Blessed2 Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 So I bought a couple of lottery tickets today. You could win like 20 million bucks. I imagined what it would be like and what I would do if I'd win. And I started wondering how sort of discordant or nonsensical it is, that I seem to be here, and I do not have that freedom and joy I think the 20 million would give. That I'm stuck and I have to do all sorts of things I don't really want to do, and can't have what I want. It doesn't make sense! There must be a way! There must be a 20 million bucks already! God could not be such an idiot. But where is it? It seems quite impossible, to really claim that "20 million" that in all sensemaking should already be mine. How on earth could I really feel the 20 mil already? How could I feel the joy, peace, excitement, freedom, happiness?? Not one bit less is reasonable! I'm not gonna settle. I'm not an idiot either! Quote Mention Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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