WhiteOwl Posted March 24 Share Posted March 24 (edited) I need some change in regard to how i feel about the music project that i want to create. Right now i feel a lot of worry, discouragement, shame, guilt, blame, frustration, impatience, boredom, pessimism. I put studying on hold because i want to produce more music and focus a bit on becoming an artist. I released my first EP and have next one coming out next month. I practice mixing a lot these days so i also feel confident getting the chance to get booked (had 1 gig so far). The "problem" is all the negativity that surrounds it. I want to laugh and enjoy and not take it so seriously. I want to feel excited and joyful and not feeling shame and being afraid of being judged. How do i find that place. I need a complete paradigm shift here. From garbage to just laughing and enjoying it Edited March 24 by WhiteOwl Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 Why not just quit, go back to studying and only make music when it's fun? What if you actually got further that way? Why did you put off studying? Quote Mention Youtube Channel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 On 3/24/2024 at 3:07 PM, WhiteOwl said: I need a complete paradigm shift here What’s the current paradigm? Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 (edited) 5 hours ago, Mandy said: Why not just quit, go back to studying and only make music when it's fun? What if you actually got further that way? Why did you put off studying? When i was studying i didn't really care about it. I quit because i have no idea what kind of job i want in that direction. So i would rather finish it when i had some vision in mind. Would be nice to do it for the safety and maybe something comes up a long the way. I think you are right. I "need" something on the side. Edited March 27 by WhiteOwl Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 2 hours ago, Phil said: What’s the current paradigm? Othering, competition. I believe all of the mentioned emotions are coming from that. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 @MandyI studied biology, ecology. Some of the knowledge i also find a bit useless now as its quite opposite of whats being taught here. Conflicts. A lot of beliefs about how the world works. That puts me off a bit Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mandy Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 @WhiteOwl What else interests you? What do you most dream about or wanting to spend money on? Quote Mention Youtube Channel Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 58 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: Othering, competition. I believe all of the mentioned emotions are coming from that. What about shame. Concept or emotion? Also, why no contentment felt? Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 20 minutes ago, Mandy said: @WhiteOwl What else interests you? What do you most dream about or wanting to spend money on? Being a working musician. Right now i dont perform which makes it a bit lonely maybe. But working on that. else i am not sure. Worth thinking about Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 Just now, Phil said: What about shame. Concept or emotion? Feeling closely into emotions how do you even know which is which? Just seems like the same energy. Guilt/shame who knows, thats just what we label the energy Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 5 minutes ago, Phil said: What about shame. Concept or emotion? Also, why no contentment felt? Contenytment is also felt. Also hugger emotions. Just some of the lower have taken a lot of space previosly Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 15 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: Feeling closely into emotions how do you even know which is which? Just seems like the same energy. Guilt/shame who knows, thats just what we label the energy On 3/24/2024 at 3:07 PM, WhiteOwl said: I want to feel excited and joyful and not feeling shame and being afraid of being judged. The difference is shame is not of Source and is not guidance. Shame is a concept… and emotion(s) is felt as guidance with respect to the concept & alignment. Likewise, “afraid” is a conceptualization of fear on behalf of an imagined separate self. It’s aversion, or, a way to not allow fear to be felt. On 3/24/2024 at 3:07 PM, WhiteOwl said: I need some change in regard to how i feel Right now i feel a lot of…. shame I put studying on hold because i want to produce more music and focus a bit on becoming an artist. The "problem" is all the negativity that surrounds it. I want to feel excited and joyful and not feeling shame and being afraid of being judged. How do i find that place. I need I need, shame, how I feel, not having enough time for studying and music, becoming, negativity, (thoughts as an) it, being afraid, being judged and finding that place…. …are all paradigmatic. Psychological paradigms. The fundamental paradigm is that of the separate self of thoughts not acknowledged as thoughts. There is no ‘needer’. Change can not be needed, all experience already is change. You’ve no actual clue how you feel & how you feel is never going to change. Thought & emotions change / are change / are what to change. There’s more than enough time for studying and music. Cut activities from your calendar that are not conducive to well-being, studying & creating music. Negativity is a belief. The actuality is how judgment feels. Judgment from others is not felt. Judgment & the discord felt, is being projected onto others. A you which feels excited and joyful is a belief. Excitement & joy aren’t possessions, like emotions. Happiness, security, assuredness, etc, is not a place, not somewhere or someway a separate self could become or get to. Happiness (etc) is unobscured, unfettered. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 16 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: Just some of the lower have taken a lot of space previosly It’s either semantical, or the discordant paradigm will be dispelled: there is no previously & an emotions aren’t objects which take up “space”. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 2 hours ago, Phil said: The fundamental paradigm is that of the separate self of thoughts not acknowledged as thoughts. It resonates and seems very clear your whole message. Thank you. So its about acknowledging every thought of the separate self or other separate selves when it occurs. I guess there is nothing else to be done Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 12 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: The fundamental paradigm is that of the separate self of thoughts not acknowledged as thoughts. Has to be just acknowledged because it fucking is true. Why act any other way. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 27 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: It resonates and seems very clear your whole message. Thank you. So it’s about acknowledging every thought of the separate self or other separate selves when it occurs. I guess there is nothing else to be done 🙏🏼 Sounds like dots are really connecting. (Separate) self ref thoughts feeling off, emotional guidance for thoughts, why some thoughts feel discordant & some empowering. As far as not taking things seriously goes, there actually aren’t any (things). Quite the mindfuck but, you’re real, reality’s apparent. 🤷♂️ 18 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: Has to be just acknowledged because it fucking is true. Why act any other way. 😂 Yes! Also… overall it’s letting go of all which is discordant (not you) and “keeping” all which is Awesome… you! Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhiteOwl Posted March 27 Author Share Posted March 27 (edited) 28 minutes ago, Phil said: Sounds like dots are really connecting. (Separate) self ref thoughts feeling off, emotional guidance for thoughts, why some thoughts feel discordant & some empowering. As far as not taking things seriously goes, there actually aren’t any (things). Quite the mindfuck but, you’re real, reality’s apparent. 🤷♂️ I don't think any more "studying" will do the trick. Truth has to just be seen now all the time and acknowledged. Jump in both legs sort of. "I" didn't start this whatever it is just to intellectualize Thanks! Edited March 27 by WhiteOwl Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 27 Share Posted March 27 16 minutes ago, WhiteOwl said: I don't think any more "studying" will do the trick. Truth has to just be seen now all the time and acknowledged. Jump in both legs sort of. "I" didn't start this whatever it is just to intellectualize Thanks! That’s the Spirit!!!!!! ♥️ There isn’t enough thinking in the entire universe to dispel the thinker & universe. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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