Forza21 Posted August 13, 2022 Share Posted August 13, 2022 (edited) I recently had a glimpse of pure sense, "i am". Not as a "thought" but as a living truth. i've experienced it, as i am this vast, spacious, no-thing, in which everything, including thoughts, appears, and disappears. It wasn't something special or mystical, in fact it was pretty neutral, but so enjoyable. it was so easy to "rest there" and thoughts weren't a problem AT ALL as they appeared/disappeared in me, as me. It was so clear. That "isness" was self-validating, obvious. It was big peace and equanimity. There were many thoughts like "this can't be it" "it's boring" "look further" etc, but at that point, all thoughts were laughable, as i rested as this space, it all took place. The content of thoughts weren't believable at all. No solving, no trying, just noticing "thought&let go. I can't "get there" since, and it's frustrating. i know, that what prevents me from this, is this thought/belief, that: -There's someone to "get there" -I'm not this already So basically, it's believing in thoughts again. But every time i go into meditation, there's this big sense of "struggle" and "trying" and i can't observe it anyhow, can't let it go, as i imagine how it was peaceful... It ends up in big frustration. Any tips please?:) Edited August 13, 2022 by Forza21 Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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