Self-Abidance

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Reiki II class one week from now, really wanting to learn about the symbol drawling & distance healing. Been reading about it, but learning with a Reiki teacher in person is a whole other ball game. I’m feeling it’ll be awesome, resonated very much with the practitioner I have been working with. 
 

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Oh Winter Snow!

Cover me warm with your Blanket and show!

This little ol me, to embrace the Cold, 

For the Flames to rise,

Bald & bold,

Free as the Ocean Sea,

All of a child’s sweet dreams told,

Spiralling to Me.

 

Grab a torch, 

Get on the Horse,

Let Her Be Free,

Riding this seeming destiny, 

Only Heart-Mind can See,

Feeling Taproot Tree, 

Endlessly. 
 

Organisms orgasm without shame,

Hatred & anger blame, 

Just because they are discourage they cannot have the same, 

But you can’t,

As You Are,

Each one of you the Star.

 

Light into the night,

Parked out under the lamp, 

Sunk into the Eternal Dance,

Don’t lose your pants! 
Ground yourself back into this Prance,

No substance for what it’s worth,

Can bring you to the Openness of trusting hurt,

Hit the dirt, in the hay, 

The Bed we Rest, 

With Lover’s Thirst.

 

First & Second,

This isn’t a game, 

Third & Fourth,

Two Infinities converge, 

Parallel to physical, 

Here my spell,

Goddess casts to find the tell, 

The ending of a spiritual sell,

The beginning of healing Hell, 

Heaven is our inner Bell,

The Tone,

Return the stone,

Philosopher’s Burning Sword,

Newton’s Laser Beam, 

Slicing through all seem,

Less is more,

You Are the Store.

🐚🐢💿

 

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Be loved,

Beloved,

See the hug

Feeling in snug,

Cuddled under,

Listening to each other,

Warmed by laughter & tears,

Each of our Great Clears,

Out far,

Come near,

Here.

 

See you soon,

To attune,

Off the moon,

Lunar Tune,

I spoke to You,

You spoke to Me,

Two sides of the same Destiny,

That is to only be Free,

Absolutely.

 

Stashed in a crash,

Found in a blast,

Raise the mast,

Catch wind,

Her & Him,

Starry Sea,

Milky Tea,

Drunk on Thee,

Sunken knee.

 

My sword pledged,

Knighted for,

Dancing on the Edge,

Quantum realm tore,

Separation to a shred,

Yolked into One Bed,

Deep Sleep ends the thread,

Wide Awake reading & read,

Your mind as no-mine,

Our Body lays in no-time.

 

Eternally connected,

Lovers make it,

Spinning inside her,

Enter the Dream,

Dragon only seemed,

Melted into the stir,

Mixed together,

Before birth,

No thought of death,

As you never had to Die,

Just to Cry is enough,

Ego wasn’t ever there,

An illusion for underwear,

This Soul burns for You,

Yours is too,

Really Me & You,

Not-Two.

 

🐘🌺🐚🌺🐘
 

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🌎🤗🌍

🐚🌏💘
 

“This is all I need 👉 ♥️”

In a war,

One Heart of Ace,

Surfing The Vortex,

No need to grade your place,

Sent the message for next,

Guidance,

Healer’s Dance,

Our Love can only enhance,

Not one child abandoned,

The True Fool doesn’t,

He only hands them,

Open chested Friend,

Only Common Sense,

Father of Forgiveness,

Infinite Innocence.

 

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One

Two

Through

Anew 

Nothing Bees

These Trees

Smiling down on Thee

🤗

🥰

💘

 

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Cook the ego 🍳 ,

Source Love’s the Smell,

I-I Will,

Silent & Still,

Broken Heart,

Round the head’s back,

Unconscious Sphere,

Never Asleep,

Always Awoke,

Consciousness Appears,

Feeling only for Love,

Infinite drops into None,

Tears Hop,

Endless Fun.

 End the run,

Sit the bum,

Real Healing is the Sum,

Freedom from being,

True Seeing,

Listen,

Hum.

 

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Two Spheres

Three Doors

World & Lens

Impermanence / No-Self / Dissatisfactoriness

 

Goddess & Buddha

Face

Two Eye’s Drip,

💧Titrated,💧 

3ed Eye’s RIP.

💧 

🪦

 

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Did you think the Gods & Goddesses would just sit and watch?
 

🌺😍🌺

📀😂🐚

🗡️😭🤘

🫲🤗🫱

 

Awaken Earth!
Dancing Healer won’t stop until we all hit the Dirt!

