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doing my own version of these songs as well, so all the instrumentals as well as being as creatively as it wisely serves originality here this one is a truly fucking beautiful song coming up on the 14th, they all will be so much for me to learn from each individual song and all the meanings and worlds from the lyrics, can't wait to share the world with it as well

covers will all be professionally done from now on as for my other covers, you can appreciate their *off the cuff* nature and compare them with the newer every song I do from now on is also extremely carefully selected and with every song I will share a written world about that song and what the song is about so I can impart the wisdom I can as well as ground it in reality for where the song doesn't speak for me im uploading the brainwave stuff later today, reuploading the theta version, upped the sound of theta and decreased the sound of the metronomes wont be giving details on the song you'll have to do your research there next comment will have the reuploads and last comment till june 14th no more than one new world a week i call them worlds not songs as that's what i'll be sharing

There's nothing I can share on this site anymore. I'm fucking done. From here on out, I'm just doing my writing privately and sharing my covers here. At tops, writing ONLY with the covers I share. But no where fucking else. If you want ideas from me, yeah I'm open to chat but I've given enough for anyone to draw the right inferences on their own; I'm so fucking explicit. I've already conquered so much incredible ground that a beginner, novice, intermediate, advanced and teacher can learn so much fucking life from. I'm not dumbing myself down either. So if I share, its always from the heart and its me through and through with the covers (possibly some original stuff but so far I don't want any branding overlap with this site. This is a spirituality site after-all and my music and my progress is a reflection of where I am, not to contemplate whether or not my fucking branding or any other personal stuff is compatible with this site, of course its fucking not.) So again any future writing will only be in this journal, and it'll only be something that's too fucking ridiculous to try to understand to the depth you need to unless you spend at least an hour digesting and being creative with it; only stuff that mind-blows me which mean it if its mind blowing to me, you may need to wait to your next life to get it. I will never make this site famous, that isn't the purpose of a spirituality site. So writing my father's memoirs as a book and composing an album in honor of him by his birthday November 1st in private now, brothers co-authoring, ideating with me where they can they're already giving me a lot of great support (its a secret though that I'm the most creative, I never rub it in their face as they're amazing guys in their own right). This is fucking life. Make the adjustments you need to. Best.

@Forza21 seeing life as pointless is simply because someone is making the choice knowingly or unknowingly to live a choiceless life. I know what its like to be plagued by a nervous system that cannot get out of what is denial based justification as a substitute for choice based living while masquerading as choice based living. Our brains have a purpose, our hands have a purpose, our skin, organs, etc,etc and if someone thinks not, let's let the divinity of existence start subtracting one of those one by one or the inverse of that let's let divinity take away the external environment piece by piece and we'll soon start admitting to how "no you can't take this or that I or we need it for this and that" in the general positivism sense (outside of getting rid of all the noise we don't need). In so saying as much, I've realised that sometimes this is just a sometimes necessary state one needs to go through in order to appreciate the inverse to its full level, if I didn't have the deep seeded myopic depressive ignorance I went through following the passing away of my father. Even though he wasn't the perfect guy as I so far partially imply on the second page of my Books journal he still lived a very courageous life and came at a great loss to all our family and lives as an inspiration to our whole family line as I will be with those brothers that are contributing outside of so far encouraging me to the the writing of his memoirs. This in short, to instruct present to potential future generations to come based on his life experiences that we piece together through his impact on us as well as being a means for all of us to find closure for both the life we lived with him and the life we're now living after his physical existence in this particular dimension of reality. It's much more difficult for me to speak wisely on this subject if I haven't gone through it and my very realising of this demonstrates the lesson to me simultaneously how important it is to simulate alternate realities to our own. This to not only provide unique scopes on our present reality but also to generate an enlightened true scope on the reality of another through our empathy. Which, when paired with both the feeling of our actualisation, that of another and the distinction in our realities the larger shared reality in which we live, compassion in that distinction is much more possible. That without, "You are a rock that I am telling I am right" and you are wrong and if you don't believe me, I'm either walking away, skimming your rock against the water or pretending that I'm different by acting like the rock you're being like and crashing up against you until we both destroy one another non-sensically. True power comes from the power of observing not only what is there but the being who is observing it as well so that there exists the power to transcend the paradigm in which that observation is occurring, this is how true generals win true wars and too, those wars that should never occur in the first place, even if it does give us wisdom to go through those experiences that without other wisdom would be much more difficult to realise. Much could be the same with respect to our less than ideal states. Most people on Earth fight a daily struggle between the internal world, the external world and searching to find the ideal alignment between them both while trying to cope with the dissonance of wondering whether they're on the right path or not. Throughout this "Idealism Lock" occurring psychologically within they're pressured by life to find resolves through wars they would have been better without than having to of gone through that suffering in order to realise that wisdom, especially because as we all know of course, many people don't make it out of some of those "Idealism locks" they're in within their present paradigms. Sometimes and in some demographics a lot of the time, very sadly it almost seems inevitable that those idealism locks become increasingly more difficult to unlock by the day as the person experiences more suffering, more dissonance and more negative growth on the intelligence they need to get out of the manifolds of entrapment as negative choice becomes more and more confusing and positive choice more and more difficult to see and more obscured through the layers of perception and the origins in which our choices play out in consciousness through the veil of truth we're being asked to make choices through. So we ask ourselves, why on earth is their so much suffering in the world and how on earth is it at all divine if so much of the time these pressures turn into inevitable grim reapers that not only take us by the dozens and destroy networks of social love but even massive atrocities that takes us by the billions even if it is the degredation of our collective cognition through poor technological inventions from social media to the popularisation of dumber and dumber films and the conditioning of the population through these means? That's a pretty good fucking question and I'm not going to sit here and pretend like I have the ideal answer, I don't, however what I do know, is that obviously, not being born under absolutely perfect conditions and not born as an absolutely perfect being then going through the process of learning how to go through experiences which test my resolve. This test functions as a challenge to my awareness so that I learn to appreciate awareness and make greater insights that favour awareness when I compare what happens when I fail to appreciate and make distinctions between the truth of my perception vs the truth of preference relative to the truth of reality and what historically shows. Understanding experiences of the negative and the positive leads to my appreciation of the difference between the wars that must be fought like our war within and our battle with life wisdom and the wars that must be avoided after experiencing their consequences. Months before my father passed away, both he and I didn't appreciate each other nearly as much as we did drawing closer to his passing and me after his passing along with the legacy that he truly left behind for me in my memories and for me to look at honestly and learn from so that I don't have to repeat the same mistakes he did. This is at our highest awareness how we're meant to generationally respond to our elders experiences but of course as we know it can be difficult to do this when we're stuck in some variation of ego and are not able to empathise, distinguish between one another's realities in the way described above where an intersection in consciousness between us results in the unity that not only bonded us in the first place but also bonds us to the greater future we're meant to create from us learning from each other's experiences as honestly, respectfully, honorably but also as dominantly and powerfully as we possibly can, just as the highest wisdom of our ancestors would have wanted. The contrast of present life can sometimes act so paradoxically to the contrast of the life we have lived over