Cosmic Lotus

[Reena]

Throughout our lives we're besotted by spiritual questions that intrigue our minds. 

Some of these questions are of an existential nature. The same old questions though. 

Why do we live? What's the after life like? What's the purpose of life? What is God? Does God exist? Why do good and evil exist? 

These questions have existed since millenia. 

 

Edited May 2 by Reena

[Reena]

Ironically we will suffer even if we are on a spiritual path. Spirituality is not a one size fits all solution to suffering. On the contrary spirituality might even increase suffering. Spirituality is the disintegration of the illusion of self. It's breaking through it and realizing that your true nature is as beautiful and as pure as water. It's crystal clear, sublime and pure. It's pure consciousness. It's happening in real time. Everything is happening in real time. Right now whatever happens to you is happening in consciousness. And consciousness is unperturbed. The only one who is perturbed is you and your false sense of self that is the ego. Your true sense is one with the Source. Is one with the Spirit. There's only one spirit. This spirit is rapture. Your spirit is rapture. Your consciousness is unaffected, unimpacted. You not realizing this is living in illusion. You realizing this is awakening. Awakening is never ending. Awakening is simply awakening to your true nature, pure consciousness. When you realize this, absolutely everything turns to dust and the only thing that matters is the continuation of the soul into the afterlife and communion with one spirit. Satiety. Spiritual satiety. You're satiated spiritually. You'll suffer but you'll also be liberated in knowing that all suffering is impermanent. 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

Ironically we will suffer even if we are on a spiritual path. Spirituality is not a one size fits all solution to suffering. On the contrary spirituality might even increase suffering. Spirituality is the disintegration of the illusion of self. It's breaking through it and realizing that your true nature is as beautiful and as pure as water. It's crystal clear, sublime and pure. It's pure consciousness. It's happening in real time. Everything is happening in real time. Right now whatever happens to you is happening in consciousness. And consciousness is unperturbed. The only one who is perturbed is you and your false sense of self that is the ego. Your true sense is one with the Source. Is one with the Spirit. There's only one spirit. This spirit is rapture. Your spirit is rapture. Your consciousness is unaffected, unimpacted. You not realizing this is living in illusion. You realizing this is awakening. Awakening is never ending. Awakening is simply awakening to your true nature, pure consciousness. When you realize this, absolutely everything turns to dust and the only thing that matters is the continuation of the soul into the afterlife and communion with one spirit. Satiety. Spiritual satiety. You're satiated spiritually. You'll suffer but you'll also be liberated in knowing that all suffering is impermanent. 

 

 

 

[Reena]

 

I was watching this video of a rose in the rains. And I thought to myself -Am I not the rose I'm watching? I sure am. When you realise that you're one with creation, you are the rose you're looking at, you're that purity, that presence, your true nature like the rose is natural, organic, pure. It is your essence. Your essence is pure and still like the rose. It is full of rapture. It is in the moment. It's neither created nor destroyed. It has forever stayed the same throughout eternity, this is when you realize your true nature - stillness. 

 

[Reena]

What's higher wisdom and higher guidance? 

 

Connect with your higher self. The reason you can't is because you're stuck at lower vibration. A higher vibration feels like? It feels like being liberated, being free, being stress free, being truly connected, being appreciated, being loved, being accepted. Higher vibrations recharge us. It's like a battery charger. It instantly puts us in a no drama state. It heals, revitalizes. It feels free flowing, without judgement. It is kind hearted and resonant. It feels like a love language. Constantly living in this state slowly changes the frequency of the brain and makes the brain more resonant to positive experiences and growth and then your body and mind automatically recognize bullshit when it's said or done, your bullshit meter is sharper and stronger and can easily detect even minor changes that might affect your positive zen state. And you do everything to stay away from it. It's like spiritual high vibration is like bright sunshine. And people who have lived in darkness for too long won't ever be able to appreciate sunshine. You need to live in sunshine to kinda be struck with Deja Vu during moments of darkness, to feel that power being sapped out of you, to be reminded of that sunshine again. 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

There is only one vibration that echoes through everything that's beautiful and serene - the vibration of love. 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

 

The thing is that you don't have to invest much thought into anything at all. It's pretty pointless to begin with. If anything is that complicated that it needs much investment of thought, then it's not worth it anyway. It's best to abdicate it and throw it all away in the favor of lighter more simpler things in life. There's  no magic in chaos. This often is the case in passive aggressive relationships where you find it difficult to point out what's exactly is going or seemingly wrong in it. That's because it feels like you'll only succeed if you figure it all out. This is clearly (even though it's not entirely bad Or doesn't appear directly bad enough) stressful already as it is and you'll be in doubt. You have to decide if you want this state of mind. The Empire State of mind is free, not passive aggressive or desperately grasping at straws. If your state of mind is unclear about something then just give it up. I know. I know. It's hard. You always feel like. Even though I'm not a type A person. I don't get frustrated very easily (a downside perhaps), I always feel like i can take it or it's no big deal until it's way worse than i thought it would be. Especially when it's way beyond time for me to repair it. This leads to regret over past faults. You have to understand that people like me ( you that is me) have a tendency to wait it out as long as the inner patience isn't completely wearing out. This is too risky, too vulnerable. 

