White people (white family that adopted me)

[Reena]

In the end I only have myself. The illusion of a community is just an illusion. 

 

[Reena]

I felt like I could create something beautiful with that family. 

 

 

 

[Reena]

Their last name is Williamson.

So I lived with the Williamsons for some time. And they were kind enough to let me be with them when times were tough with my own family. 

 

[Reena]

It's not considered a divine feminine when a woman fights back. 

 

It's not considered  a divine feminine when a woman loses her temper. 

 

She simply can't. She is not supposed to. She is not supposed to flip out or experience wound or pain.. 

 

How many times have I seen this dynamic play out?

 

 

[Reena]

The Williamsons are my only last hope to getting somewhere in my life. Their comfort, guidance and maturity can help me. 

 

God bless them for having shielded me when I was my most vulnerable. 

It's hard already being mentally ill. 

 

 

[Reena]

The Williamsons are a great people. They gave me refuge when I was at my worst. 

 

 

 

[Reena]

I wanted to chop some wood.. With my white family of course.. The Williamsons. 

[Reena]

I'm asking my white adoptive family for guidance. 

 

Please tell me please tell me what to do.... 

 

[Reena]

I'm asking my white adoptive family for guidance. 

 

Please tell me please tell me what to do.... 

It's Patrick Williamson. And Lorna Williamson. 

Both have been extremely kind to me. 

 

 

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[Reena]

When you attract some form of abuse, try to stay calm. Let the storm pass. 

Patrick  and Lorna, thank you for your kind words. I try to recollect whatever you guys tell me. William is a friend of Patrick. He is a goofy guy. 

 

 

Edited December 21, 2023 by Reena

[Reena]

Now whenever something goes wrong I turn to William, Patrick and Lorna for advice. The Williamsons are a great people. 

 

Edited December 21, 2023 by Reena

[Reena]

They are a tight knit community and that's what I like about them. I have been keeping unwell. 

 

[Reena]

I have to first learn how to care for myself. I'm having a hard time doing this. 

[Reena]

 

 

[Reena]

I'm finding it very tough to find strength in my chaotic life. First problem is that I don't eat enough and I feel very weak most of the time. 

 

[Phil]

Anyone who knows your story and your past, doesn’t know you at all. 

 

Strength’s in you, not experience. Same for security. Insecurity is like a guiding beacon to feeling. 

 

The body might feel weak from the discord, but for you to know that you (“I”) feel weak, you’d have to be other than yourself 🤍.

 

It’s only the mind which is chaotic. 

Meditation and or yoga & breath-work resolve, and are how to care for yourself. Body & mind actually, as you’re the care. 

 

Abuse isn’t attracted. Abuse is ignore-ance. 

 

[Reena]

I'm an EMW - ETHNIC MINORITY WOMAN. 

 

I'm sorry I'm such a problem. 

[Reena]

Maybe my brown skin is a problem to some people. I'm an ethnic minority woman and that can rub some men the wrong way and that's okay. Seen it plenty of times 

[Reena]

 

My precious dear white family - 

 

You're the only one I have. To fall back on. You provide me with warmth and shelter during a hard cold winter. You protected me when I hit rock bottom and when my own family abandoned me.

 

I can't be thankful enough. 

Your love helps me live and survive through this hard time. 

 

[Reena]

People are offended over such little things. 

 

My neighbor was offended because I asked their pig to be fed. 

Things are that bad on the farm these days. Can't believe it.