our entire lives and this really fucking hit me big time as I reflected on my father's life and his passing, where, beneath that separation created by less than ideal appreciation even though it lives in the denial of the past, ironically, its living in the greatness of the future we still must create which is why the less appreciation existed to begin with. These choices about appreciation or less than, are not always conscious and most of the time from appreciation to many other emotional and energetic spectrums with great existential implications they're quite extremely irrational, like extremely, extremely, extremely irrational, however we need to learn overtime to both appreciation their function for informing us what greatness its pointing us towards in its existence in the first place, aka understanding its purpose like our hands, eyes, etc, like the balancing vs juxtaposition of the masculine and feminine, and secondly, learning overtime to live through those irrationalities through our highest wisdom, therefore bringing them balance and rationality when looked at from a larger reference frame. That larger reference which has brought me both understanding and disappointment when I think about the life I've lived with my father and my family, as well as anger to incredible gratitude at both myself and external circumstances, which in the interplay of learning inside my consciousness that occurs, there is just an increasingly greater differentiation on what the truth was so that I carry that into my life actions, remembered as memories by those around me, so that they remember my legacy, as much as I now remember the complex legacy of my father in the highest deserving honor that my consciousness can generate. The contrast of suffering and seemingly meaninglessness that we all live was for me just denial based living for me to learn how to appreciate what its opposite looks like and how to distinguish between creating the war that I must live and bond myself to towards meaningful suffering vs the war of peace and understanding I work to create so that not only the legacy I leave behind can be easily bonded to but so that I create the necessary space, freedom and openness in my own consciousness to bond to the legacy left behind by others and the greatness they wish to move us all towards when we truly understand the highest examples they left behind of their love. Love of war, war of love.

Lesson 2: Plugged All of these are much more quickly written. Bringing this journal to a close until after November 1st like the others unless otherwise stated. Every middle (not right or left) handed moron talks about being unplugged into today's times and I agree with them hence why I made it number one, however what is the fundamental problem with plugging in anyway and what is worth plugging into? Plugging into implies that's where we're we are activating our power as well as there being a power exchange at play. We can perform power exchanges from consciousness to consciousness to set of consciousnesses, consciousness to idea, movement, paradigm, philosophy and more. Essentially, any emotion, thought, phenomenon or state we're giving our time, energy and attention to is where there is a consciousness exchange at play. My theory and its nothing Albert Einstein as its something we're all pretty observant of, is that the majority of the human race are not very intelligent when it comes to the discernment of truth and falsity and thus what normally occurs is that in todays present environment because there's so many destructive options to choose from to just options that are less than the truth, Russian roulette here most people tend to get shot (as in, choose some negative, generally an internal one) and its just a matter of the kind of gun and bullet they're going to get shot with and how aware they're going to be aware afterwards that they should probably do a switch up and make some life decisions, along with how quickly they both separately, heal and grow from those decisions and make the decisions along the way that are going to support the latter two. [I'm not going to tell anyone to eat healthy, exercise, go outside more, feel the earth beneath you, be careful who you let into your social circle, etc, etc as you should of course already know these things because at least thank god we've had people preach the obvious here to increase the likelihood that people do things that are more positive for their consciousnesses well-being. Oh and if there's any +1 from me in this conversation in the practical sense, do the Wim Hof method breathing through your nose (so you don't incur the negatives that are possible like variations of lightheadedness). And by the way I've already talked about how to improve discernment by seeking falsity and all that see my Life Wisdom journal for some good pointers there that have helped me. ] The biggest problem I see though is that the majority of the population of humans on planet earth are making their decisions on paradigms and abstractions of the external rather than paradigms and abstractions of the internal. For example, they're deciding between what externals are going to serve their internal world like deciding between fast food restaurants and social media platforms, then arguing about the culture of food and social life thinking that starting marching campaign is going to solve the issue more than they're learning to become aware of not just the internal world but the plurality to that, learning to abstract towards and from these worlds as their means of serving their differentiation of truth and falsity and then living out their external life through this means. This simple difference by the way is how we get stuck in blaming our parents for our shitty lives or just victimhood about anything rather than pulling a Viktor Frankl and the diary of Anne Frank. That is to say, that because we're not able to differentiate between the worlds internally we get absolutely stuck in those internal worlds thinking we're representing ourselves and do something analogous to a negative for our well-being like blame mode. Blaming is sweet, don't get me wrong, my psychology loves to blame and shame just as much as some goofer on the street crying out why no one will give em a dollar for their homelessness (no disrespect to the homeless, you've got a legitimate struggle and thus all power to you), however most of the time including myself in the past at times, blaming and shaming is so often done unstrategically relative to what would actually serve the growth of the situation. We have an internal world so that we can assess the external world not so we can fly around on our internal worlds monkey bars, learn a bunch of cool tricks in our imagination only to then act like a complete buffoon in the external realm as if to say we don't even have any kind of internal worlds when in fact we all do, the difference between us is simply how much we have grown our hearts and brains (for the most part) to serve their maturity versus how much we haven't and we've plugged into, yep I'm going to say it here I know cliche now right but don't use it as an excuse to watch the film heh... The Matrix. This whole post is understanding what to plug into in our life and what most people don't realise is that The Matrix wasn't just about unplugging, it was about plugging into our inner world in a very special way. The Matrix was all about plugging into our inner world that generated inner authority, responsibility and power over the external not with greater ego but a genuine unification of internal energy that brought us closer to reality and therefore our unity with the external. The identification of internal worlds and abstractions is the first step in our awareness at establishing self-governance. Self-governance is the authority we have over our being and its internal worlds only first established by what makes up our government and our responsibilities towards it in order to be able to do anything close to internal governance. This successful internal governance though is the very inner union that establishes external union as through the former we're growing the intelligence that organises our understanding on how to best use and grow our perception amidst its organisation of the rest of the main areas of our nervous system towards higher and higher levels of self-communication (self-communication as stated will be my next lesson that I go much more deeply into after November 1st as stated in my Life Wisdom journal). The rest of those main areas being the very areas of being that take part in the construction of and are responsible for our inner worlds. The Matrix taught us to unplug, and what it also taught is that when we learn to plug into ourselves, just as Morpheus stated "He's beginning to believe", all that statement implied was the simpler version of what I'm stating here where Neo learn's to hone his energy centres so much that the internal unifies with the external and there is no longer this false sense of separation and union instead separation union is now based in the truth of genuine alignment with the centres that makeup being, aka he's PLUGGING INTO WHAT MAKES UP BEING, UNIFYING THOSE ENERGY CENTRES AND THEN LIVING THE SELF THROUGH THAT CENTRE POINT FOLLOWED BY UNPLUGGING FROM THE MATRIX THAT USED TO FALSELY FEED HIM THE FALSE CONSTRUCTION THAT THE EXTERNAL WORLD DETERMINED HIS INTERNAL WORLD, AKA BECAUSE HE "HAD TO" BE PLUGGED INTO THE EXTERNAL IN SOME WAY, IF HE WAS UNSATISFIED WITH THE EXTERNAL OR VICE VERSA, HE'S SELF HAD TO MOULD IN A WAY THAT SERVED THAT FALSE CONSTRUCTION. For Neo pre-true-belief, the false construction aka the matrix was his only means of determining that he had a self and how he should change. The external became the union he had to unify to rather than him serving the external through his internal union. Unplugging in the described sense doesn't mean switching off from the external, it means because we still have to plug into the right thing at the end of the day plugging into our internal