WhiteOwl Posted August 18, 2022 Share Posted August 18, 2022 I have been seeing this woman for around 1,5 year total where she has been away for around 6 of the month of the time. Even though we have been seeing other for this long and are very intimate when we are together, she has not been a part of my life outside just food and sex, and she has never met my family, and only met with my friends once. I feel a lot of discomfort thinking about bringing her into that part, as I am afraid what people will think about it. I feel very much like it reflects back on my character. She doesn't speak the language and her English is not that great (we communicate in a third language also that most people here don't speak), which is also of my concern when bringing her out, I'm afraid people will think she is uncool, stupid, too easy (and therefor, me also). I am afraid I can't be myself, maybe because I feel like I meet her on a different level than my life generally since we have to talk a bit slower and I have to be a bit patience for her to understand sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I could easily do without her in my life, but then other times I do want her and think of the possibilities. We have a sexual connection and like the same things which I didn't try with someone else, which is why I can't let go I think. She is an amazing person, strong, really caring for other people, and I think we could explore some interesting things together. But at the same time I sometimes feel a bit bored in our conversations and I feel uninterested in her friend circle as it is very different from my own where its a lot more about being "cool". I would like to want to be with her and not give a damn about all this stuff, but I am not sure if I feel the right way for it to happen. I am also afraid of letting something go that might actually get really great because of my idea of how things should be. I had a girlfriend for many years earlier who I think is an extremely cool and amazing person, so that still influences my look on people. I am confused as when you love someone, as I didn't try it for many years now since my last real girlfriend. Anything you notice might be appreciated. Some insights already just from writing. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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