Weird thing happening to me

[Orb]

So for more than 2 weeks this has been happening to me on a daily basis.

 

Every night when im laying down to sleep, I stop breathing completely and just zone out, feels like im about to leave my body, then I freak out and force myself to breathe in. When I have those breathless trance moments I dont know what happens shit just gets weird. 

 

Its been getting so bad I didnt sleep until 3am last night fearing that id die lol. 

 

this is a better thing to bring up to a doctor, but I thought itd be cool to share just bc of how weird it is. 

[fopylo]

Hey man, it might not be much of help, but could it perhaps be over conceptualizing your experience? I mean, "zone out" and "force myself to breath" seems like something that happens to me sometimes (although not to the extent of fearing for dear life and not breathing). Personally I tend to focus on the fact (thought) of me breathing, as sort of a confirmation that I exist and that I know what's going on, but the thing is that the more I focus on the feeling of the breath, the more the concept "breath"/"breathing" falls apart and the less I know of whether I'm even breathing or not. The more I feel, the more I flow with the whole of direct experience and then there is totally no concepts arising as to "how does my breath/arm/throat/hand feel?" - Because in direct experience I don't imagine any difference between them, I just categorize all sensations under the same category.

Edited June 2, 2022 by fopylo

[Phil]

18 hours ago, Orb said:

So for more than 2 weeks this has been happening to me on a daily basis.

Two weeks appears in this happening (as a thought), this happening doesn’t appear in two weeks. 

18 hours ago, Orb said:

 

Every night when im laying down to sleep, I stop breathing completely and just zone out, feels like im about to leave my body, then I freak out and force myself to breathe in. When I have those breathless trance moments I dont know what happens shit just gets weird. 

The belief of a separate self inside the body is re-in-forced by believing the thoughts I force myself, happening to me, etc.

18 hours ago, Orb said:

 

Its been getting so bad I didnt sleep until 3am last night fearing that id die lol. 

“It’s” = interpretations… which are discordant, not what’s happening. Discord is added to what’s happening apparently. Thoughts don’t really die, die is a thought. The thought ‘I die’ is discordant because you don’t & can’t. Fear is the guidance of yourself, revealing the thought is a thought, about yourself, which isn’t true, thus there isn’t fear but the Truth. Beliefs don’t serve wake-fullness which never sleeps, and feeling reveals this. 

[Lotus]

You might be tapping into what the Yogis called "The Breathless State". By all means, go to the doctor. But when it comes around again, I'd try relaxing into the breathlessness and making a rollercoaster ride out of it. Vanishing in it.