divine intelligence that to the extent of that internal unity we just naturally serve our divine spiritual purpose in the exact same way portrayed in the film. Neo doesn't go to a fucking cave and sit there for the rest of his nonconsequential life or just live on the ship eating, shitting and sleeping until he dies haha that would be utterly purposeless and it would only be teaching that life is purposeless when its a false teaching for any matter created there is a juxtaposition to that matter which serves its purpose. Black is significant because we have white, white is significant because we have black, contrast informs meaning and meaning is informed by the order from the chaos that creates it which higher order of then serves the higher purpose we're discerning from the chaos consciousness that is otherwise our life when we're just sititng there doing absolutely nothing, not trying to unify our beings in the way that speaks to their greater intelligence, its totally and utterly a misunderstanding of the purpose of human nature even if its better than us wasting our lives away on eating popcorn, well of course it is duh, but a better alternative even if it is a better alternative that's workable doesn't mean that's what we should be doing, we should just be trying to workout the truth to consciousness and reality and the truth to both is never going to be the meaning we find from contrast and comparison in the same way black means something to white and vice versa based on being its opposite. The true meaning of black and white is held in context with everything else of course outside aesthetics like how human consciousness perceives light and creates sight in order for our visual field to have any meaning to us whatsoever, and that's just one dichotomous paradigm of light and sight to non light and sight that means something to the truth to consciousness and reality with respect to the nature of black and white just in the same way that the benefits of going into a cave and that being your place of shitting and eating is not the end of your search for truth and meaning and you know it and you're lying to yourself if you think otherwise, you're just retiring from life which is all good if you've reached that point but you can't say that you're genuinely living it if that's the way you're going to choose the way to live the rest of your life if you're say age 7. Your parents shouldn't have had you if that's the case and I shouldn't give birth to my future children if that's the kind of life that I want them to live, I mean surely you see how crazy that is right? I'm going to have children so that when they're 7 they can graduate to live in a cave for the rest of their lives, I mean what the fuck? Clearly what's happened is, I've become so fucked in the head that I think the purpose to life is having children and having them watch over life in a cave and then to eventually give in to pleasure whereby they repeat the same process by having children so that they too get to experience a life of shoveling poo and food scraps from the cave because there's no toilets or bins there and then repeating the generational cycle. I mean, this is the perfect example that can help us see the absolute absurdity of modern society as well and what people have fallen into the matrix of. They have children and they give em to the matrix of society by endorsing the role of government to have them indoctrinated into whatever label the government wants to give them, they serve the government . I mean, no wonder why to some people living in a cave to shit, eat and meditate is like a "better than alternative" here because they see how wasteful government, society and the like are being but what we need to learn to become where we have the lifespan is the people that shape government and society or at the very least, continue to not give up by learning to understand ourselves and follow our divine purpose that follows from that genuine understanding that can only come from the growing and maturity of our intelligence overtime to then inform ourselves to make decisions always either "greater than i.e. the matrix" or in service to that something greater based on achieving that higher level of inner unity that automatically leads to decisions speaking to the greater unification of all of life not just what's within if we're truly becoming mature and responsible human beings where our existence matters more than the shit we're shoveling out of our cave and the meaning of our existence sort of spells out why the earth has to put up with us shitting on it and eating it rather than just being entitled little brats thinking well okay our species just deserves this. No, our deserving only comes relative to our capacity for unification and its as simple as that because as more broadly we go out the more disunity there is that's a direct correlation between the degeneration of the planet in which we live and that continues to sustain our existence and our incapacity to continue the existence of our species, so there's zero argument here to be made even in the context of where you try to turn a cave planet, aka Mars, into something like Earth only because it doesn't have humans there yet to fuck it up and create the positive there towards what would turn it into the same imbalanced solution to eradicate our species and its perfectly sound reasoning to say that's just simply what we deserve if we don't choose unification. It's nothing personal, its nothing against us there's not judgement its just a natural course of what happens to species the less they're able to what we call "adapt and survive", our purpose has nothing to do with survival and everything to do with unification, survival is an implication to our unification, we've reached that point now where we've created so much instability through our desire to survive that we now have no choice but to choose the highest option that created us to begin with, for no life at all is possible on planet earth including the makeup of our beings structure without the unification of that structure and its balance with the environment that creates it i.e. you've never seen a skeleton walking around outside of films, etc right? It requires the rest of the body to be unified with it in order to exist and continue to exist. And this is of course the great conclusion to my reference to The Matrix analogy, Neo realised this as well. He reached his highest unification, and therefore his mere existence monotony of his survival and adaptation in a failing paradigm turned into his highest unification that bonded him to the change of the world. Change of the world not through destruction though there were cool fighting scenes but through the understanding of the laws of the matrix and governing himself towards the highest unification between the matrix and his highest personal inner resolve, which is precisely what every human being needs to achieve. The discovery of their highest personal inner resolve towards the external based on the unifying of self through the discovery, organisation, development and maturity of their inner intelligence that shows them through their intuition their purpose and how to go and get shit done based on this self-determined pursuit. This now concludes the groundwork for what to plug into concerning our own existence. Now I'm going to become a little bit more practical here. Experience is very much just like television programming and you realise this the more awareness you have, including bodily awareness especially the informational feedback between areas of awareness as they get into this back and fourth between describing to one another the kinds and natures that exist within and between them and how they cooperate, as well as the more awareness you've learned to use in the right way kind of as described here, the more you will become aware of the fact that mere thought, emotion, energy production from all the right centres and so on and so fourth as I've been talking about throughout my journals in different ways, is purely television programming. That's all well and good but what is your relationship to that television programming? Are you just some "Jedi Witness" that does nothing with their life though by the way I've never known a Jedi to do nothing with their life I mean we all grew up with Star Wars right, or are you worse, a character caught in the television program just running their usual script like an actor would in a television according to how they were told by the producer aka all of their environmental influences if we extent the analogy to real life? And of course I'm sure I don't need to say that Neo is the character that became aware that he was a part of a television program with predetermined lines in the exact same way The Architect tried to convince him of, that everything was predetermined more or less and that there was nothing he could do about it, he was trying to convince him that he didn't have any free will, that he was stuck in the program and there was nothing he could do to escape the next line in the script that was assigned to him. Lastly, to conclude Neo here, what he does is exactly not only what I have stated but he achieved god realisation, that's what it was all about if we correctly analogise the the unfoldment of his evolution in a spiral dynamics way with the unfoldment of his spiritual enlightenment if you've all seen the trilogy. I have already given the Origins point of the Matrix in reference to the path towards higher development, the recognition of the internal and therefore the beginning of the separation with the deterministic universe created by The Architect and the realisation of internal unity that translates into unification with The Matrix through the following of the divine purpose that naturally unfolds via the realisation of the unification point which is the nexus of the highest intelligence achieved within in recognition of the highest intelligence of the universe, the endpoint of this realisation then for any human, is god realisation. It's not