Go to war with the mind and you'll be at war forever - and it's a war you can't win, it'll just wear you down.
The problem is that you want to be having an experience other than the one you're currently having, and that's just a recipe for discontent; that's understandable, of course, it's just human to want to feel better, but that wanting just tends to make us suffer all the more. I struggled for years to meditate in an effective way, mostly because I was doing what you're doing and trying to silence the monkey mind, and the fruitlessness of this approach became especially apparent when I started to experience severe anxiety and depression; in the end, I found that the most useful approach was to shift attention from the mind to the body, and focus on simply allowing my body to relax and breathe. By practising in this simple way, the repressed emotions that were fuelling my chaotic mental activity gradually started to release, and I found that my monkey mind started to slow down all on its own, with no conscious intention on my part to do so.
But I needed patience and discipline - lots and lots of it. And I needed a willingness to sit with the discomfort, to relax any resistance to it that was present in my body, which could be felt as tightness and tension. It was a very rocky journey in all honesty, I would start to feel worse before I started to feel better as all the repressed grief, anger, fear, etc., started to arise. But it was worth the effort, I feel so much better now.