noomii Posted May 7 Author Share Posted May 7 On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: đ Not asking if you know (anything).  Are you aware of these words, this screen, right now? Sorry for this late response. Yes I am aware.  On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: So âitâs aboutâ allowing interpretations to change, such that they are aligned, yes? Yes  On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: The Truth is unbelievably good, so thinking / believing wonât do. Only feeling will do (and not even).  Itâs be nearly impossible to continue to focus on what feels discordant (some interpretations), just like itâd be nearly impossible to hold your hand on a hot stove.  Question also where this âself in the futureâ (of thoughts) is, presently. đ Yes but I believe I can't acknowledge every emotion and question every thought. If it worked and felt easy to do so I would already do that.  On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: Maybe expresses blame but doesnât acknowledge blame as an emotion. I guess what I was writing counts as that.  On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: Sounds like more of a giving situation than a getting situation currently. Might be best to fill up first. What do you mean with this?  On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: Youâre more honest with friends than your sister? Just a friend? Sounds like thereâs more love felt for her, not less. When I said I feel like I can't be honest with my siblings I meant that I feel like I can't express myself fully and that I need to hold back. I didn't mean that I'm lying to them, although that could happen if I felt fear and want to hide something. I was that child who was "just telling the truth" but that have always started conflicts.  I'm more transparent with friends. I didn't mean just a friend, I meant that it seems like there are expectations on me as a sibling, that I should stay in contact with family, whereas with anyone outside the family I think I'm more free to just leave whenever I want.  On 4/22/2024 at 12:38 AM, Phil said: Does love equate to not being honest, maybe seem to based on a past experience / current interpretation? Maybe sometimes?  I met my sister last week on my walk and she said that maybe we could go to the beach this summer with her children before I leave. I said something like "yeah, sure..." if I were honest I would maybe say "No, sorry I don't feel like it". I think that would start a fire. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 7 Share Posted May 7 18 minutes ago, noomii said: Yes but I believe I can't acknowledge every emotion and question every thought. If it worked and felt easy to do so I would already do that. What would you say to someone who said that?  20 minutes ago, noomii said: What do you mean with this?  âHow does it serve meâ vs âhow can I be of service to themâ. By âfilling upâ I mean with love.  22 minutes ago, noomii said: When I said I feel like I can't be honest with my siblings I meant that I feel like I can't express myself fully and that I need to hold back. I didn't mean that I'm lying to them, although that could happen if I felt fear and want to hide something. I was that child who was "just telling the truth" but that have always started conflicts. Takes two to tango.  22 minutes ago, noomii said:  I'm more transparent with friends. I didn't mean just a friend, I meant that it seems like there are expectations on me as a sibling, that I should stay in contact with family, whereas with anyone outside the family I think I'm more free to just leave whenever I want. It can be clarifying to notice you donât experience anyone elseâs thoughts. Otherwise it can seem like the fear is because of what someone else might think about you, and pressure & expectations are coming from your siblings.  35 minutes ago, noomii said: I met my sister last week on my walk and she said that maybe we could go to the beach this summer with her children before I leave. I said something like "yeah, sure..." if I were honest I would maybe say "No, sorry I don't feel like it". I think that would start a fire. It really does take two to tango. Quote Mention YouTube  Website  Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 7 Share Posted May 7 1 hour ago, noomii said: if I were honest I would maybe say "No, sorry I don't feel like it". I think that would start a fire. Is your sister the same way? Behaviors and actions dictated by fear? Quote Mention YouTube  Website  Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
noomii Posted May 8 Author Share Posted May 8 On 5/7/2024 at 3:13 PM, Phil said: What would you say to someone who said that? Question and feel that thought... feels very off though  On 5/7/2024 at 3:13 PM, Phil said: âHow does it serve meâ vs âhow can I be of service to themâ. By âfilling upâ I mean with love. Yes, makes sense, I have felt too unwell to even be present with them  On 5/7/2024 at 4:36 PM, Phil said: Is your sister the same way? Behaviors and actions dictated by fear? I don't know Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 8 Share Posted May 8 On 5/7/2024 at 8:37 AM, noomii said: Yes but I believe I can't acknowledge every emotion and question every thought. If it worked and felt easy to do so I would already do that. What about just presently?  These thoughts.. about questioning thoughts⌠can be questioned too. Quote Mention YouTube  Website  Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
noomii Posted May 12 Author Share Posted May 12 On 5/8/2024 at 11:01 PM, Phil said: What about just presently?  These thoughts.. about questioning thoughts⌠can be questioned too. Question a thought right now feels too difficult as well. But yes it makes sense that I can question these thoughts about questioning thoughts, if I want to. Quote Mention Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Phil Posted May 14 Share Posted May 14 On 5/12/2024 at 3:29 PM, noomii said: Question a thought right now feels too difficult as well. Thought is exceedingly tricky. The thought that questioning a thought is difficult, feels discordant, because itâs effortless. Meditation slows down the believing of thoughts. Lots of space. new & more aligned interpretations naturally arise. On 5/12/2024 at 3:29 PM, noomii said: But yes it makes sense that I can question these thoughts about questioning thoughts, if I want to. Yep. âĽď¸ Quote Mention YouTube  Website  Sessions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.