rocket science, people just have ego backlashes about it. Moreover there's different levels of understanding here, you can get it intellectually but then fail emotionally and totally forget the rest of the world around you including your loved ones that are living their lives locked or unlocked, unplugged from the bad and plugged into the good or not. It's very easy to make god-realisation just another form of ego-realisation and we call it narcissism and the way to distinguish between the two is you don't need god realisation, you're just moving to the most intelligent direction of your development as informed by your inner worlds aka inner energy centres that they're just going to take you there naturally the more awareness and communication they have with one another, that's just how these laws play out in this particular universe, as in, that's the deterministic resolve and throughout our existence there is this continual balance between determinism of the binding laws and those same laws that have freedom in them which enable any kind of god realisation and therefore the capacity to live beyond determinism in the first place. Most people are called deterministic rat in mazes because they fucking are, its exactly how the matrix created them. None of em introspect, differentiate and unite all the aspects of their being so how the fuck are they going to have any awareness that is different from the masses that speak to the deterministic action they've been taught to be conditioned to follow? So of course there's no free will Sam Harris, it an't rocket science, the universe is not rocket science, we create lots of cool stuff because we have the intelligence to break and make and overtime we're getting better and better here, however its a natural consequence to this non-rocket science world that as our self understanding grows combined with our awareness, so too does our escape from any imprisonment to determinism, again its not rocket science, its not something that's cool although it can be liberating and its important for many ego's on this planet to have a sense of free will but sense doesn't equal free will nor the ego for it, understanding and genuine awareness is all that is equal to any supposed free will that I most certainly whole heartedly believe in relative to that understanding because God beyond this physical body certainly didn't live in a deterministic universe to create the one we live in to realise our own god realisation. So... I'm going to end this here, otherwise its going to be more and more difficult to top my writing in the future haha. Remember, these are meant to just be micro lessons of the times. But to just get a hint for more here, being a god is just something you are and have to accept as a consequence of being more god than a stupid ant. I mean, you have the power to create such amazing things in your mind that an ant would never be able to do, in so saying as much, you are a god and the more you unplug from all the gaslighting (which by the way Leo was a good video, I give you a lot of smack sometimes but you did a really, really great job on that video) that's trying to dissociate you from this natural realisation of your power, the more you're going to be able to tap into it, realise yourself beyond merely being an actor in a television programming spitting out and being affected by all your bodies programming telling you how to think, feel and act, and instead more and more tap into the awareness that leads to the intelligence of self-governance that I have been talking about throughout this post which matures the relationship between the centres that create those thoughts, feelings, etc and the intelligence between those origin points and governing points to create an increasingly more developed and advanced Self. This is god realisation from the perspective of your divide with the universe, as in you were created from one sense to rule the universe by relative extents simply because you have any power at all, aka what humans are simultaneously trying to do while still getting gaslighted on it and then those same people trying to do it hence why any word like *empowerment* exists at all, and then you have the capital G god realisation with respect to the highest unification between self and universe. It's super, super simple and not complicated at all, the complications are merely the gaslighting which is basically everything that Neo was programmed to believe that operated against that moment happening where Morpheus said that above line, "He's beginning to believe", as in all the brainwashing, social and conditioning that was acting against his interests towards making the necessary realisations towards this spoken Unity Intelligence. The Matrix is a dramatisation of what we're capable of granted, at least presently, however we need those extreme examples to juxtapose present life so we can see it in practice much more vividly, contrast helps our understanding just as the maximum contrast of bringing black and white next to one another with another colour like red and blue gives us the contrast necessary to serve an imagination for every other colour that is possible between and them. To me The Matrix is one colour of that 2 colour and 2 shade contrast comparison where our world is the black and white world that we exist in which the majority struggle to imagine the colour of, our inner world is one colour that shows us the potential for the broad spectrum of colour we're yet to realise and share unification with the outside world on so that we can bring unification of the inner and outer in their meeting of unifying colours with the boldness of black as instead our parameters and the white as the path of light that we do not bend in seeing and following. Plugged in. I'll be back here on November 2nd or later as stated in previous journals.

In this order: Environment Social Bodily awareness Emotional awareness Cognitive awareness Environment (encompassing all 5 in this particular response): In our early ancestry times were tough, cause and effect implies competition, aka competition between something being soft or hard, fast or slow, dangerous or not, so on and so fourth. This competition means that this cause and effect is going to exist with our states, meaning love is going to be competing with every state that is not love and towards the negative. Environment is what made us, self-love can exist without the cognitive awareness of its absence and how to get it as in it can become conditioned in someone without any thought at all say due to being brought up in a more stable environment including within the body. If one wants to move from low self-love to the highest self love then awareness is the most important in order to be able to understand what to do, followed by the bodily awareness that gives us feedback on how to get there. Social is the second best reason, as everyone can of course easily infer parental upbringing, the social environment we have from childhood to adulthood even, its perpetually affecting and conditioning our nervous systems towards either more self-love or less, for example imagine being Jewish in the times of Nazi Germany inside one of the camps, all Jewish people were being conditioned towards self-hate and people like Viktor Frankl had the awareness to do something a little different to the opposite due to his cognitive awareness combined with his emotional awareness to have the empathy to transpose what he was seeing over the effects it was having on his mind, notice the subtle differences within enough to translate that into a vision of how he could instead behave, see the effects that would have if they could do this, then remain persistent in meeting their inner declaration towards a particular state. I'm not sure how much awareness vs brute force was involved here, however the latter is only as good as the former works when it comes to noticing our various changes in states and then being able to have the nuaned awareness on the mechanics to make the subtlest to then greatest changes through this means. Lastly, this is a really great point to end on as we compare being able to this compared with how the environment conditions most people, which is to have a short, addictive, impulsive attention span making their capacity for such transformations much more something that happens slowly rather than automatically depending on how much their behaviour has negatively impacted their ongonig development concerning their powers of control and mediating their own state here. Things are getting worse and worse here as well as more and more people become brainwashed to offset their personal responsibilities and the growth in their brain and being they get from that to having AI like ChatGPT do all the work and thinking for them. If I were to start in any place on how to improve it, it would be awareness that was as bodily based as possible so that cognition is only used where its actually directly applicable so the mind isn't using the mind to block out emotions but instead purely use itself as a processing and growth tool when it comes to transforming. We can blame our presents, or we can just notice the emotion and work with body to psychological awareness (rather than the stifling effect of using the mind to influence the body unless its from a self aware place) to mature awareness that translates into slowly breaking through those folds altogether where that kind of initial onion peeling that irritates the eyes feels more like a watermellon that's gotta just be cut to size in the right places and then once we get it right everything's all fucking juicy; meaning, the loves automatically there, we just gotta get beyond all the crap and then all the stuff that creates the self love starts working right as it should do. It's not something we import from the outside as the materialistic western world wants us to believe, including Big Pharma who wants people to be depressed, its already within us, its just about learning to turn on the right stuff to create that right stuff.

