Blessed2 Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 So I bought a couple of lottery tickets today. You could win like 20 million bucks. I imagined what it would be like and what I would do if I'd win. And I started wondering how sort of discordant or nonsensical it is, that I seem to be here, and I do not have that freedom and joy I think the 20 million would give. That I'm stuck and I have to do all sorts of things I don't really want to do, and can't have what I want. It doesn't make sense! There must be a way! There must be a 20 million bucks already! God could not be such an idiot. But where is it? It seems quite impossible, to really claim that "20 million" that in all sensemaking should already be mine. How on earth could I really feel the 20 mil already? How could I feel the joy, peace, excitement, freedom, happiness?? Not one bit less is reasonable! I'm not gonna settle. I'm not an idiot either! Quote Mention Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 @Blessed2 the way that works for me is to start small and increase little by little. If you've never had direct experience of even 50,000 dollars in your bank account how are you gonna feel confident about 20 million dollars lol. What amount of money seems more realistic, like what amount of money do you think can actually appear in your bank account. Quote Mention "I shall give you what no eye has seen, and what no ear has heard, and what no hand has touched, and what has never entered into the human heart. "-Jesus (Gospel of St. Thomas) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 You can't feel 20 million dollars, even if you got it all in 100 dollar bills and threw them on the floor and stripped off your clothes and rolled in it you couldn't feel it all at once. I don't know what you're talking about. Quote Mention Youtube Channel Website Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 @Blessed2 When you were 6 years old how did you feel about having $20? Quote Mention Youtube Channel Website Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 6 Share Posted March 6 Starts out great, quickly becomes a story about separation & a separate self, with the subtle shift in frequency, the change in vibration, what’s most relevant… overlooked. CIM! Separation never occurred! Reiki! Feel the subtle energetic shifts! 3 hours ago, Blessed2 said: So I bought a couple of lottery tickets today. You could win like 20 million bucks. There’s no you! ”It’s just semantics Phil.” No! It’s all vibration! Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blessed2 Posted March 12 Author Share Posted March 12 So I've been imagining what I would do and have if I could have it all. All the wealth, mansions, perfect relationships, perfect health, eternal youth, most beautiful nature and travels, world peace... All of it. But why do I start feeling so... Bored? Empty? It starts to taste like ash. Something weird happened while I was doing the scale some time ago... There was like this insight that I don't need to want things to be happy. Maybe I don't even want to want things. I don't want happiness to be from having things etc. Nothing could be greater happiness than one that is not dependent on wanting or getting what you want. Purely unconditional happiness! It's hard to even concieve. Quote Mention Everyone is waiting for eternity but the Shaman asks: "how about today?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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