fopylo Posted March 29, 2022 Share Posted March 29, 2022 Vaping, vaping, vaping Just keep vaping Hmm.. cold Frozen skull Is it really worth it? Is it really cool? Patterns keep repeating themselves Life is on repeat I never know when I dive into a new reality As though new realities keep appearing New realities, old realities Always giving birth Life is on repeat My desires, my will, my power All of it - compromised And all of my dreams - sacrificed Stuck in the same position Noticing my hands And here I realize that it is all the same and nothing changed Cold air filling my lungs Fear of addiction floating up sometimes... Deadened...? Life is on repeat I want to shout a change I want to die I want to merge with the ever dying experience, which isn't actually dying, but thought makes it seem so, which is dying Why do I need to change? Why do I need to grow? Can't I just fuck myself around? Can't I just play around? Can't I just get back to living - before spirituality was a thing? New aspirations, new hope As though they haven't appeared before... Excitement for what's coming, relief from what's gone As though they haven't appeared before... The willingness to do something different, perhaps even... Change your life around? "Yeah! Go ahead man, you got this!" Have you ever thought about this?? Life is on repeat But I just want to be like him! Please, show me how, give me the answers I beg... Life is on repeat I don't know much about being alive I don't know much about being I don't know much about simplicity I can still say that everything keeps returning Every thought might reappear The meanings and value, back to the original And emotions, always coming back for a visit, As though they haven't appeared before... Life is on repeat Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 30, 2022 Share Posted March 30, 2022 One ‘loop’ is that of aversion. Rebelling against feeling, while feeling is the guidance, to receiving what you want. That loop can be seen through / broken (liberation). Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Orb Posted March 30, 2022 Share Posted March 30, 2022 (edited) 7 minutes ago, Phil said: One ‘loop’ is that of aversion. Rebelling against feeling, while feeling is the guidance, to receiving what you want. 👆 Source is waiting for you with "Welcome back!" Balloons and presents 😊. Edited March 30, 2022 by Orb Quote Mention "Mediocrity is gone. Mind is clear of limitation. I seek no state of enlightenment. Neither do I remain where no enlightenment exists. Since I linger in neither condition, eyes cannot see me. If hundreds of birds strew my path with flowers, such praise would be meaningless." - A Comment on the 8th Ox Herding Picture Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fopylo Posted March 30, 2022 Author Share Posted March 30, 2022 7 hours ago, Phil said: Rebelling against feeling So thoughts arise which don't resonate... In these instances, should I put my focus on feeling the thoughts rather than believing the content? Also, why am I resisting feeling? Why am I fearing death? Why do I have beliefs in the first place? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 30, 2022 Share Posted March 30, 2022 12 hours ago, fopylo said: So thoughts arise which don't resonate... In these instances, should I put my focus on feeling the thoughts rather than believing the content? If you put how you feel above what you think, then yes indeed. 12 hours ago, fopylo said: Also, why am I resisting feeling? To be right. For how you think you’re seen. 12 hours ago, fopylo said: Why am I fearing death? Why do I have beliefs in the first place? Cause you’re infinite and perfect. Inspect the thoughts/beliefs, to see if they’re true. Notice concepts of emotion / feeling, vs recognizing / understanding the specific emotions experienced. It’s like knocking on many doors to see if better feeling is there, and then realizing you are the greatest feeling… and letting conditioning, beliefs to the contrary which feel discordant, go. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fopylo Posted March 31, 2022 Author Share Posted March 31, 2022 @Phil 14 hours ago, Phil said: how you feel And by that, I assume you don't mean emotions (such as jealousy, anger, boredom), because these are more labels, thoughts, to believe. I assume you mean sensations in the body, like an itch, cool in the area of the stomach, stiffness, relaxation in the area of_... 15 hours ago, Phil said: Notice concepts of emotion / feeling, vs recognizing / understanding the specific emotions experienced. Emotions are also concepts. Man.. emotions are so vague, you know? Like, what are emotions? An emotion is literally a category of thoughts together with sensations in the body, mixed up (conceptualized) and we call this emotion. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 31, 2022 Share Posted March 31, 2022 @fopylo Don't assume, inspect. 🙂 That there’s an I which means is distraction. Communicatively, ‘drink a Pepsi’ is a concept. The point is to the taste. Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fopylo Posted March 31, 2022 Author Share Posted March 31, 2022 @Phil Yeah but 'drink a pepsi' is less vague than 'discouragement'... The question that comes to mind is "How do you distinguish among the different emotions?" What is the cutting line? If your answer is "by how it feels".. Then by what method do you categorize an emotion by the sensations? What certain sensations and thoughts do I need to experience in order to conceivably experience the emotion of discouragement? Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted March 31, 2022 Share Posted March 31, 2022 @fopylo Shift the focus from thoughts and or me to feeling. I’m like a road sign. Not even. https://www.actualityofbeing.com/the-ten-ox-herding-pictures https://www.actualityofbeing.com/tools-1 😊 Quote Mention YouTube Website Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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