BACK HERE TOMORROW TO SHARE THE OTHER THREE. (ALPHA, BETA, GAMMA) (YOUTUBE UPLOAD LIMIT REACHED SO HAVE TO WAIT 24 HOURS BEFORE I CAN BEGIN UPLOADING AGAIN) SEE PREVIOUS POST TO UNDERSTAND THE BPM'S THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS.... 2 MORE BPM'S HAVE BEEN ADDED. 1 BP 5 MINUTES AND 1 BP 10 MINUTES I WILL GO INTO THE MECHANICS ON THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN TIME (AKA TIMING OF METRONOMES AND THUS HOW WE CAN INTELLIGENTLY USE METRONOMES TO ENHANCE THE MINDS FUNCTIONING), MEMORY, SENSORY STIMULATION (I.E. SOUND), PSYCHOLOGY AND CONSCIOUSNESS IN MY LIFE WISDOM JOURNAL WHEN I RETURN TO IT WHICH AS STATED WILL BE NOVEMBER 2ND OR LATER. TOMORROW WILL BE MY LAST POST HERE UNTIL JUNE 14TH.

@WhiteOwl and keep sharin "the good stuff" (as in, these kinds of ideas/videos you're sharing). this is how i inject my spirituality and pass out on the floor of Basketball Diaries. Appreciating the sniff.

yeah good stuff, there's there are these relationships between perception, awareness, experience and the phenomenological state and experience of mind that are really fascinating, good work.

So bringing this journal to a close now until at least November 2nd as well. I wanted to end with a subcomponent of what was going to be a larger blueprint of “6. Self-Communication” as the next life principle or some better title than this, however I will focus on this specific area of self-communication relative to how I see it as largely a gap in the field of psychology, therapeutic practice of any kind and just the functioning of literally any person I have ever come across with the exception of what I am growing and noticing within myself. An’t that fucking bullshit? You got it. When I read how deep peoples problems are as well, I barf at my previous self thinking that my expressions have been easy to take in, understand and self-realise immediately so sorry about that. There are of course, pre-existing micro-habits we’re following within being that we’re not even aware of that after their employment our hearts are already being made up by a mind that is following automatic patterns that we can’t just immediately untangle with an all encompassing insight that needs more constructive footing, so this may be my approach here in the future a little more. So I stated this in my previous post: “super nuanced ideas: on the interrelationships between awareness, intelligence, agency, will, creativity, consciousness, regulation, growth, plasticity and more” Which understandably, would mean absolutely nothing relative to where there is the absence of experience in feeling those interrelationships first hand experientially when it says comes to being hyper-aware of the movement of activity and the rest of our nervous system. This will be my approach at the very least with the following next and last life lesson until I have done the personal inner work I need to do following my father’s passing between now and November 2nd. 4. Heart to brain awareness to building "pain/sensation" receptors in the right areas and back again. As simply as possible… Brain and heart equal farms that grow different types of energy. One of those energies is our awareness. Our awareness can increase and decrease as well as change its qualities relative to the qualities and strength of energies produced by the brain and heart. Including, how those energies interact between the two and connect with one another. The brain and the heart are like two separate consciousnesses designed to generate information that is valuable in helping us decide the decisions we should make in life. When our hearts are damaged, our brains become damaged. When our brains become damaged, our hearts become more vulnerable to damage. When either is damaged, our minds become damaged. When our minds become damaged, our awareness becomes damaged. When our awareness becomes damaged, our sentience becomes damaged. Notice our there is a distinction between all of these. At the fundamental level, when it comes to the future more broad discussion on “5. Self communication”, we want to be able to have all of our centres functioning and communicating as best as possible because they each create energy which contribute to any one unified energy in the present moment that is really made up of all these and more interacting generators and spaces between them. The creation and movement of energy relative to the design of spiritual purpose is all that instructs our lives and how we wish to live them, or can live them. The mastery of this creation and movement then is in our self-knowledge of these centres, their interactions and the employment of our awareness, which is a certain kind of energy, on the energy they create relative to that spiritual purpose. If there is damage to any one of these generators and movers of energy, there is damage to the energy that creates our spiritual purpose and leads us to following our spiritual purpose. Spiritual purpose being the very reason that we would at all be interested in generating any level of wisdom about life, even if that spiritual purpose hasn’t yet been articulated well to ourselves yet. Spiritual purpose being a natural consequence of the healthy interaction between the heart and brain to produce the awareness that creates a mind which self-reflects on the experiential energies its gone through in life where spiritual purpose acts as an energetic mirror relative to the health of mainly these two generators of experience. But first before I go any further, are you even aware of your heart? Do you feel anything there? Do you feel its subtle energies? I used to struggle with dissociative symptoms due to my early upbringing so I can tell you that there used to be periods where I just wouldn’t experience anything in my body really so I understand what it’s like to not even be really aware of anything there especially when I’m not used to it. It’s amazing you know, we go through life never identifying important energy generators like these that are there to help guide us in our lives and instead of navigating these areas with the wisdom of their strategic mastery we just kind of go with the ebb and flow of one feeling to the next “I feel x therefore I will do y” or “I don’t feel x therefore I won’t do y”. A regular psychologist would be trained to get one to use cognitive behavioural therapy techniques which essentially improves the heart-brain communication indirectly because they’re getting you to critically think about emotions but in an experiential cognitively explorative way. However, this only indirectly gets into the experiences of the curvatures of the heart and any other important place say within our brains in the some way a cryptographic linguist is in a brute force way going from one password to the next. What we need to learn is CBT, sure its got one thing right, its good to come up with linguistic patterns that help our awareness locate emotional patterns that need addressing but its in a PATTERN-MATCHING way more than it is simply learning that there’s a pain at the