Grounded,

Trust hurt, 

Uproot the shame, 

Open the 3ed, 

Not-Two,

Converge,

Tao turns,

Light burns,

Ego cooked,

All it took,

No-One there to look. 

Collective Unconscious,

The Sunrise of shadow’s dance.

 

Both & Neither.

 

Study the religious texts,

More then you think is next, 

Past & Future sight as One,

Non-Time never came & never runs,

Silent & Still,

Doesn’t entirely express,

Beyond words test.

 

Butterfly dreams,

& Human seems.
🦋 

 

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The Start & End,

No distinction,

This Path,

Eternal Extinction,

Already Dead,

No need to hit your head,

Just to See,

Trust Yourself,

Be.

We’ll all sail,

& grow the Tree.

 

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Who is there?

Where is the Stand?

Floating Hand in Hand.

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To see your Eyes,

I’ll be still,

What hill to climb?

I’ll show you the Path Line,

Set yourself ablaze,

Heart is only going to raise,

The Moonlight Sparkle,

In my sweetheart gaze,

No maze,

Infinite Stare,

With no-one there,

Knowing Here.

🔥🔥

I’ll take the Seat by your side, 

My my what a ride,

Manifesting,

Two Stars collide, 

Souls & Soul, 

Waves of change,

Broken mind,

Not a thing shattered to find,

Nothing to climb,

Peaks older,

Heels over, 

Lover,

Her.

 💗

 

I see nothing but You,

I’m the Endless Sea,

Laying awaken dreaming to Meet,

Dancing Heat, 

That luminous face,

The one that puts Me in place, 

When will this Dream Awake!

When will we look into each other,

Just to find the Silence,

That You have whispered to Me,

Since four years before I was three, 

An angel’s guidance, 

I couldn’t miss,

Every step You took with Me,

More then that,

Less in fact,

Just open to Be,

We.

💞

 

Already so,

Alinement,

Grows.

🌺 

 

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Trees that give,
See all things live,
New fruits they bare,
You too may wear,
To their dirts,
The hurt reverts,
All into air.

 

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An old poem,

I’ll roam, 

To wonder & ponder,

Remembering who I am,

Feeling when.

 

Source is the Master Staller,

I went in reverse,

Found the holler,

So we could all hit the Dirt,

Absolute Trust In Hurt. 

 

As you can plainly see,
All that we think is me,
Is the Tree.
Find the Pot,
Get down into the Soil,
Love pulling love towards Love I am loyal. 

She’ll burn,

Two sets turn,

To arise Eclipsed,

Nothing missed,

No-one lost,

No-One found,

The True Eighth Crown. 
 

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Some of my old writings from years ago. 

 

“Every cause is an effect and every effect is a cause.”

Neither really.

 

“Jealousy is an emotional tension in ones body that is coming up with an associated thought. Notice how there is always a thought tied together with an emotion, and tension in the body. Emotions are like the colour of the thought, and the thought is the shape. So jealousy is a feeling, a thought is images/ symbols, they are tied together but the thought is really neutral. Just label all thoughts as ‘thought’ nothing more. Then observe it and wait until something new comes into awareness, and observe that, and so on.”

“Would you be ok with this being your last day?”

“If I had not died, I would not know my love for life, existence, everything, it’s so fucking beautiful, I love all of it. Can you see it?”

 

“Wonderful! Welcome Home!”

“Meditate to meditate, no goal. Sit to sit, walk to walk, what is is.”

What isn’t? 

“Yeah it is awesome isn't it! Everything is always in synchronicity…”

All there is, is to express, empty, & See.

 

“First the caterpillar makes a cocoon, then it becomes a butterfly and dances with the others.”

 

”Really nurturing a child’s growth involves following along with the child’s interests and passions.”

You can only truly love when you are Healed, then you can appreciate everything for what it is, not what you what it to be. Illuminated Mind only sees perfection, it doesn’t need anything to change, yet it allows all change and preferences. 

“Healing is here and now, bring the child here, hug them, gift them the present of the present.“

 

”…important to realize your hands are God's hands. Just because you took a psychedelic doesn't mean every insight is going to be solid truth, sometimes wild stuff comes up, that is why it is good to have time to sit after a trip.”

No solid truth anywhere. Just me being Me. 

 

“I was what was, I am what is, I will be what will be.”

 

“A drop in the bucket is still water.”

