Orb Posted Friday at 01:54 PM Share Posted Friday at 01:54 PM (edited) I can't seem to figure this out. I start off my mornings with meditation or exercise, have some green tea, but still throughout the day don't feel like working. I'll also start off sometimes with journaling which feels great, yet still throughout the work day I'm not doing much. Sometimes I get scared ill get fired, my mind dozes off and I miss a lot of meetings. I also forget a lot of the lingo around here so I find myself not joining in the conversation during meetings. I also work from home which makes it easy to doze off. I get work done but it's like the bare minimum. I've seriously considered ordaining as a zen monk, seems like the dream life, everyone serving each other, and no longer having to rationalize to myself that it's okay for me to be making good cash off a bs job while other ppl starve on the streets. But then again I am tempted by the riches of society, I could become rich and have a family and all the capitalistic ideal stuff, or become a monk and experience community and Love with other monks. If I feel lazy all day to do work then I can't see myself living like this for decades. Edited Friday at 01:55 PM by Orb Quote Mention "I shall give you what no eye has seen, and what no ear has heard, and what no hand has touched, and what has never entered into the human heart. "-Jesus (Gospel of St. Thomas) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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