tip of your toe because you have touch receptors located there that are capable of sending a signal from your toe to your brain and then to your mind for you to be aware of “I have a pain in my toe and it feels like x degrees with y qualities”. That’s a hell of a lot more reliable than PATTERN-MATCHING whereby you’re cryptographically going from one question to the next drilling the brain asking it where the pain is based on pairing a pattern of possibility with the pattern of occurrence going from one area of the body to the next, and that’s if you even choose to check if there’s pain. Most likely you’ll have to wait until you see your toe bleeding as your feedback before you’ll bother to contemplate or at the very least make the inference that its worth contemplating. Don’t you think then its a lot better to develop pain receptors if we didn’t have any, like that would be a good invention right? Don’t you think that this is a much better way to go about it for our emotional lives and other energetic purposes (i.e. intuitive life)? Why the hell am I the only dude that’s thought of this? Anyhow, who cares let’s just get down to business. So at the beginning I titled this “Heart to brain awareness to receptors and back again.”, so what we’re simply doing is analogously speaking, taking our arm and saying to ourselves “what does our left/right arm look like, feel like in as nuanced and detailed of a way as possible? Secondly, what are all its possible actions?” To do this we have to rotate our arms around, build a memory bank of all the features, go from big picture thinking to detailed patterns, and more than this, what does all of this work actually mean when it comes to building our arm strength? How about in comparison to another persons arms? We have to then build an inventory of awareness around the right exercises and our goals here. And secondly, slowly develop an inventory on how other peoples arms are different as another way we can generate creative ideas and accurate perceptions on our arm?” And then that’s of course all just on the outside, we can of course get x-rays, ultra-sounds and more. So why haven’t we created this for our hearts and brains yet? Because we’re stupid ego based creatures that are set in our ways and sometimes miss the most obvious of ideas that’s all it is. Our feeling, emotional and cognitive worlds are so rich and complex, what’s even more difficult is that they’re located beneath a layer of flesh, and worse, scientific, cultural and social dogma to drama about the truth of our functioning heh. So, we’ve already been focusing on advancements in this area through neurofeedback devices, I remember something like the emotiv epoch for example, however what is fundamentally more important is the neurofeedback device that’s already in our head. Our freaking awareness yo and the feedback loop it has with our memory with our remembering of particular states of being which because we barely train their interrelation, we barely get a rich depository of information that helps inform us with the where’s, how’s and why’s regarding consciousness states that then overtime automatically grows receptors on both the heart and brain, that is signals that signal to each other and other network to help this process of awareness functioning more and more efficiently and deeply overtime. Where at a very practical level, someone goes from merely saying something simplistic about themselves “I feel angry all the time I don’t know what to do with myself” to “I feel anger on the upper left part of my heart, I can feel it pressing in my brain in this area here, I feel my mind contracting on the frustration of the experience to this left side whereas to the right side I feel it more open, as if I am semi aware of it, and in the upper level of my mind I can even feel myself enjoying the feeling of anger on some level but in the bottom area, there is a mixture of control, empathy and self-judgement which then angles to an entanglement of guild and shame that I am only semi-aware of compared to this broader encompassment. I feel that this shame-guilt entanglement is responsible for at least half of the frustration, and at least another quarter of that frustration is created by the fact that this experience is happening all over again with this person where I thought we were beyond this point already, this explains at least 10% of that noted guilt and at least 5% of that noted shame.” “I feel angry” does nothing for really being aware of the layers of that feeling and the electrical signals of both, so at the very least there is the space for *meta-multiplex-identity-awareness* that translates into the following. This is what I mean by developing receptors that get at the curvatures of emotions at a much more detailed level, then combined with that we build the memory which builds the patterns which also reinforces the receptor growth based on building the patterns which in turn build our overall intelligence between this ongoing interaction between receptor growth, experience and awareness. The second aspect is the concrete application of our awareness, how an obvious area of growth is on the various ways we can hold vs release our awareness in different areas of the body and in this case our heart, brain and mind, as well as other projective areas. Separate to holding and releasing, we can locate areas in our nervous system (i.e. heart/brain), communicate with our nervous system through various holding and releasing patterns and actually identify various kinds of activity of these areas like the firm distinction between fluid production to electrical generation in both areas and learn to through the SENSATION of these fluids and electricity, use this feedback from those receptors we’re growing as a means of playing with the intelligence between these areas and our awareness. So now, for the first time in your life, you’ve now reached a new level of what’s possible for you as a sentience. A little more than just learning some basic question and answer with a therapist sitting in their armchair running through their PATTERN-MATCHING questions, am I right or am I right? Pick one haha. Or better yet, this is much more sophisticated than just listening to some guru chat for endless hours on a video where at the end you just feel brainwashed, right? Ha, dinosaurs exist too. So, when I get back on November 2nd for this journal, needless to say I’m going to be going into a heck of a lot more detail for the next lesson being self-communication. Going back to the title of this lesson, the previous paragraph is something that translates into learning how to go back and fourth between learning how to SENSE the heart with awareness, SENSE awareness through the heart and then back and fourth between these two this unfolds into building the receptors that you can just expand outwards into more and more layers that then will also translate into more and more brain awareness for example. Till at least November 2nd. And... if it clicked for you... don't worry, "You're welcome!" Good for you!

