Are you keep drinking? Justification of non duality,never heard that before.There are meds that can help you with leaving that addiction behind.Best of luck.
Not so special there is another forum user with same illness as me.I don't find myself anything special.I discovered my Infinitude that's special for sure.
I still didn't manifested all that I want and I don't believe in manifesting at all.I believe I am God dreaming all this shit up without a meaning behind it all.So arrogant or humble doesn't matter to me.I am mostly humble but when I get stuff that I want I will be arrogant.
Because as a man you need to have options and by attempting to disqualify her she gets hint she is not the only one which means you are pre selected by women making you a good catch for her.