Someone here Posted July 13, 2022 Share Posted July 13, 2022 (edited) Smoking cigarettes is one of the greatest joys I get in life . I just adore the nicotine smell and taste in my nose and mouth. I get a high out of it . And If I should do what feels good to Me..then that means I should continue to smoke . That's how I trick myself .of course its needless to say or cite the negative consequences of smoking and what it does to your lungs and to your whole body really ..and every smoker knows that very well. But continues to smoke regardless. I have a smoking addiction. Trying to quit since 2018 but always falling. I realized I was deluding myself. I can keep repeating the cycle of "just one more cigarette" for the rest of my life and will still want "just one more cigarette". It's getting to intense phases. Nowadays I smoke 7 packs a week or so. My uncle just had a heart attack recently because he is a heavy smoker as well. I need to stop or I will be following his path. It's getting to the point I wake up at night to smoke. I Considered scaring the absolute shit out of myself to change my relationship and perspective on smoking. Because whatever my attitude is towards it now, clearly isn't strong enough because I keep relapsing. When I say scare the shit out of myself I don't mean just to glance at all the warning labels and recall common tropes. I mean really immerse myself in the consequences and become truly aware of what smoking does, can do, and WILL do to me. I better be sure it WILL happen. Of course any smoker can "know" of all those things, and most do. But they don't care because simple acknowledgment and knowledge of all those things is just a game the ego plays with the mind to distract from with the problem. Having knowledge of something is not the same as being aware. People who are aware of the dangers of something don't participate in it, or at the very least they can. Thoughts ? Edited July 13, 2022 by Someone here Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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