You have no control over your thoughts.Take little experiment write down about what you want to think set alarm clock just 10 minutes ahead.Go meditate and see what happens write thought that accured when alarm ringed.
Question of the topic is free will.Scientfic experiments are in favor of determinism.None of your "awareness" BS talk is related.Make separate thread if you want to talk about "Awareness".
@Someone here There is no free will.
The answers you get from here are hard to decipher. I don't know if it is that some deflection tactics or what?!
There is a subject ,you,me, my dog, cow in the next village.
Who has tolerance for women's petty games anymore.If I can't have sex on first date (it happened many times before) I'll go and search another .Who wants to waste time .Women are the same .