and just so you don't think I'm like ignoring everyone, very coincidentally given directly above / last few posts I just got this message from a gal asking me two questions. firstly, after you read this post you'll realise why im so picky. When someone where I get a little "tick" by the heart/intuition, I'll invest with something like the following, there's just no way otherwise that I'd be able to devote the same attention and care to every message I received, and even saying "sorry im not interested/anymore" or some variation here, I'm not morally obligated and its not even necessarily a polite thing to do, actually its partly impolite to want it because you're asking for someones energy when they do not want to give it which is spiritually a bit morally corrupt when its certainly not owed after reading her candid profile description below, i responded with what follows from the questions mentioned after her profile description here: Profile Description - "I am a kind and peaceful woman, I like creating coziness around me. I am a tender and a little romantic woman who is ready for marriage and creating a family! I`m one of many single women, who still believe in people's sincerity, honesty and in real love. I must also admit that I'm romantic. I am interested in many things, so I have a very rich inner world and I am a creative person. In the books, I find peace, experience and wiseness of ages. I believe that we need to develop ourselves in different ways – physically, intellectually and as a personality. So I try to read as much as I can, watch different educational videos and study in different ways. Also I develop myself physically – I like running, swimming and riding a bicycles." simple straight to the point not overly trying other than expressing herself not trying to appear intelligent unless she's just doing it naturally feels like a true self expression describes true self which has at least some partial symmetry to my own And her questions to me were: How do you deal with situations in which you feel guilty towards other people? Is it possible to quench or satisfy the thirst for love and passion of a person, or is it an eternal desire that continues throughout life? written on the fly i casually wrote a "don't confuse the map with the territory" blueprint, but reflective of "true self" by not holding back like the other woman did, and if a guy player is like "well bro you're coming off way too interested" to me its like "dude im not trying to make this work im looking to see if we could be a team so just fuck off please you're a brainwashed zombie" to a player it looks like ive put in a lot of effort, im just free styling though, we're all different what looks like effort to someone is nothing to someone else other than the true expression of what's just flowing from the heart. if she doesn't reply, that means reality is informing me that we're not a good fit, the same too if I get a sense from my intuition regarding her reply that we're not for whatever reason, this is just letting nature be nature bro this isn't about manipulating reality to get a certain outcome. you're all like trying to be a player to appear cool or chill or whatever, well this is my natural chill so fuck off "The heart is a telephone that is constantly calling our minds. Sometimes we listen, other times we don’t and if we’re wise, the heart turns from being a mere telephone to an ethernet connection. Starting with awareness, we identify the rhythmic musical patterns that makeup the structure of the concert between composer, being our true self, and the orchestra we’re trying to not only handle but recreate the universe through this power of potential our spirits have been asked to occupy our attention with in this 3D materialistic plane, the beating of the hearts electrical activity in its connection with the rest of our beings. Guilt, like the rest of our emotions, is the dye in the purity of emotions created by that electrical activity in connection with our past experiences. Like a glass of water, we are forced to drink our emotions but we are not forced to learn how to handle or mature their various effects to a really high standard. Regarding guilt specifically, I handle the feeling with direct experiential action that would ameliorate the condition that relates to he guilt. If the situation is irredeemable, I would seek forgiveness on a spiritual plane and listen for answers on how to approach this this situation through the heart no matter the answer I get. Lets say I hypothetically don't receive forgiveness but I have experienced and processed the emotion in a healthy way while still feeling I want to do more because there is some lingering guilt there, then I would use the emotion to redeem the habits of my behaviour that led to the action so that future actions that caused the guilt are automatically avoided. I wouldn't say, just give lots of money to charity like some fools do. Only when we learn to listen to the heart, understand the heart and master its patterns can we truly act and live from it to its full power. When a westerner accepts this interpretation of the heart they may then struggle with whether the heart is meant to live in proper service to the mind or the other way around, I assure you however, that when you reach this level of intelligence capable of empowering the heart in this way through the mind, it is certainly the mind that is to live in service to the heart and never its opposite. If the heart can learn to tame the mind, well, there’s just no telling the kind of great being this sentience can become. In answer to your final question based on this, it is certainly the balance between accepting reality and coming to terms with the deepest truth of the self in so much as we have the awareness to both understand to this level to accept to this level or however great level we may be challenged to as it challenges different sides to the balance between acceptance and taking action." see yal november 2nd

5. TRUE SELF (as per the above) (and true self equals the highest possible depths equivalent to all that stuff I talked about regarding true love) Just one of the standard messages I get that clearly shows she's read my profile but isn't being herself not only that, she asks me what subjects I'm interested in even though she already knows and just wants to pretend that she hasn't read my profile so she asks me: "I am an inquisitive and intellectual person who appreciates deep conversations and new knowledge. I want to meet someone who shares my love of learning and intellectual growth. What topics are you interested in?" (she's perceiving me as an intellectual but I'm really not, I'm more a creative if anything or more me just trying to become the truest expression of consciousness, and nor am I a philosopher, though due to peoples life experiences this is how they take, interpret and make these things from their appearances) Just the intuition that she's not being her true self. Will not reply. Moreover, this kind of pretending behaviour or anything else at work here that is potentially something worth contemplating as it could cause a future relationship issue, it reveals that she's going to be showing that behaviour in the future and the relationship by various geometries. If this is how she starts a conversation with her potential future husband then this is how she will pretend with my mother (who I plan on reuniting things with as I talked briefly about in the book, etc journal). In what other ways does this however minor deceptive behaviour reveal itself in other ways? I've learned my lesson to not be a 'fixer' in a relationship as well, meaning my brain can generate an enumerable amount of scenarios that get my heart saying "yeah maybe that could work!" but you have to not be mapping from a persons circumstances rather you need to be mapping from the level of TRUE ALIGNMENT they are with those circumstances. Meaning, what level of truth is present in their lives on a scale of 1 to 100? How about love i.e. self love? And it doesn't matter if they're not totally symmetrical which should be our goal, meaning if truth is 80 love is at least 80 or above as an ideal, rather what the goal, is just as much truth there, so that can be the precursor of generating that symmetry to higher and higher levels We all struggle, I get peoples struggles, don't mess with my math too much or become too literal aye I have to learn the lesson my father missed before they hatched me (as I talk about in the Day 1 entry at the beginning of page 2) I'm a natural rescuer but I have to learn to have practical boundaries around my heart. If she had of instead messaged me something like, "Hi my name ______, I'm a little nervous about beginning this conversation but I liked what you said about this subject on your profile, I enjoy intellectual topics too (again, as I said I don't even care if the woman is intellectual or not I care about if she is natural or not) by the ways here's a stupid meme for humor would be good to hear back from you." Either we're ready to be vulnerable and speak it out or we wait until we're in a position to speak from a place of strength, either way we're both making sure we're speaking from our true selves as it then becomes a true relationship that actually aids our growth because that's what a relationship directly facilitates, that is, true growth, regardless as to how silly and non-intellectual we're being, as long as its true, truth invariably leads to REAL LIFE and not fantasy stuff (i.e. procrastination/distractions). Which is why I'm stopping this journal until after November 1st as stated in my Book