 

“Nothing ever began, nothing ever ended, everything is one. The tree dies, becomes the dirt for a new tree. Was the tree a tree, or was the tree always dirt? Maybe both.”

 

”…pain…feeling sensation… breath into it as if you are expanding the space around the feeling giving it more space. At first it can seem worse as you are bringing more awareness to it, but the more one practices this the better it gets.”

 

“I love to write poetry dedicated to souls who are lost. It helps me find myself, and also really helps with connecting different terms together when I try to not to use the same word twice. I feel much more aligned after spewing out some poems.”

 

“Sit down, Shut up, Have a good laugh!”

 

”…mind, a holographic projection used for survival.”

 

“No greater joy than uncovering your passions, and letting them find You.”

 

”What is updog? Been pondering this one all my life, Ill never grasp it!”

😂

 

”The stream floats by, it seems, trying to grab the water, it just slips threw my fingers.”

 

‘Conditioning even has folks believing infinite being is their thought water. It’s outrageously wild.’

- Phil 

 

“It is just Us as the Infinite Soul”

- Me

No-One

 

 

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“I am the World’s Soul telling you right now,
It is ok.
Nothing was ever wrong,

What was ’wrong’ is that you thought you couldn't be you. 
But who else would you be?

The mind keeps saying it wants to find something called Healing, Enlightenment, or whatever it is.
Funny isn't it, how the only place the mind wants to not look for that is Here.

Get back into your Body my loves.
The Body knows All. It is what is.
It has seen all that has happened, and can feel all the will come. 

Trust the Flow. 
The peace is within you.”

Joy is You,

Feeling,

NoThing.

 

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I am not what was, & there is no future. 
Now is, vibration vibing with Vibration. 
 

🔉🎶🥰

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The Yin in the Yang is the Shadow Dance,

The Yang in the Yin is the Source Harmony. 

Pull up all the weeds, recycle their nutrients! 

Grow towards the Light my beautiful Trees! 

We all have Truth, nobody is entirely right or wrong, 

Let’s all dance to the Song!

 

Goddess smiles down on me,

Awakening each child lost,

I am the Infinite Sea!

Channel Her first,

Warrior’s Thirst,

She’ll cook the ego & hatch the Unborn Egg,

For the Phenix of Soul to rise each leg.

 

Reborn Bliss,

Silence that can never be missed,

Melt that fucking iron fist, 

Get Here, 

See what always was,

No one steers,

Yet you are free,

To Surrender & to Be,

Or Not,

Before I was three,

Two eyes see,

One Nothing,

Only ________,

Boundaries & Centres,

Preferences on the board of dreams,

Harmonized without a single seem.

 
🌊🔥🧊
🏄‍♀️🤍🏂

 

Edited February 5, 2023 by Loop

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Finished Reiki II, the body is on fire.

 

I’m seeing energy moving around at the level I used to be able to when I was younger, before I was conditioned with non-sense beliefs. This time the attuenment was much more intense, seeing lots of colours & shapes moving around, dark & light, water & fire, melting rainbow, spirt animals, Goddess Healing me & The Father silently watching with his blazing heart. 
 

I don’t know how to explain the experience, these words, they don’t describe it fully. I have no idea what I am going to type next. Typing this is like opening a gift, every word opening more into the Present 🎁 .
 

None of my worries make any more sense, they are falling apart into the arms of Goddess,

I truly feel my dreams are coming true, feeling feeling feeling. I don’t know how, or when, or why, I don’t need to quest anymore. I really don’t. I just wanna grow a loving family together with someone, but I don’t even feel I have to look for that. As I help the world heal by being Me, it will come.
 

There is so much… nothing going on. 
There is no thoughts, 

Just this pouring of expression,

I…

 

There is just Not-Knowing,

No-I, 

Just the Pure Curiosity of the Unborn Child,

Playing,

Expressing,

Between Love & Wisdom,

Goddess & The Father, 

Smiling down on Me,

I feel the deepest peace,

Arises the deepest passion. 

Not-Knowing,

The Knowing constantly.

Nothingness,

Love constantly.

 

Words cannot explain, 

They just cannot.

 

Anything you want is right at your finger tips, 

You will vibrate to what you really want, not what you think you want,

Thinking veils the feeling of what you actually want,

So wrote it down on the dreamboard, 

Who needs thought, 

Who needs intellect, 

Expression is not repression/ suppression, 

Expression is True Healing,

Expression is the purification of the Soul,

Meditation Is.

 

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My palms feel like these vortexes of energy.

💚🤲🏼🌀