 

 

 

This is one of the ways in which I inadvertently attract drama. I wait till it gets worse. That shouldn't be the way. It's not always about the sixth sense. Sometimes it's about common sense. Just being at least 1% wiser than yesterday. See how much difference it makes. 

 

When you keep waiting for things to get worse, you make it worse for yourself unwittingly. Strike while the iron is hot. Make hay when the sun shines. A stitch in time saves nine. Nothing is worse for your consciousness than to let everything be destroyed by one casual mistake. If you have come so far, it is tiring to keep working overtime but the opposite of it is not going to give you any relief. You invite your own burdens. Opportunism is not meant only for situations where you have to gain something, it is also meant for situations where you don't want to lose what you already have. You see that? Take your hand away as soon as it gets hot. Get out of the kitchen. These things are easier said than done. 

 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

For someone who has a Borderline Personality disorder, even a little bit of instability or chaos can be life threatening. So it's best to keep it all trimmed down to something simple and nourishing. Something quite easy and just simple. Nothing complicated at all. Just very literal simple and without drama. 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

How about not giving someone the chance to judge you or project on you. Just cut the shit already. Once you're aware be witty. No personal messages. No entertaining other people's drama or nonsense. 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

Somehow what I have noticed about myself and other people like me (I jokingly refer to these people as type B, the ones who have always nursed their wounds and honed their identity under the shadow of type A people. I honed my diminutive identity around my mom because she always has to be this big person walking around, getting stuff done. Studies have shown that when you have a dominant personality, your survival mechanism involves being as submissive as possible or being diminutive as a consequence of that dominance. You're going to shrink psychologically as a direct impact of bigger people walking around you and I mean bigger in personality, not stature. This is also observed in plants. When you have a bigger plant, other plants around them are often stunted and experienced reduced height or get dwarfed. That's why taller plants are separated from the shorter ones to facilitate proper and fuller growth of smaller plants. If you have a dominating mother or father making you walk on eggshells your entire childhood, your own personality will shrink, you'll be type B as a direct harmful impact of a type A walking around you. 

A type B person in my opinion will have poorly framed boundaries, they will be unable to say no, unable to walk away promptly from bad situations. Unable to reject, people please a lot and not being opportunistic enough. The shadows that you'll develop will be mostly  Anti type A shadows. You will hate optimism. You'll embrace passivity and always be reluctant to any Type A activity or decision making style. Recognize this and work on your shadows. 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

There will always be unsavory characters on the internet. All scattered around. It's your job to filter out conflict or conflict inducing situations and people. This process must be done quickly, not at a snails pace. Hindsight I'm getting better at these processes. If someone is not spiritual enough or have the emotional intelligence to enquire or understand things, I don't want to be dealing with them, it leads to creating circles of conflict and even more circles that begin to look like traps. I try to avoid that. I wasn't good at this before. Now that I have a PhD in my experience around dysfunctional people successfully able to drive me off the cliff, I have gained enough experience in what to avoid. It's just that I have to be quicker than quick. Immediate reflex action. Don't wait it out. Don't get involved in those circles of unnecessary draining drama. Quickly take flight. Keep your sensors on. Keep your radar on. First and foremost no personal messages because there are people like Leo. They are one thing privately and another publicly. So it's impossible to know which side you should be on or which side is the real person. They create a double personality complex. Instead of spending time figuring out what the hell is even going on, just do not allow a window of opportunity to a person to play that double character game. Let it all hang out in the open. So there's less confusion that way. I like Phil's style of open video conversations. Nobody gets to play games that way. It's simple. If you wanna know someone, just talk to them, just chat. Just video call. The real person is always ready to do that. Notice how immediately such people back off the moment they have to show up their real selves. That's not even enough. You give them the opportunity to manipulate you by entertaining their stuff privately. 

 

You could come up with something like "hey I'm not comfortable with personal messages. I feel anxiety around it." 

 

There is no point in throwing blame. Yes there is victimization of some sort. But if you're proactive in cutting the bullshit around you, nobody can truly do shit to you. Nobody can truly mess with you unless you leave a loophole. 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena

[Reena]

In my short life around people, I have been viciously and brutally attacked and framed and set up for fail incessantly, I forgot to count at some point because it was like a barrage of attacks on my character and there was no point in defending myself. I wasn't wrong and I knew it but you can't go around fixing paranoid people. 

 

 

Edited May 3 by Reena