Journal recently. But.... #5 wraps up this journal for now, didn't want to end on #4 (just like barfing out bad culture like its a sickness from too much alcohol/culture / cultural food poisoning ) and better to encapsulate the posts that followed from that So yeah. True Self. There's no complaining here, I mean, I'm not even really invested anywhere, just seeing how this stuff flies. I don't even message anyone anymore. I feel that maybe hey, maybe instead of going to study in Switzerland, ETH Zürich I actually do go to say Oxford uni for PhD just to find a gal even if she is a bit too much Oxford-culturalised. It's all just... I got a set of projects this year. They gotta get done. And for questions like that, its all just open-ended and I'll be much more creative about it after November 1st. its difficult to find a woman who's self aware of her being enough that she lives outside of indoctrination, ability to be socially influenced, brainwashed and so on and so fourth. Especially, especially, especially when it comes to gender roles, how they're attracted to men and how they screen men, so on and so fourth. Both men and women are terrible, and I hate the fact that women are so fucking terrible because then there exists a subset of the male population that everyone knows about where they literally practice all day and night dreaming about how they manipulate them and so on. I feel like I'm increasing my odds by going to Oxford/related but then the critical thinking question is, what are all the ways in which I'm decreasing my odds? This is where intuition after November 1st is really gotta be much more honed like I think I'm much further along compared to a few months ago, like more than ever I now realise I just have this incredibly amazing intuitions that just turn out to be spot on that in the past I didn't think it was even possible for consciousness to interpret things in that hyperdimensional way in order to generate those intuitions but now, its like my post regarding chatgpt in the Micro Lessons journal I will be as always regardless as to what happens, just be infinitely open mined in every conceivable way with every step I take towards accomplishing my goals between now and Nov 1st. number 6. that's definitely going to be: 6. Ego Aware / Self-awareness as that's really what I'm looking for in many ways but its just so difficult to come by because in all "spiritual communities" i've visited they're not ego or necessarily even self-aware its more, they're just evolving or have evolved into a new space but I'm gonna wait until after Nov 1st and let's say i hypothetically become famous with my music even though I'd really only be doing that because my father would have some disappointment there and even though he's passed and I still make my own decisions of course, like im seriously totally unplugged my heart, just as I am a rescuer, lives from a fucking place of deep honor and that's in all my relationships, so when a gal or my dad, mum, brothers right they live there or I give em a spot you know, i do my best to keep it a campfire for good story telling including too in this case the lives we've shared and progress updates inside this life and the next but you know, im still watching the world and see where it goes if i make that choice, everything there is hyper-strategic "get the shit out of the way" done / simultaneously prepare for the opposite of success that is world changing and instead just a "campfire" of fans that I have the same respect for "what is the impact i'm making in this moment, what is the impact that I want for the future? what does the past tech about this? who's the gal that's right who's gonna be the right support here. " so some are like, "oh you're too picky" or some immature, myopic citing like this and its like nah, its just alright you're a coach and you're figuring what teammates are gonna pair really well with one another for training, that's literally all this is, pairing up right with the teammate which is gonna be the right support for my life and my needs and vice versa, not just someone that's *merely supportive*, my step mom for example who was with my father until passing was an amazing wife for my father, they just fit well together, she was INCREDIBLY supportive of him, however the WIFE that suits me, wouldn't be good for my father and the WIFE that suited my father god bless his heart and his ability to have a great marriage for over 20 years, doesn't suit me until November 2nd puttin this to bed

NOW FINISHING THE CREATION OF 5 METRONOME BEATS TO KEEP TRACK OF 5 VIDEOS FOR EACH DOMINANT BRAINWAVE so i have just finished the timing of a 5 beat = 1BPM, 1BPM, 1 BP 2 minutes, 1 BP 3 minutes, 1 BP 4 minutes ---- schedule. I will be uploading these to youtube asap and sharing them below later (upload time = who knows) I am creating 5 vids( and uploading them today) Each vid is 2 hours long 1 2hr vid per dominant brainwave DELTA - 2 hr LISTENING VID THETA - 2hr LISTENING VID ALPHA - 2hr LISTENING VID BETA - 2hr LISTENING VID GAMMA - 2hr LISTENING VID the above prescribed metronome beats per x (1, 2, 3 and 4 minutes) are already added to the videos this is about improving the timing of the brain through sound and beat and slowing down to reach a certain connective state with being and reality by as well focusing on your heart-mind connection on frequencies and performing tasks during i.e. some kind of imaginative streaming perhaps, I include a reasoning component personality that I haven't fully disclosed in a public sense yet for me I feel these vids are going to be really great for deep, deep entrainment of learning experiences for me, for example and this is just one of many various creative ways to approach this, i can see how this will be really good for biographical streaming whereby im recalling past experiences, exploring them in a consciousness streaming style and integrating all of the subtlest sensations with the experiences in a way where I'm also getting feedback on the learning experience by keeping on track with the metronomes which only overtime enhances the learning and memory component the better in time one gets as memory and timing are integrative with one another each of the sounds per metronome are introduced at the beginning of each video in quick succession (every 2 seconds) this is my strat for achieving the goals of the previous post. next post will be all the uploads and then i'll be off

yes im glad I made the above decision i've already started changing my format including original music now based on the weekly theme here ill be doing with my journal so I'll be here every 7 days from the 1st of every month, so i'll be here again in just a few short days for at least the next two weekly themes i'll be creating super slow meditative music it'll be all about 2 weeks of deep spiritual connection slow vibration slow deep resonance cleansing of energies revitalising of energies deep enegitation ( diff word to medi-tation) so this carries at least till the 14th of june, here back on the 7th then back again on the 14th

these other journals outside this one are just a distraction from my work here so add another month+ to anything I've said in any other (i.e. Life Wisdom journal) journal Moreover, I feel like to be in integrity with myself, I need to have an "integration of experience" journal like this so that people know where I'm coming from experientially so that they know I've really put in the work to process my own past experiences that will ground me much more as well so I won't fall into any traps as per the previous post "enlightenment supply" as I shared recently in my dating journal Truth <--> Truth Well here more specifically, its: (the following analogous to how I expressed the above principle in the dating journal aka that "flawless logic" as I put it) Biographical integrity with respect to processing the past <--> Biographical integrity with respect to processing the past as such, I will make sure I create a thorough blueprint on how I personally approach that too (and again that ***flawless logic***) Peace <---> Peace As for my tribute here (go to the top of this page) I want to remind myself That at the end of the day This work is just for me, and that's how my father would want it It's a private world between dad and I right now I will just update it as an accountability check To show I've been on track every week and a bit In light of the schedule I am on, to prove to myself that I am in that described biographical integrity whereby I've properly processed my past I'll be extending this tribute all the way till November 1st now That will be really, really ticking the box on personal integrity there To show as well that I never used other journals as distractions to this work too November 1st as expressed is the date of my father's birthday, the scheduled release of his memoirs as per what I expressed at the top of the page that I am endeared to co-author with my brothers if they are ready to work on this level of emotional closure with me (one last time on that ***flawless logic***) Stay true to you <----> Stay true to you its a little longer to wait for my other work, granted, but it means one can be sure the cars definitely ready to be the first electric vehicle out on the road as intended, that there isn't going to be any car crashes because I hadn't done enough processing of my experiences for spiritual grieving love yah dad let's do this together i know you're with me the whole way (to November 1st) so once a week or so here now just a private journey between me and dad here as expressed this is just an accountability self-teaching space