Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 How to bring Godness into our lives? Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 First begin with fulfillment. You can't begin from an emotionally unfulfilled place. Think that you already are everything you always wanted to be. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 What did I do to spiritually unwind today? What activity did I do to enhance my intellectual growth? What activity did I do to upgrade myself emotionally and psychologically? How is my routine schedule and what did I do to upgrade my productivity today? How did I heal myself today? How did I discern a situation today? How did I enhance my intuition today? Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 What did I do to spiritually unwind today? What activity did I do to enhance my intellectual growth? What activity did I do to upgrade myself emotionally and psychologically? How is my routine schedule and what did I do to upgrade my productivity today? How did I heal myself today? How did I discern a situation today? How did I enhance my intuition today? Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 Parts of the human self - Physical/Biological - Chemistry based. Sexual - structural and chemical based Mental/Somatic - Structural and Chemical based. Psychological - instinct and psyche based. Cultural - environment based. Cognitive - Intellect based. Emotional - instinct based. Feeling based. Spiritual - extra sensory based. Emotional expression. Emotional intensity. Emotional mastery. Emotional sensitivity. Emotional guidance. Emotional experience. Emotional intelligence. Emotional reactivity. Emotional stability. Emotional regulation. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 (edited) I decided to modify the Chakra system a bit and created my own Chakra system that takes human psyche into account. This is an illustration of my new spiritual model I plan to follow in my life. Chakra system that I have invented on the basis of the human psyche and it's parts. Ground Chakra. Physical/Biological - Chemistry based. Sexual - structural and chemical based Mental/Somatic - Structural and Chemical based. Productivity Chakra Psychological - instinct and psyche based. Cultural - environment based. Cognitive - Intellect based. Emotional Chakra Emotional - instinct based. Feeling based. Pali Chakra Spiritual - extra sensory based. Henceforth I'll use this system for my personal development and spirituality. I call it the Pali Chakra system. In the image, the ground chakra is represented by a pyramid or a solid structure. This is to represent the structural component of our existence. The middle axis is the spiritual component that governs all other components and i call it Pali (named after Pali language). The emotional component is represented by a bunch of sentimental letters. The productivity component is represented by the Aztec cultural symbol. Edited April 20 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 20 Author Share Posted April 20 It will make me feel more organized and complete. I'm already happy. I don't think I'm looking for happiness. But I needed a model that will combine both physical and spiritual growth because physical growth is sometimes shunned in spiritual communities or made to look like it's too materialistic. So I studied the human psyche and came up with this particular formula of how the human system operates in tandem with spirituality. Physical/Biological - Chemistry based. Sexual - structural and chemical based Mental/Somatic - Structural and Chemical based. Psychological - instinct and psyche based. Cultural - environment based. Cognitive - Intellect based. Emotional - instinct based. Feeling based. Spiritual - extra sensory based. After writing the different structural (that is organs for example sexual organs and organs necessary for survival like lungs or liver), chemical (enzymes and hormones), biological instincts, human psyche instincts (for example the instinct of withdrawing from something dangerous or unpleasant or the instinct to determine right from wrong meaning cognitive instincts), somatic instincts like sweating or hyper alert under stress, cultural factors like certain cultures allowing more space for natural pure expression of human emotions than others, emotions and the entire range of human emotions and finally spiritual where paranormal instincts can be involved for example extra sensory perception, both paranormal and supernatural phenomena combined with human spiritual practices that might be amplifying any spiritual phenomenon like a near death experience etc. I found that outside this model theres nothing left that a human experiences. Then I realized that my model bore a resemblance to the Maslows hierarchy of needs and the Chakra system too. So I modified it slightly to fit my model. This model takes every human factor into account. Hopefully nothing is left out. Following this model or framework for growth means complete all encompassing growth. So I find this model more wholesome. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 22 Author Share Posted April 22 (edited) Configuration. The configuration of the system is an important step. Next is evolvmemt. This involves the productivity and emotional Chakra. And next is planning. You gotta plan your spiritual activities. You need to make room for it. Developing and honing spiritual instinct. This is the hardest. Healing and transformation. Configuration Evolvmemt Planning Healing. Tranformation. Vulnerability. Action. Embodiment. Execution. Implementation. Alignment. Absorption. Activation. Vibration. Contentment. Connection. Edited April 22 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 22 Author Share Posted April 22 4 minutes ago, Reena said: Healing. Tranformation. Vulnerability. Action. Embodiment. Execution. Implementation. Alignment. Absorption. Activation. Vibration. Contentment. Connection. This covers different aspects of spirituality. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 22 Author Share Posted April 22 (edited) Configuration Evolvmemt Planning Healing. Tranformation. Vulnerability. Action. Embodiment. Execution. . . Implementation. Alignment. Absorption. Activation. Vibration. Contentment. Connection. Multi perspectival. Edited April 22 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 22 Author Share Posted April 22 I should focus on each. focus on health first Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 23 Author Share Posted April 23 (edited) I need to focus on each of these. Configuration Evolvmemt Planning Healing transformation Vulnerability action embodiment Execution Implementation Alignment Absorption Activation Vibration Contentment Connection Multiperspectival Edited April 23 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 23 Author Share Posted April 23 The spiritual practices that I use everyday - Meditation Emotion work Lucid dreaming Lsd - I don't do everyday but at least once every few months. guided imagery Journaling my spiritual insights thoughts. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted April 26 Author Share Posted April 26 The spiritual practices that I use everyday - Meditation Emotion work Lucid dreaming Lsd - I don't do everyday but at least once every few months. guided imagery Journaling my spiritual insights thoughts. Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted May 1 Author Share Posted May 1 (edited) I believe there's a God in everything. Edited May 1 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted May 1 Author Share Posted May 1 (edited) I just have to open my eyes to these unusual experiences.. Everything is alright. Everything is fine. It might not look hopeful in the moment. But there is connection. There's life out there. There's a source of goodness somewhere out there that will heal everything. Edited May 1 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted May 1 Author Share Posted May 1 (edited) Being somebody means having tons of burdens, worries, fears and expectations. On the other hand being nobody means belonging to everybody yet free from these personality burdens. I love being a nobody. Having a healthy small ego is so much better than a huge toxic ego. There's a certain wisdom in being a nobody. Edited May 1 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted May 1 Author Share Posted May 1 (edited) I never wanted to be known. I simply wanted to feel like I was in the right place, doing the right thing, feeling like I belonged where I was. Even that, as simple as it sounds, will put you in a mindset of searching and trying to make puzzle pieces fit that you know good and damn well don't. Being nobody and being alone suits me more than anything ever has. I'm reclusive but not socially inept although I'm autistic. I can function in society just fine but prefer solitude. People fight so hard to be a part of something and have notoriety, even if it's just in a group of friends. I don't like keeping appearances and maintaining a social image. For me spirituality is synonymous with being entirely authentic in your being. When I think of gatherings I get physically nauseated. I can't tolerate the false niceties and inquiries into what I have been up to. I understand that comes off as anti social. Really though it's a matter of I'm in a different place, waking up to the truth of reality and self. In that process I've come to the understanding that I have no desire to be anything to anyone. Right now I'm more excited about understanding the knowledge. I've been given through epiphanies, revelations and "a he's. " I barely recognize who I am anymore. Everyday is an adventure in trying to be loving to myself. Mostly it's a battle to stop being hateful to myself. Mind numbing grief, depression and anxiety is a hole that keeps digging itself deeper. When I woke up, I was in terror and dread, fight or flight 24/7 for more than a month . While there are still some really bad days I've never been more okay with myself, my family, my life and the truth of it all. When you finally understand who you are, what you are, why you're here and what this place is, life becomes a different concept, I don't mean when you hear about it, and it sounds like it might be right. I mean you have a knowing. You're hit with such profound truth, that acceptance makes you decide to enjoy your experience on this planet. The only goal I have now is to cultivate my self to the level of my being. I think the truest way to serve is to know thyself and hone the light, so that others might see it and know their own light as well. The personality is there to interact with the world, the spirit is there to experience the world, the body is there to move through this world. I've been allowed the realization that the only thing we get to take with us when we go home is the experience we had and the knowledge we acquired. Experience and knowledge yes. The beauty of the earth is mind boggling. Edited May 1 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted May 2 Author Share Posted May 2 (edited) Our greatest wealth is our spiritual wealth. Whatever spiritual abilities, intentions, resources and treasures we bring with us are the only ones that will accompany us in the afterlife. Along with the lives of our precious pets and other sentient beings that connect to the same spiritual source through us. We are the conduit of spiritual energy collectively. Edited May 2 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reena Posted May 2 Author Share Posted May 2 (edited) Positive affirmations about my life I'm flourishing I'm thriving I'm doing better My life is going great My life is happy My life is enriched. My life is beautiful My life is deeply spiritual My life is intuitively developing and thriving My life is energy supported My life has divine force My life is colorful and creative, holistic and organic My life is hot and happening My life is full of life. Edited May 2 by Reena Quote Mention So basically I'm an autistic INFJ BPD sigma Pisces female with anger and CPTSD issues. Wow wow. My plate looks full. I Couldn't have been weirder than that. Now I get why I'm so idiosyncratic. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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