesn't like to eat. They are very serious though. 

[WhiteOwl]

On 11/26/2023 at 8:38 PM, Phil said:

The guidance is like a phone is ringing, while thoughts claim it’s something else. Thought makes outlandish claims, like it’s a time traveler, magician or even mind reader. Meanwhile the phone is still ringing.

 

Bursting the bubble is noticing the claim, and is like acknowledging that indeed there is a phone ringing.

Feeling the emotion is like answering the phone. As the phone is answered, there is relief & clarity.

The occurrences and severity of the phone ringing now begin to diminish. 

Given the nature of relief & clarity, answering the phone actually is revealed to be soothing, joyful and blissful. 

 

Then the bubble is burst, the emotion is felt, and more of you is allowed into the relationship. 

It tends to be contagious. 

Do you have to be on the phone 24/7? "I" can focus on feeling or sensation 24/7 and it will keep thought at bay to some degree and feel good, but it always ends up in thoughts and discord. Not like it ended. But is the "trick" to be on the phone 24/7 to use your own analogy?

 

I want to feel alignment, i want to flow and create. Feeling discouragement.